Help How to get past SI

[DeathcomesUwU]

I have everything ready, SN, AE etc.

But I love my partner and don't want to hurt her, but I know this is what I want and it won't go away as it hasn't for 10 years. My partners brought up a few times that they'd be okay with a suicide pact as they say they couldn't live without me.

But despite having everything how do I go through with it, it makes me excited to have everything and know I can take it, and I'd love to take it, however i can't have my partner worried and scared

Sorry for the ramble, I've not slept for a while

 

[Just-a-Phase]

I would recommend alcohol, it usually helps reach the "I don't give a shit anymore" mindset. But since you're method is poisoning, I wouldn't drink any alcohol because there's a chance of vomiting out the SN.
Try meditation. Probably the most consistent, and natural way to kick SI.

 

[meetapple]

I just read an article about how doctors are more likely to commit suicide. The reason is that they are more used to dangerous situations and the pain of their patients. So maybe someone could get over SI by exposing oneself to dangerous situations like walking through bad neighborhoods. I am not recommending that but it is something to think about.

 

[logan]

You have one of the greatest gifts anyone can have - a person who truly loves you.

So you should consider very carefully whether you really should do this.

This love can perhaps help you to live your life and to take courage again - I would wish you both that with all my heart!

 

[Anonymous_A]

Take some ambien and try staying awake.

 

[DeathcomesUwU]

You have one of the greatest gifts anyone can have - a person who truly loves you.

So you should consider very carefully whether you really should do this.

This love can perhaps help you to live your life and to take courage again - I would wish you both that with all my heart!

She does and I love her, she's extremely special to me. I don't want to be homeless together and it may go that way I am thinking I should take my sn before anything worse happens

 

[logan]

She does and I love her, she's extremely special to me. I don't want to be homeless together and it may go that way I am thinking I should take my sn before anything worse happens

But together you are more likely to find a solution than if you leave her alone.
I hope you find a solution!

 

[FuneralCry]

The SI is hard to overcome as us humans are programmed to survive. I think in my case, I think I will eventually reach the point of desperation and hopelessness where the suicidal thoughts have consumed my mind and I cannot think of anything else. It is a thing that I struggle with too.

 

[roguetrader]

The SI is hard to overcome as us humans are programmed to survive. I think in my case, I think I will eventually reach the point of desperation and hopelessness where the suicidal thoughts have consumed my mind and I cannot think of anything else. It is a thing that I struggle with too.

I agree. Actually, when the walls are really closing in, then it's more common for suicide.
You really see this behavior/action in hostage takers, actually. Most don't commit suicide till SWAT is called in. They know the game is up and that's when it happens!

 

[DeathcomesUwU]

I agree. Actually, when the walls are really closing in, then it's more common for suicide.
You really see this behavior/action in hostage takers, actually. Most don't commit suicide till SWAT is called in. They know the game is up and that's when it happens!

My issue is its like swat has been in for a while, I've ruined my life and now I'm just hurting others

 

[roju]

Take some ambien and try staying awake.

That's a good advice.

 

[Apricity]

I just took 1mg of Xanax, 100mg of gabapentin, and 20mg of propranolol with some Maker's Mark and root beer. Feeling pretty good right now, could ctb tonight if i had my Nitrogen already.

 

[meetapple]

I think the best way to overcome SI is through visualization. It is used by athletes and executives alike because the brain can not distinguish between what is visualized and actually done. If you rehearse some thing long enough in your mind it is bound to become second natur.

 

[Apricity]

I think the best way to overcome SI is through visualization. It is used by athletes and executives alike because the brain can not distinguish between what is visualized and actually done. If you rehearse some thing long enough in your mind it is bound to become second natur.

I'll finally be able to do a back flip!