I almost have my full plan in place for Oct 13. Theres somethings I still need to plan but most of it is there, the important parts anyway. Having my SN sitting in my room for a week has been a challenge not to go drink it. I've wanted out for almost 3 years since my son died. I don't want my family to have 2 painful days so I choose to go on the one my sons accident was.
Until I am face with my glasses of SN I honestly cannot say how I will feel. I think the only thing that would hold me back is thinking of the harm I could potentially be doing to soon to be 20 yr old son. I have no SI nothing left to live for. Once I get past the thoughts of my younger son I am pretty confident I will chug and smile, wait 5 minutes chug smile chocolate lay back in bed and go smiling.