Venting How tired do you feel of existing here?

[FuneralCry]

I always do and I always have done, I think that simply just existing here is such an unnecessary and terrible burden, I find it tiring just being conscious and aware, existing is tiring as we are trapped here with no straightforward way out. We are stuck with our own thoughts in such a dreadful world where we can potentially suffer to extreme amounts, existence to me is so harmful and is what I see as being the true problem and I dread to think of what potentially lies ahead.

Permanently not existing certainly is the only relief and comfort as I'm tired of slowly waiting to die anyway, to exist is just a futile process of waiting for death to take us away and return us to the ideal state, if one doesn't leave on their own terms. There's no benefit to existing here, it's undesirable and appealing, the existence of life was a horrific mistake that only inevitably leads to more suffering being experienced unnecessarily all for the sake of it. There could never be any relief from suffering in this hellish reality, to exist certainly means to suffer and suffering is unacceptable to me.

I don't understand how anyone couldn't feel tired of existing here, the tiredness that I've felt is one that temporary sleep could never take away, only ceasing to exist could solve what the true problem is for me. I see so much beauty in the thought of everything finally being forgotten about and being unaware for all eternity, nothingness is perfection to me and I envy those who manage to voluntarily leave despite all the difficulties.

 

[Lulzacruel]

im just personally tired of being here. just sleepy.

 

[12_Years_Late]

I've gotten used to waiting for the afterlife for a long time now, so I can wait a while longer for it. But I am completely ready by this point, and so there is very little that I have to do over the next week or so.

 

[myusername890]

So very tired. The level pain that I feel upon waking up each morning and having to grasp that I am still alive and very much sentient is undescribable.

 

[lna_]

i'm so tired. i feel like i was born without the will to live that everyone else around me has. Both my grandmas lived til their mid 90s and i just cant imagine doing this same routine over and over again, every single day, for another 60+ years. i want out of this life so badly

 

[crimsonpool]

unbelievably tired. yeah the idea of not existing is comforting,when people say oh but you'll miss the good parts too i dont really care. theyre not worth it to me. very excited to escape the torture chamber of life eventually

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

Extremely tired..

I was born with a cable disconnected and burned. Everyone seems to coast around enjoying all the little bullshit, strolling around with their cups of overpriced coffee going "I better insta this daily thing"

They all go through this program loop like corporate robots, sadness only lasting for a moment until they journal it in a book because some "That person" on youtube told them it's a healthy habit just like meditation, of course....

I have no clue what these people have, everything either shocks or makes them emotional, I'm like wtf do you even live here bro, fucking put the phone down and smell the shit around you.

I can't stop seeing the generation loop everywhere i look, is this all there is wtf?

 

[Stinkyrat]

Always been feeling this way but " recently " since about a year it's just getting worse each day .. I don't know what to do about it I just can't rid of this feeling I want to atleast stop it from growing bigger but I cannot

Wishing u all the best I have you can rest a bit from this feeling

 

[MrDarkness]

I wouldn't say tired but at the same time I am, I just want my thoughts to stop and my memories to be gone

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yeah, I think it is being tired of existing. There's the briefest moment when I wake up in the morning and I'm ok. But then, I realise I'm still alive and all that that brings with it and it's just a sickening, terrible feeling. Ironic because I know people who wake up grateful to still be alive. Life's wasted on me.

 

[The anhedonic one]

I have gone way beyond tired of existing to the point where absolutely nothing or no-one could ever possibly convince me to live.
I have also lost all fear of death, and I am beyond certain that putting myself out of my misery is the wisest decision I shall ever make.

 

[MeltingBrain]

8/10

 

[hellispink]

I cant do this anymore i am a coward for still being alive but times is ticking

 

[Darkover]

i just wish to go to sleep and never wake up forever