how to do partial painless?

[favouriteworstnight]

i see many people saying it's peaceful, painless but i think i'm doing something wrong. once i was able to press my neck and i almost passed out using my own hand and it was calm, but i can't do it with a rope :( i've read so many posts but i don't know what to do anymore

 

[favouriteworstnight]

i was practicing and woke up with a sore throat…

when i press my neck with my hands my vision goes black but it stops before i pass out, i think i can't put enough pressure with my hands

sometimes i hyperventilate but that's because i'm doing something wrong

yesterday i was hyperventilating with the rope around my neck so i think i'm doing something wrong

honestly i hope experimenting helps with fear because i need to end my shit, i have one month to get the courage