Discussion How long do people usually stick around on the site?

[slamjoetry]

I usually see a lot of people on here with accounts made three months ago or fewer. Not that there's anything wrong with that, I think everyone should be welcome here. But I wonder what the usual length of time someone is active on SaSu. Maybe some people just use it for intense depressive episodes, then leave when they get better or CTB?

For context, this account is a year old, but I've been here for around five years off and on. I wonder how common it is for people to do that too, deleting and making new accounts.

 

[TennTrixie]

I can't speak for anyone else, but I signed up on this website because I thought it was a place to research ways/methods to CTB. I didn't realize there was a feature to talk with other people through chats/messages/posts. I've been on here longer than I intended, only because I've delayed my CTB to try to minimize hurt to my loved ones - like waiting until after Christmas and other key dates. I desire to CTB due to physical health issues that are close to crippling me. I will be doing it soon to escape that, so I'll be a statistic of an account that will have only been active about 6 months then go dormant.

 

[ma0]

This is a difficult question. I've seen accounts made 2 years ago that have like 5 posts, and likewise I've seen accounts made a month ago with over 1000.

The only way to really answer this is with some graphs and statistics shit, but I left maths behind when I left school, so I'm not gonna be the one to find out.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I'm coming up on 3 years. I can't believe I'm still around. Don't mean here, in general. I wanted to be gone already.

 

[cme-dme]

I can't help but wonder, when I see an inactive account that left without a trace if they CTB'd or if they are still around. It's kind of dark. This might be one of the only forums on the internet where an inactive member is often a case of "Are they alive or not?". I personally made my account like one day after discovering this forum. Learning about a.s.h and this forum are my first exposure to pro-life ideas.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think it's different for everyone. We're all at different stages. I've seen people be on here very frequently for a short period of time and then, just vanish- not necessarily CTB. Some move into recovery, leave and come back. Some have really old accounts with just a handful of posts. I guess there must be an average, I've no idea what it is though.

This is like a friendly waiting room for me, while I wait to CTB. (Holding on until my Dad goes first.) It's already been a few years. I've no idea how much longer it will be but, I find this place a great support while I try to hold on.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Personally, my account is pretty old and has a few posts. I came here just browsing and researching CTB. I then left for a whole bit came back with the full intent to CTB. My life slowly improved from that point but I think it's worse now than it was then, and I don't know what I'm going to do honestly. I grapple a lot with what to do and the fact that I don't want to hurt my girlfriend by CTB.

I even tried hanging myself full suspension with a belt but I managed to get myself free. It's such a hard method and the rigidness of the belt certainly didn't aid me.

Anyways, I don't think there's a set timeline, some people come here with their minds made up. They're CTB and that's all there is to it, they spend a month or two here, researching and planning, and then execute their plan. Others here, myself included, may come here with the idea to CTB but circumstances change. Some come here and probably recover or get better, and they leave the site entirely.

 

[astr4]

i keep thinking "oh if i try harder this time i can recover" but obviously i've been in this phugoid cycle for a while now.

 

[SadFoxDreamer83]

I am new here, and I created the account because I feel totally and utterly alone, so I thought that writing to other people would perhaps make me feel less alone. The chat has pleasantly surprised me, because there are very kind people, and I see that they are also suffering a lot, so it generates empathy in me and I hope and wish that at least some of you feel better when you read or write. I hope I can help people who suffer and give them new ideas that will lead them to a different and happy destiny. I am going to continue writing in this chat as long as I can, and I am still far from throwing in the towel with my life, because I am a tough guy, one of those who no matter what you do to him, he always finds the strength to recover and keep fighting.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Not very long. I remember finding a research paper on this site and, if I remember correctly, they found that people don't stay on here for long and that most accounts generally aren't even that active.