how to deal with feelings of guilt?

[Felix007]

my parents have sacrificed a lot for me to provide me with good education, dental care etc, just a good life overall. they already think im ungrateful now, what will they think when im gone? "we sacrificed so much, and now he decided to just off himself..."
like i feel as though i have a moral duty to "thank" them through hard work and give back to them etc...
how should i deal with these feelings, because i cant pretend no more, i have no energy anymore to keep going...

and obv i also feel guilty about leaving them behind, and all the sadness it will cause, i feel horrible if i think too much about these things...

 

[Hollowillow]

They demanded too much. Gave too little emotional support. Flee their curse of 100 year torture. My parents told me wanted sex but not me. If done... Life yours. Choice yours. If tired. Be bad child. Do less work more rest. More fun?

 

[ClownMe]

I know some people may disagree with me and ive definetly got my biases because im an antinatalist with horrible parents but in my opinion, nobody owes their parents anything. (in most cases) it was solely the parents decision to have kids, and when you have kids you play the genetic lottery, there's no guarantee that the kid is going to live up to your standards, and if they can't see that then that's on them. You have nothing to feel guilty about, you're your own individual, you're not owned by your parents, so do what you think is best.

 

[assisted]

i don't feel guilty at all. my parents should have sacrificed more. it should be normal and expected for parents to sacrifice for their children. most do not sacrifice enough. they also shouldn't expect anything of their children. they chose to bring children into the world. children did not choose to be born. they owe everything to their children. children owe nothing to their parents. that being said, i hope you stay alive

 

[FuneralCry]

That does sound like a difficult situation to be in. I guess that all that anyone can do if they wish to ctb and are leaving others behind is to write a note which can act as an explanation for them and could give some understanding as to why the person chose to leave.

But the way that I see it, as humans we are all destined to die anyway and eventually we will all lose everything, grief and loss are simply an inevitable part of life. Someday everyone that we know will be gone and we won't even exist in the memories of others. If I was to die, whatever others would think or say could never matter to me as I would no longer exist at that point, it simply couldn't be my concern. Nobody is obligated to continue to endure a life that they never asked for, it's a personal decision when to leave this life behind, and this decision should be respected.

 

[universe]

I'm sorry for you, because I know how much parents can convey these ideas of sacrifices, which children must be grateful for. And the child ends up feeling guilty, it's a real heartbreak. My parents also took care of me materially, and considered me ungrateful whenI didn't behave like a robot enough. We do not choose to be born, I did not ask them to sacrifice themselves for me. I don't understand how a parent can put a child in this world (who didn't ask for anything) and then demand recognition. On what basis? I think it's to flatter their ego: it comforts them in their choice. This allows them to confirm that they made the right decision to bring a child into the world.
Despite this, my mother always said that the biggest mistake of her life was getting married and having children. She was not happy to have me, and always told me never to have children.

I would have given/done everything and anything not to be born. I intend to remedy this with the CTB. I must think of myself. Every human should be free to decide his future, to continue his life or not. This is a strictly personal decision.