how to forgive myself for drunk behavior

[hereandthere13]

i went out with some friends to a downtown club for one of their birthdays. i should have been the designated driver from the start since i took an ativan and drank a little kratom prior to us leaving, but unfortunately, i ended up getting severely drunk before we even got inside the building. i basically ruined the entire night for everyone due to my aggression towards the bouncer and, well, long story short.. i ended up in the psych ward the next morning, staying for about two days. i later found out that i did and said some pretty fucked up things that night. they're all equally bad but the worst thing i did was touch my friends crotch without consent. i wasn't trying to put my hands in her pants or anything but i guess i had been pretty touchy all night which made her quite uncomfortable (both girls). having to hear a playback of my behavior from the people who were affected made me feel like absolute shit and almost a week later im still feeling embarrassed, disgusted and guilty inside. i've already promised my friends and family that i wont drink anymore, but how can i forgive myself and move on instead of ruminating about what i did for however the hell long?? i'm falling into another depressive episode because of this :(

 

[Jadeith]

Sorry for not being helpful but please, if you find a way, post it here. I have shitton of things to forgive myself i did sober so such advice might be quite useful...

 

[hereandthere13]

Sorry for not being helpful but please, if you find a way, post it here. I have shitton of things to forgive myself i did sober so such advice might be quite useful...

ill let you know :] also im available to talk if u ever need some support

 

[CedarLine]

It makes sense that you feel embarrassed and guilty after hearing how the night went. Those feelings can be heavy, especially when the behavior doesn't line up with the kind of person you want to be.

At the same time, the fact that you can recognize what you did, take responsibility for it, and want to change already shows that you're processing it rather than ignoring it. You've already taken some steps, apologizing and deciding not to drink anymore.

Over time, continuing to act in ways that align with your values can help rebuild trust with others and with yourself. Forgiving yourself usually isn't instant; it often comes gradually as you see the changes you're making.

Feeling bad about it now doesn't mean you're doomed to stay stuck in this moment, it can also be part of learning.

 

[Jadeith]

also im available to talk if u ever need some support

That's very nice of you but it would be wasted on me. I've already tried that. I mean talking to some willing listener. To no avail. So while i'm grateful for your kindness and willing heart, i won't trouble you with my darkness,

 

[americanoomad]

Remember not to be so hard on yourself and know that what's happened has already happened, and you can't change that fact. What you can control is how you move forward with this situation and your behaviour in the future. Maybe your relationship with alcohol could be something to look into? We've all done silly things while drunk, and trust me, I've gotten into a lot of shit for it, too. You're not alone in this, so things are going to be okay, and take care of yourself <3

 

[pumpkinboy]

i went out with some friends to a downtown club for one of their birthdays. i should have been the designated driver from the start since i took an ativan and drank a little kratom prior to us leaving, but unfortunately, i ended up getting severely drunk before we even got inside the building. i basically ruined the entire night for everyone due to my aggression towards the bouncer and, well, long story short.. i ended up in the psych ward the next morning, staying for about two days. i later found out that i did and said some pretty fucked up things that night. they're all equally bad but the worst thing i did was touch my friends crotch without consent. i wasn't trying to put my hands in her pants or anything but i guess i had been pretty touchy all night which made her quite uncomfortable (both girls). having to hear a playback of my behavior from the people who were affected made me feel like absolute shit and almost a week later im still feeling embarrassed, disgusted and guilty inside. i've already promised my friends and family that i wont drink anymore, but how can i forgive myself and move on instead of ruminating about what i did for however the hell long?? i'm falling into another depressive episode because of this :(

You touched them??? That's fucked

 

[hereandthere13]

You touched them??? That's fucked

Do you not think I understand that? I don't remember the night at all.

 

[violetforever]

It makes sense that you feel embarrassed and guilty after hearing how the night went. Those feelings can be heavy, especially when the behavior doesn't line up with the kind of person you want to be.

At the same time, the fact that you can recognize what you did, take responsibility for it, and want to change already shows that you're processing it rather than ignoring it. You've already taken some steps, apologizing and deciding not to drink anymore.

Over time, continuing to act in ways that align with your values can help rebuild trust with others and with yourself. Forgiving yourself usually isn't instant; it often comes gradually as you see the changes you're making.

Feeling bad about it now doesn't mean you're doomed to stay stuck in this moment, it can also be part of learning.

is this chatgpt…

 

[pumpkinboy]

Do you not think I understand that? I don't remember the night at all.

Anyways you need time

 

[cureforintroversion]

i went out with some friends to a downtown club for one of their birthdays. i should have been the designated driver from the start since i took an ativan and drank a little kratom prior to us leaving, but unfortunately, i ended up getting severely drunk before we even got inside the building. i basically ruined the entire night for everyone due to my aggression towards the bouncer and, well, long story short.. i ended up in the psych ward the next morning, staying for about two days. i later found out that i did and said some pretty fucked up things that night. they're all equally bad but the worst thing i did was touch my friends crotch without consent. i wasn't trying to put my hands in her pants or anything but i guess i had been pretty touchy all night which made her quite uncomfortable (both girls). having to hear a playback of my behavior from the people who were affected made me feel like absolute shit and almost a week later im still feeling embarrassed, disgusted and guilty inside. i've already promised my friends and family that i wont drink anymore, but how can i forgive myself and move on instead of ruminating about what i did for however the hell long?? i'm falling into another depressive episode because of this :(

What usually works for me is for them to forgive me, then I have to tell myself like 2000 times that I regret it and It's not my fault I am not usually like this n etc.

If you're neurodivergent it never really leaves uour mind esp if they dtill hold it up to you

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

What usually works for me is for them to forgive me, then I have to tell myself like 2000 times that I regret it and It's not my fault I am not usually like this n etc.

If you're neurodivergent it never really leaves uour mind esp if they dtill hold it up to you

Yea I fake forgave my brother but, I know "i" in reality havent and didnt even in the moment they begged for forgiveness,, I was weak and gave them the pitiful comfort they wanted, without really forgiving them at all,,, there excuse was simply
"i want to move on"
"I want to forget"
Well, i hope they never forget and always keep there poor actions in mind instead of looking for somthing to allow them to "move on"
"forget"
Or
"feel they've repented"



We carry our actions with us and thats what keeps us in check unless you let it ruin you more,,, and I get that feeling im alredy struggling myself..