Venting How many are still here because of the fear of failure?

[singularity3]

If the success of the CTB were guaranteed, this website would exist?. Ultimately this is nothing more than another "prison".

 

[アホペンギン]

This website would still exist, at least something close to it. This is a safe haven to talk about your feelings and share your thoughts. Also, sources may be exchanged as well for some materials needed for ctb.

 

[FuneralCry]

I doubt there would be any need for a suicide forum if we could all just leave this existence in an instant and guaranteed way with no risks. And yes, the fear of failure is what terrifies me and keeps me here as well as the fact that suicide methods are inacessible in general. It's so disgusting and cruel how it's so difficult to die, I despise this anti-suicide society.

 

[The Burning Fool]

I'd still be here, because I'm trying to prevent the pain and suffering of my family by not CTB. When they die or become demented enough that they can forget it, then I CTB.

 

[Neuromancer]

If there's a guaranteed suicide method, I wouldn't be in sasu, neither on this world. Guess lot of people thinks that, and it would make the forum empty - eventually, closing.. That's my guess.

 

[Seered Doom]

I'm still here bc I'm afraid to fail and because I feel like a monster

 

[SpiritualDeath]

If there were a 100% reliable method I wouldn't be here now. My fear of failure is certainly more intense than fear of death. Life is what's cruel, not death.

 

[Seered Doom]

Truth

 

[kilowatt]

Failing CTB again is my biggest fear. I couldn't imagine the aftermath.

 

[purpleorangegreen_]

To be honest with you, if I knew I had a method that wouldn't fail, I wouldn't have signed up to SS, there would be no need. I would simply leave my notes, say my goodbyes and get it over with.

 

[ang3lz]

I'm really scared of failing again. The first time I failed, my dad constantly questioned why to me, with me just wanting to "throw my life away" while my mum gave everything to live. I hate living and hurting people. If I die, I hurt them once then never again, slowly becoming forgotten about. Failing an attempt again and hurting whoever's around and dealing with that guilt terrifies me. Horrible of me, I know.

 

[MyLifeisHell]

Me

 

[SolomonKado]

I would already be gone if there was no fear of failure. Ive been sitting here alone in this torment with no one around for almost a year. I don't think it would be that big of a hit, to anyone, if I leave. Both parents have been deceased for awhile and the rest of my family doesn't seem to get along.

I think SaSu would still be here because some might not know of the guaranteed method right away and then find the information here for it. Plus those who change their mind and stay for pets, family, pain it would cause for others, etc. They just need a place to unload all this pain that they couldn't anywhere else since they're staying. Even though their pain continues. Also, there are some who love this feeling and feed off of others…it's disgusting to me, but it doesn't make it any less true…this site is needed and important as long as there is suffering and pain in the world.

 

[DreamEnd]

Me. The truth.

 

[ClownWorld2023]

Still here, because my CTB setup is still a work in progress...


I've chose not to CTB in the past exactly for the reason you said, and it backfired horribly.
All my attempts at recovery were in vain and I ended up losing more than I started with.
Now my health is terrible and I've become a misanthrope.

 

[bessops1976]

I seriously underestimated the task of self termination having recently failed a significant attempt. I wish exiting was easier, like going to sleep and not waking simply because you wish for it. I wonder if it's true, that old people can 'will' themselves to death after losing a lifelong partner for example. I would have left long ago if it was easier. We are somehow designed to survive even the most serious of attempts... I wish I had the courage for a more violent exit like jumping or train (that's brutal for the poor driver though). It's not the fear of failure that keeps me here, it's the survival instinct when placed in the most dangerous of situations

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Fear of failure - yeah it's one of the reasons among other things y I haven't CTBed when I was very close to attempting.

 

[ayaneechan]

I not think I can call it fear of failure, it's more fear that methods can become just more inaccessible for me. I want to be more sure as I can to have success.
More they think I'm doing OK, searching a job, trying to live alone, etc... lesser everyone is trying to make sure I not attempt again

 

[Dying Knight]

I'm pretty confident with 2 methods I've chosen, and the only reason why I didn't use any of them yet is because I still see some small chances to improve my life which I plan to try to realize.

 

[wanttodie]

yes Fear of failure or id do right know

 

[that_guy2611]

Yup, haven't tried because I don't want to become a vegetable.

 

[sserafim]

If the success of the CTB were guaranteed, this website would exist?. Ultimately this is nothing more than another "prison".

That's the only reason why I'm still here, lol. Haven't tried to ctb yet because I'm too scared that I would fail, and be left with permanent damage as well. If I knew that I would succeed, I would definitely do it.

Yup, haven't tried because I don't want to become a vegetable.

Same! I hate the thought of failing at it and having permanent damage. It would've been better to never have even attempted in the first place

If there were a 100% reliable method I wouldn't be here now. My fear of failure is certainly more intense than fear of death. Life is what's cruel, not death.

Agreed! My fear of failure is the only thing keeping me here. I'm not scared to die, I'm scared to fail an attempt. And ikr! People think death is cruel, but in fact it's life that is. Tbh life is nothing but suffering…death is a welcome escape from life

 

[Shiva_Story]

I'm still here bcs of organizing, planning, assembling, tying up loose ends.. approaching the matter responsibly..very grateful for this site!