How many attempts have you had?

[whyidon'tknow]

this would be a great poll questions but I guess not everyone has those privileges.

I have 15+ attempts. My most serious was a partial attempt where I made myself pass out. Might have worked if the socks I put around my neck were too bulky.

What about you guys?

Love and kindness

 

[TimeToDie]

Does it count as an attempt if you simply hold a loaded .357 Mag all day and can't bring yourself to cock the hammer? That was many years ago. I don't count that, so my total is zero.

 

[deathenvoy]

Just one: 40mg lorazepam with rum. My next attempt will be lethal.

 

[Circles]

Tried hanging twice and now practicing for the third.

 

[SinisterKid]

2, third, if there is to be one, will be the last.

 

[quiet35]

Tried to die by fasting 4-5 times. Once tried to get lost in a forest. Yes, all pretty pathetic attempts. SI was impossible to overcome.

 

[21Neberg]

Tried to die by fasting 4-5 times. Once tried to get lost in a forest. Yes, all pretty pathetic attempts. SI was impossible to overcome.

It's not pathetic. It actually shows your strength that you got through those times. I've been there, those days are unbearable.
I've had three attempts, failed hanging thrice. Got very close though but I pulled myself up for no fucking reason - I hate myself for it. I've got SN now, it won't fail. Just need some courage.

 

[nomorefight]

Tried to die by fasting 4-5 times. Once tried to get lost in a forest. Yes, all pretty pathetic attempts. SI was impossible to overcome.

I do the fasting too, but it just takes too long because someone always notices before I get sick enough. All it did was put me in the hospital and diagnose me with an eating disorder :/

 

[inconsequential]

Too many shitty attempts when I was under 18.

Two genuine ones after 18.

 

[Nihil]

7 actual attempts (belt noose hanging & 6 games of Russian roulette), and 3 aborted attempts (helium gas aspyhxiation, having ingredients for hydrogen cyanide that have since safely been disposed of, and another hanging with a hangman's noose). How I am still alive, I have no idea. Purely luck. Though, suicidal ideation has been gradually lessening the past few weeks, so that's nice. Still have it every now and then though.

 

[whyidon'tknow]

Wow, you guys make me feel like having too many suicide attempts to remember as being a really bad thing haha. Oh well

 

[soda_pressed]

3 attempts. Overdosing and partial.

4 if you count spending 20 minutes at a carpark thinking about jumping

 

[Oblivion Lover]

I only have one failed suicide attempt as of now. Tried to overdose in prescription meds before going to sleep a few months ago. In theory it sounded like a great plan. I've researched drug interactions and took a lot of them together before going to bed so I could die peacefully during sleep, but apparently the dose I took was not even close to the necessary. It was very peaceful, though. I didn't even felt the urge to throw up and I woke up with no symptoms. I really don't want that to happen again. Next time I will not allow myself to fail.

 

[ReverendGreen]

Zero serious attempts yet
Handful of half-assed strangulation attempts when I was younger

 

[Zer0]

I never tried for real, but sometimes when I'm feeling too shitty I like to hang myself just for a bit, just to see if I can find the right spot

 

[Pilum Muralis]

Once when I was a teen. Tried to OD, and obviously failed.

 

[Kuolema]

Never attempted. But I stood on top of a bridge once and thought very seriously about jumping. Glad I didn't cause now I know the fall probably wouldn't have killed me.

 

[Cloudy]

2 half arsed attempts: wrist slitting (not deep enough) and sleeping pills OD (didn't know any better)

 

[RM5998]

No serious attempts. Thought about swallowing my mom's pills once, and at another time stood with my head in a noose, paralyzed by fear.