How to get through the weekend

[Jc40]

I didn't go into work today because I couldn't get out of bed. There is no 'friend' to contact. I am alone. I've not picked up medications because haven't got out front door so have to wait till Monday. I'm waiting on call back from cpn but I know she can't help really. I wanted to go to my mums but can't handle arguments so decided against it. Just feeling crappy. I know people are feeling worse because they will end it this weekend and I feel bad for that, that people have to. No interest in shitty tv or movies. Have been listening to music because it helps the tears come out apart from that I can't cry. I just feel so wrought up is all.

 

[GoPeaceful]

I can absolutely relate - so hard to get trough the weekends. I'm in exactly the same position. Just try to distract you, listen to music, watch some YouTube, read a book, browse this forum, sleep. And eventually you will make it trough the weekend. I know it isn't the best idea, but for me, if I can't go any longer, sometimes alcohol helps. Hang in there!

 

[dandan]

Damm , I just dislike everything.. wish I could miss my job, but can't or won't eat

This weekend I came to a retreat, Ayahuasca, it's a heavy natural psychoactive thing...

People here , I dunno, I don't seem to fit in.

We are supposed to stay for the whole weekend , I dunno if I'm gonna make it....

 

[Dead_Inside]

I didn't go into work today because I couldn't get out of bed. There is no 'friend' to contact. I am alone. I've not picked up medications because haven't got out front door so have to wait till Monday. I'm waiting on call back from cpn but I know she can't help really. I wanted to go to my mums but can't handle arguments so decided against it. Just feeling crappy. I know people are feeling worse because they will end it this weekend and I feel bad for that, that people have to. No interest in shitty tv or movies. Have been listening to music because it helps the tears come out apart from that I can't cry. I just feel so wrought up is all.

You have people here would talk to you... I know it's not the same exactly... but it's something. I am never sure if I wished I could say what I say here to a friend.... before people ditched me I said some things.... and it was not well received obviously.

 

[GeorgeEastman]

The only thing that calms my worries is saying "I've only got 16 years until I die of pancreatic cancer anyway."

Thoughts of death are very calming. They're the comfort I've always wanted.

 

[Xaphous]

Damm , I just dislike everything..

This weekend I came to a retreat, Ayahuasca, it's a heavy natural psychoactive thing...

People here , I dunno, I don't seem to fit in.

We are supposed to stay for the whole weekend , I dunno if I'm gonna make it....

That's cool, have you took any yet? I've been interested in it for a while, took shrooms a bunch of times but never DMT or Ayahuasca.

 

[dandan]

That's cool, have you took any yet? I've been interested in it for a while, took shrooms a bunch of times but never DMT or Ayahuasca.

Not yet, I just paid and passed the interview, but they told me the drug won't change me, would only show me , and that then it's up to me.... So I dunno if I'm fucked

 

[Jc40]

Not yet, I just paid and passed the interview, but they told me the drug won't change me, would only show me , and that then it's up to me.... So I dunno if I'm fucked

Hope it works out alright for you

 

[dandan]

Hope it works out alright for you

Actually it wasn't a nice experience, I just had bigger feelings regarding ctb and my mother and brother

 

[Roberto]

I use films, if not, come to the forum, I read news too, listen to music, if you like to read, read. I sometimes take alcohol during the night. I use to prepare a nice meal for the dinner on saturdays. Something I shouldn't eat, like pizza and something for desert (with lots of calories sweet).
Three days ago I couldn't go to the course I'm doing. I slept over 14 hours. I sleep until I can't sleep more.
If you don't do it, go to a therapist and may be take antidepressives could help you in the future.
In this forum I'm feeling ok. Because I feel identified by messages like yours. Thanks for posting :-)
I take antidepressants and go to psychologist & psychiatrist.

 

[Jc40]

I use films, if not, come to the forum, I read news too, listen to music, if you like to read, read. I sometimes take alcohol during the night. I use to prepare a nice meal for the dinner on saturdays. Something I shouldn't eat, like pizza and something for desert (with lots of calories sweet).
Three days ago I couldn't go to the course I'm doing. I slept over 14 hours. I sleep until I can't sleep more.
If you don't do it, go to a therapist and may be take antidepressives could help you in the future.
In this forum I'm feeling ok. Because I feel identified by messages like yours. Thanks for posting :-)
I take antidepressants and go to psychologist & psychiatrist.

I'm thinking about anti depressants. I've taken alot before 2016 but maybe I'm more willing to stick to them now. I've got actually people that listen to me (professionals) and don't force drugs on me but anti depressants was mentioned last time saw cpn. Might treat myself to pizza. Alcohol won't work while I'm crappy.

 

[siray]

Have you tried weed? It's the only thing that helps me enjoy every day of life for the few months ahead before I CTB.

 

[Jc40]

Have you tried weed? It's the only thing that helps me enjoy every day of life for the few months ahead before I CTB.

Haha yeah I used to smoke it regularly from 16 but don't anymore, stopped last year after having psychotic symptoms. Psychosis stuff was through stress not weed related.
I'm gonna find a film on YouTube and there's a guy that does asmr skateboard stuff that calms me so gonna do that just now. Thanks everyone for replying on this thread and for likes.

 

[Dead beat dad]

I didn't go into work today because I couldn't get out of bed. There is no 'friend' to contact. I am alone. I've not picked up medications because haven't got out front door so have to wait till Monday. I'm waiting on call back from cpn but I know she can't help really. I wanted to go to my mums but can't handle arguments so decided against it. Just feeling crappy. I know people are feeling worse because they will end it this weekend and I feel bad for that, that people have to. No interest in shitty tv or movies. Have been listening to music because it helps the tears come out apart from that I can't cry. I just feel so wrought up is all.

Hey friend, I'm sorry you're suffering.
If you couldn't get out of bed because you had no legs you probably wouldn't feel so bad, so if you're depressed and can't get out of bed that if nothing to beat yourself up about.
Stay in bed if you need to, close the shutters, the curtains, your eyes, it's okay not to bed okay.
Good luck friend.
DBD

 

[GeorgeJL]

That's cool, have you took any yet? I've been interested in it for a while, took shrooms a bunch of times but never DMT or Ayahuasca.

You can get any psychedelic you want from Dream Marketplace. You need bitcoins to buy stuff.

 

[throwaway123]

how do you get trough the week?

 

[Jc40]

how do you get trough the week?

Good question. I find weekdays a bit easier than weekends. Come on here, watch movies if you can, rest, sleep, read if you can, put your affairs in order if you plan to ctb soon, tidy if you can.