How sad is it being a regular on a suicide forum

[311]

I just thought about that for a second and it's sad. I need to ctb soon

 

[Mrt]

I just thought about that for a second and it's sad. I need to ctb soon

So true. I feel the same But how ? Nothing comes easy ☹

 

[Minudah]

I was a regular on ASH and ASM back in the day too, I made my first internet account ever to sign up for those. Would've done it already if it were easier. Feels pathetic that I've been frequenting these places for over 10 years and still haven't succeeded yet.

 

[Samuel]

I just thought about that for a second and it's sad. I need to ctb soon

Not as bad as it would be without the forum.

 

[EmotionlessWanderer]

Honestly I would be sad if this forum gets shut down or some shit. Yes it may be a suicide forum but you could vent out your problems and opinions without being judged plus you can find people to relate to very easily.

 

[311]

Honestly I would be sad if this forum gets shut down or some shit. Yes it may be a suicide forum but you could vent out your problems and opinions without being judged plus you can find people to relate to very easily.

True. But when you reflect it's also macabre.

 

[noonetoo]

Honestly I would be sad if this forum gets shut down or some shit. Yes it may be a suicide forum but you could vent out your problems and opinions without being judged plus you can find people to relate to very easily.

Without being judged? I'll find that hard to believe. But looking forward to the new journey. People to relate to? That'll be awesome. I've had very bad luck with that.

& it's not really sad if you're a regular... especially if you're blessed with fitting in.

 

[EmotionlessWanderer]

Without being judged? I'll find that hard to believe. But looking forward to the new journey. People to relate to? That'll be awesome. I've had very bad luck with that.

& it's not really sad if you're a regular... especially if you're blessed with fitting in.

Yes people could be judging me behind the screen as of this moment but it's not as bad as having to deal with it full face in the real world.

 

[noonetoo]

Yes people could be judging me behind the screen as of this moment but it's not as bad as having to deal with it full face in the real world.

True ...but "behind the screen" is ignorant judgment. It's not as damaging online. :)

 

[CFLoser]

ur cat looks similar to @Samuel 's

 

[Pulpit2018]

I dont find it sad.We are kinda lucky that we have a space like this.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

It's not sad if you're happy while posting, which I usually am. This layout though. It's gotta go.

 

[Samuel]

I just thought about that for a second and it's sad. I need to ctb soon

I like your profile pic ;)

 

[Invisible 73]

I was a regular on ASH and ASM back in the day too, I made my first internet account ever to sign up for those. Would've done it already if it were easier. Feels pathetic that I've been frequenting these places for over 10 years and still haven't succeeded yet.

Wish that emoji was just a regular heart. Youre not pathetic for that! Youre just stuck in a crappy existence. And youre right, its not ab easy thing to actually ctb. If&when you're really ready to do it, I think that's when it becomes easy.
From my short time here, I don't think its sad at all. I find this group to be a supportive and comforting place. Something we can't find irl, especially on this topic! I bet its saved a lot more lives then anyone may realize. Just by the people here providing those things. No matter what our decision may ultimately be. Xoxo

 

[SelfHatingAspie]

As counterintuitive as it sounds, I find suicide forums are actually helpful and may have kept me alive for longer than I otherwise would have. Knowing that there are plenty of people waiting to ctb makes me feel less alone.

 

[not_a_robot]

Not.
Perfect place for me. Perfect place to meet other people who see how pointless and stupid life and society are. Obviously I hope it will help me grow enough balls to ctb soon, some people here are really inspiring with their determination. I only expect to be a "regular" for a few more weeks though. Then I should have other stuff to do, or be dead.

 

[262653]

I think it's amusing. A regular. On a suicide forum! HAHAHAHA

 

[Retched]

Even during this period I have right now of feeling ok, and not having invasive thought of ctb, I can't give up this site. There is too much in here I relate to.

 

[Rukia]

I think it's amusing. A regular. On a suicide forum! HAHAHAHA

Well I am not sure if to be sad or amused...For sure one shouldnt feel the pressure to CBT...It is no some requirement when joining...

 

[not_a_robot]

It's not sad if you're happy while posting, which I usually am. This layout though. It's gotta go.

Lol I love the layout, this forum functions much better on my phone than others, even though I have slow data.

 

[LivingToLong]

Depends what people mean by sad.

Yes, it's sad that there's something in some people, something in the DNA, that makes them (me, us) want to CBT. The life you have, it's the only one you have and you really ought be able to live it to its fullest and enjoy it.... BUT... it doesn't seem to be that simple. Something gets in the way.

For whatever reason, I've accepted that for some people (people like me), life is not enjoyable. Every single fucking day is a chore, a game where I try to divert myself from my desire to die. No, it's not as straight toward as 'sometimes we all feel down' (as we've heard FAR too often) For me, down is normality and 'sometimes I feel up'. Sometimes, I'm happy, sometimes. I really am tired of that. Tired of having to lift myself day after day.

Yes, it's sad that anyone should feel like that. Sad because it's not how it ought to be.

But, the person who feels like that cannot be blamed. I don't think they want to be like that.

 

[RM5998]

Well, I keep alternating between being ashamed of myself for ever having polluted this place with my presence (like I have polluted all other places I have visited, both real and virtual), and needing it to survive. Which is ironic, considering the purpose of the place.

I keep berating myself for not having the spine to CTB, and continuously coming back here to suck on the pool of empathy that this place provides. I feel guilty for taking away from said pool, because I feel that I don't deserve it, unlike some of the other members who have real problems.

I know how pathetic and needy this sounds, but this place is extremely good at making me lower all my defenses.