UniqueWorm
the horrors persist but so do i
- Sep 9, 2024
- 27
When i try to write, talk, or even gesture anything to ask for help or explain how bad im really doing i just fully shutdown. What can i do about this?
Honestly, i dont know why i shut down. i donst feel like when i shut down due to being overstimulated or a topic related to truama coming upDo you know why you're shutting down when you try to do this? What does the shutdown look like?
If you are prone to shutting down, writing will be the best approach for this.
If you know your diagnoses, you could hit Wikipedia and read up on the symptoms and take what they say and tailor it to your own experiences. You could also search around this site. Or Reddit. Read up on other people's experiences and see if that helps prompt you. Another angle you could try is ChatGPT which I've heard can be OK for this sort of thing.
Is there anybody who knows you and about your situation enough that they might be able to speak for you?Honestly, i dont know why i shut down. i donst feel like when i shut down due to being overstimulated or a topic related to truama coming up
when i shutdown i become more closed of with my body language and either stop moving or start tapping out rhythms. writing & speaking dont work. sometimes i can sign, but im shitty at asl and it dosnt work for very long before I shutdown further.
im not supposed to have any friends or stuff online so that dosnt work, and the only person online that knows enough wouldnt be trusted by my parents because we met in residential and i would lose all contact with her. irl their isnt anyone who knows enough to help.Is there anybody who knows you and about your situation enough that they might be able to speak for you?
If not somebody IRL, then somebody online? Somebody who could write something for you that you could use to communicate what you want to say?
The other option that comes to mind is just communicating what you've told us here... although, you'd probably also want to tell them the seriousness of the situation, or at least imply as much. This is a suicide forum so anybody reading this here already knows it's serious, but whoever you're trying to communicate with will not have this benefit.
If this person you met in residential is already not trusted by your parents, then yeah, it would probably be best to leave that person out of it.im not supposed to have any friends or stuff online so that dosnt work, and the only person online that knows enough wouldnt be trusted by my parents because we met in residential and i would lose all contact with her. irl their isnt anyone who knows enough to help.
ive tried just saying what i say online, but i still freeze up. i think i can open up online because I know nobody will ever see me in person or