How long will it take to wake if i fail??

[downndone2]

Still looking for OD advice.. just miserable and need to go pretty soon. Right now, 2 options listed below. I have to schedule texts to go out...

I have 500mg oxy, 500mg Demerol, and minimal amount Hydrocodone. Also have about a month worth of Metoprolol (heart medicine that slows heart rate) that I cab take in addition. No prior use of opiates, other than for procedures and none in last several years. I realize it may not be enough but I'm sure thinking about trying. Don't know whether to snort, inject, or take orally

Also, if this doesn't work how long should I expect to be out. I want to schedule texts but don't want there to be any chance of my still being alive when they get sent. I'm assuming several days toauto send?

This whole thing is so awful and SI has been on my mind too. But the decisions I've made have destroyed me...

Please any advice, anything... I no longer want to be here. I do have a gun as second method but would like to try this

 

[downndone2]

And looking for anyone that relates financial devastation and terrible heartbreak. My PM is open for just conversation. Feel like I've only got 4 walls....

 

[qwerty1969]

I passed out for 10 hours.

 

[SilentSadness]

Overdosing sounds like such a horrifying method that has a low success rate, it takes so much time and can go wrong in so many ways. The gun sounds much more suitable but even those can fail if the gun is weak and I'm sure it must be so intimidating. I wish we were able to walk into a euthanasia clinic and die peacefully from a lethal injection without worry of anything going wrong, it's so devastating that we have to resort to brutal methods. I hope you make the right decision, even if that means not ctb.

 

[downndone2]

I passed out for 10 hours.

Do you recall how much you took?

 

[HopelessAngel]

I'm sorry that you're struggling, friend. I can't relate to your personal situation, but I can relate to your method. I don't have much in the way of advice, but maybe hearing my experience can help you figure things out.

A few years back I attempted on a cocktail of drugs; opiates, benzos, alcohol, etc. It was a lot, I don't know exactly how much, I just took everything I had. I was desperate, and wanted a painless method, something I could "drift off to sleep" with. That's always been my style. Before I blacked out, my survival instinct kicked in, I panicked, and called a friend for help. I woke up about 30 hours later in the hospital.

I lost over an entire day and honestly I couldn't tell you what happened during it. I'm not sure if I was out that long due to what I took, or whether it was something the hospital did. When I woke up the doctor was telling me how lucky I was, but I'll be honest I didn't feel lucky at all. I was angry at myself for "chickening out". I guess in that moment, some part of me wasn't ready, though now I wish I had been.

In hindsight I realized, for me personally, if I'm ready to go, then there's no harm in taking time to plan it out. "Rolling the dice" and hoping wasn't enough, it just caused me more pain. It was expensive, it was emotionally exhausting, and when it was over, my only regret was that I hadn't succeeded. When I go, I'm going to make sure I'm fairly confident I won't be waking up.

 

[downndone2]

Overdosing sounds like such a horrifying method that has a low success rate, it takes so much time and can go wrong in so many ways. The gun sounds much more suitable but even those can fail if the gun is weak and I'm sure it must be so intimidating. I wish we were able to walk into a euthanasia clinic and die peacefully from a lethal injection without worry of anything going wrong, it's so devastating that we have to resort to brutal methods. I hope you make the right decision, even if that means not ctb.



Thanks, I am a bit scared to use gun. I've had it for years and just hasn't ever been option for ne until last few months. If I fail, I don't want to be caught abd want to have gun to use pretty quick after I wake, if OD should fail

 

[FireWalkWithMe]

Unfortunately this is quite literally impossible to answer.

Even if we had access to every piece of information such as age, gender, height, weight, your health, it would still be nothing but a huge guess because everyone has a different makeup and response to drugs. When you're combining drugs it is even more complex and unpredictable.

I would say don't do it because it's not reliable. But I'd say if you are going to do it, you pretty much have to be mentally ready to die and ready to fail at the same time. You're kinda putting yourself out there for randomness to decide your fate.

 

[downndone2]

I'm sorry that you're struggling, friend. I can't relate to your personal situation, but I can relate to your method. I don't have much in the way of advice, but maybe hearing my experience can help you figure things out.



A few years back I attempted on a cocktail of drugs; opiates, benzos, alcohol, etc. It was a lot, I don't know exactly how much, I just took everything I had. I was desperate, and wanted a painless method, something I could "drift off to sleep" with. That's always been my style. Before I blacked out, my survival instinct kicked in, I panicked, and called a friend for help. I woke up about 30 hours later in the hospital.



I lost over an entire day and honestly I couldn't tell you what happened during it. I'm not sure if I was out that long due to what I took, or whether it was something the hospital did. When I woke up the doctor was telling me how lucky I was, but I'll be honest I didn't feel lucky at all. I was angry at myself for "chickening out". I guess in that moment, some part of me wasn't ready, though now I wish I had been.



In hindsight I realized, for me personally, if I'm ready to go, then there's no harm in taking time to plan it out. "Rolling the dice" and hoping wasn't enough, it just caused me more pain. It was expensive, it was emotionally exhausting, and when it was over, my only regret was that I hadn't succeeded. When I go, I'm going to make sure I'm fairly confident I won't be waking up.

I don't think I'll call for help, as it's about all I think about since fixing my situation seems impossible and my heart is quite broken, always will be.

 

[qwerty1969]

A week's worth of painkillers, antibiotics, anti anxiety medication and 10,000 mg of paracetamol. Now having horrific nightmares every single day and night. Numbers don't mean anything because every drug.has it's own level of toxicity. Everything is a gamble

 

[downndone2]

I'm sorry to hear about your ordeal. I hope you are doing okay..

Unfortunately this is quite literally impossible to answer.































































Even if we had access to every piece of information such as age, gender, height, weight, your health, it would still be nothing but a huge guess because everyone has a different makeup and response to drugs. When you're combining drugs it is even more complex and unpredictable.































































I would say don't do it because it's not reliable. But I'd say if you are going to do it, you pretty much have to be mentally ready to die and ready to fail at the same time. You're kinda putting yourself out there for randomness to decide your fate.















































I understand where you are coming from. I'm completely tempting fate but have hopes it will work. In the event it soesnt rather than wake up in a hospital, I'd rather wake up to grab my 9mm. I was just putting this out there to get a gage on approxim is all. Also understand that OD is often quite unsuccessful.

A week's worth of painkillers, antibiotics, anti anxiety medication and 10,000 mg of paracetamol. Now having horrific nightmares every single day and night. Numbers don't mean anything because every drug.has it's own level of toxicity. Everything is a gamble







so sorry to hear of your experience and hope you feel better. I do understand every situation is different.