AmIForReal
Member
- Aug 16, 2024
- 28
I kind of gradually am making my mind up to CTB.
Some here are truly suffering whereas I am not. I would not even call myself depressed.
This life is just not working out. I might think of a nice future but chances of getting there are rather slim of where I stand now and who I am. At 51 I realize I have let myself stray too far from the norm (lack of social skills, anxiety, addiction, no kids, no partner … ), and I don't see myself getting back on track within a reasonable time frame.
So gradually ctb is becoming a logical conclusion.
But ... I might be wrong. That's why I am posting this in the recovery forum. I looked at the resources but could not find a resources that would help me challenge my 'logic'. I mean I feel a therapist will not engage in such a reasoning with ctb as conclusion. As they might not succeed, forcing them almost to acknowledge my conclusion (which I think they will want to avoid at all cost). Or the discussion might even help me to close holes in my argument.
It's like I still have some hope to be proven wrong. But how?
Some here are truly suffering whereas I am not. I would not even call myself depressed.
This life is just not working out. I might think of a nice future but chances of getting there are rather slim of where I stand now and who I am. At 51 I realize I have let myself stray too far from the norm (lack of social skills, anxiety, addiction, no kids, no partner … ), and I don't see myself getting back on track within a reasonable time frame.
So gradually ctb is becoming a logical conclusion.
But ... I might be wrong. That's why I am posting this in the recovery forum. I looked at the resources but could not find a resources that would help me challenge my 'logic'. I mean I feel a therapist will not engage in such a reasoning with ctb as conclusion. As they might not succeed, forcing them almost to acknowledge my conclusion (which I think they will want to avoid at all cost). Or the discussion might even help me to close holes in my argument.
It's like I still have some hope to be proven wrong. But how?