Help How to get over post-mortem guilt

[LevUwU]

I'll never be happy or even satisfied

But I am in a relationship, and I truly love her. I've never felt love to anyone else before, not my parents, not friends, not my exes, only her. She's so special and unique and I fear she's the only thing keeping me alive.

How do I get over the severe guilt that my taking my life would leave her heart broken, or even lead to her own suicide. If I could get over that guilt I could finally commit

 

[auto138491]

Would u consider giving life a chance, for her? If not, i think the decent thing to do would be to come clear. This suicide ideation is the cancer of the mind. We are as helpless as a cancer patient, imho. In cancer, there is no control over the body and in this, there is no control over the mind. So, speak with her and see if she understands this. And wants to move on, or take another decision. It is, I think, her decision to make. The best you can do is be transparent witih her and give her all theinformation she needs to make the decision.