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- Jun 28, 2020
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Hi everybody,
I'm kinda new (my first post) here, however I was lurking for a while now.
For me, there are 3 main things that holds me back from ctb:
1. I don't have the proper stuff for my preferred method (yet).
2. I fear of death.
3. My loved ones would get hurt so much because of my CTB.
The first two are manageable, but the third one is something hard for me to accept. I also know that it's my life and my decision, so it shouldn't be made on the effect it might have on others, but I would still feel shit about this, because those people really care about me. If I get to the point to ctb, I'm not sure what should I do to ease the pain of my loved ones.
Edit: there is also a bit more to this. One of my loved one is also tend to be suicidal in the past (not now) and I'm really afraid how my ctb would affect her. Maybe this is my biggest drawback for now. Maybe if our relationship get distant in the future, it'll make things easier but there is a tiny chance that my ctb could cause an other, which I definitely don't want.
I'm kinda new (my first post) here, however I was lurking for a while now.
For me, there are 3 main things that holds me back from ctb:
1. I don't have the proper stuff for my preferred method (yet).
2. I fear of death.
3. My loved ones would get hurt so much because of my CTB.
The first two are manageable, but the third one is something hard for me to accept. I also know that it's my life and my decision, so it shouldn't be made on the effect it might have on others, but I would still feel shit about this, because those people really care about me. If I get to the point to ctb, I'm not sure what should I do to ease the pain of my loved ones.
Edit: there is also a bit more to this. One of my loved one is also tend to be suicidal in the past (not now) and I'm really afraid how my ctb would affect her. Maybe this is my biggest drawback for now. Maybe if our relationship get distant in the future, it'll make things easier but there is a tiny chance that my ctb could cause an other, which I definitely don't want.
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