suicidesheep31
Specialist
- Jun 27, 2020
- 349
I don't know how to start. I wish to take a mix of medications tonight. But I know obviously that I will call the ambulance. Why am I not able to let it go? I may just wish to have someone next to me when I die. I am in therapy right now. I know that I have this opportunity that not everyone has. I am trying hard to use the skills I am learning. When I think that I closed the exit door, it just come back stronger two weeks later. I am trying hard to feel better but don't see any improvement. I know what I can expect from life and the limitations> I will never be able to find a partner because I feel rejection everywhere. I am not good enough, not thin enough, not pretty enough. Or maybe, I am just suffering because I am vulnerable with rejection. How to continue to fight, to find the strength the live. I feel I am venting there. How do you prepare your exit? I am renting a room in a flat. I just just wish that my owner throw away everything. My family will never want to use something from me if I am dead. Shall I just let a note to my owner saying that he needs to throw away everything?
It is a sweet day, I am drinking because I am not able to stand in front of my anxiety and sadness.
How to kill myself without SI saying hello?
It is a sweet day, I am drinking because I am not able to stand in front of my anxiety and sadness.
How to kill myself without SI saying hello?