Discussion how long has it been going like this?..

[_Minsk]

I have to go back many long and painful years to find some moments in which i have been actually felt somewhat okay, maybe its just the nostalgia if you can call it that way. there is nothing more painful for me than looking back on that time, where i used to feel at peace, even some joy, life was good from my current standpoint. most things were easy to accomplish, and yet still people run around and say its all due to their hard work lol. okay i don't want to drift away, it has been roughly 7-8 years of continuously pain, there were some delusional moments in which i thought stuff might go smooth but here we are. so many years, i wonder how i'm still alive, at least physically.. how long have you tried?

 

[SpottedPanda]

I've lived seven years of mediocrity and timidity. At some point, right on the ball of turning thirty, I'd taken all I could take

 

[Deleted member 19276]

I guess the most painful part is where I have to go back to a moment of my life where I had real life friends. Nowadays, I keep having dreams of them, almost as if those happy moment haunt me. I keep waking up, sweating at times and nearly crying, realizing that it's over and it may as well never be again. Time moves on, but some things don't change. I miss them all, so very much... Nothing I could do about it. I wonder how I have kept going like this as well, almost constantly.

 

[Bruces]

On and off most of my life,but last 7 years has been complete hell

 

[rhiino]

For me it has also been nearly 8 years of suffering now.

 

[Mistake of Nature]

I've been fighting for about 18 years, with the last 5-10 years being particularly difficult. Childhood was the last time I felt truly happy and content with life. The trauma, pain, loneliness, etc. is catching up to me now. I'm so tired...

 

[lunargreenx]

I am 19 and I was never happy. I had only okay moments in my life. My mother beat me regularly (I still live with her unfortunately) when I was a kid. Depression and the realization of abuse came when I was 10. Until then, I believed that this was completely normal.

So I've been suffering over a decade. Instead of getting to know myself, I am seeing abandoning myself.

I truly can't go on like this anymore.

 

[Broken Chimera]

I've been fighting for about 18 years, with the last 5-10 years being particularly difficult. Childhood was the last time I felt truly happy and content with life. The trauma, pain, loneliness, etc. is catching up to me now. I'm so tired...

I've been fighting for the same amount of time. I'm sorry.

 

[4eyebiped]

You all are amateurs! I got you all beat! Life has been kicking me in my balls for 32 years now... Wait a minute, this isn't a competition I wanted to win. :(

 

[Bct]

In my case, the pain just feel really intense since at the beginning of this year, but I had been struggling with depression & loneliness since junior high school, so maybe it's around 14 years.