WrongGuy47
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- Dec 21, 2020
- 41
It has been 5 years since I have been wanting to kill myself.
My first attempt was overdosing on sleeping pills, family found me took me to hospital was unconscious for about two days.
Second attempt again overdosing on sleeping pills but this time my body vomited that shit out, horrible experience.
After this decided never going for method which requires consuming anything, the vomiting experience was horrible even taking normal medicine for fever scares me at times.
Next time tried to hang myself to a fan, but felt like fan will fall backed out midway.
Next went to bridge to jump dad found me.
Started doing serious research after this only to realise how hard it's going to be to kill myself and the fear of failure of kept me going.
There have been number of times I have even thought of going to jungle and hanging myself or drowning myself in centre of ocean, but this all has been fantasy.
Again tried to hang myself recently but thought of family discovering me like this made me stop.
I'm tired of this shit wish I could just fucking sleep and never wakeup again.
My first attempt was overdosing on sleeping pills, family found me took me to hospital was unconscious for about two days.
Second attempt again overdosing on sleeping pills but this time my body vomited that shit out, horrible experience.
After this decided never going for method which requires consuming anything, the vomiting experience was horrible even taking normal medicine for fever scares me at times.
Next time tried to hang myself to a fan, but felt like fan will fall backed out midway.
Next went to bridge to jump dad found me.
Started doing serious research after this only to realise how hard it's going to be to kill myself and the fear of failure of kept me going.
There have been number of times I have even thought of going to jungle and hanging myself or drowning myself in centre of ocean, but this all has been fantasy.
Again tried to hang myself recently but thought of family discovering me like this made me stop.
I'm tired of this shit wish I could just fucking sleep and never wakeup again.
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