Hi.
I will make a goodbye thread explaining my situation later today.
( I asked to be banned but people thought I was a scammer, so I wanted to comeback and explain myself).
But I wanted to share something before.
About a year ago, I was already suicidal and wanted to ctb.
However I knew almost nothing about the methods, only the ones everyone knows about like hanging, jumping from height and a firearm.
I didn't know about N or SN or even partial hanging.
I decided to go with firearm because I thought it's the best method.
The problem is that in my country, guns are tightly regulated so it's nearly impossible to get a gun legally.
At the time I was also active on a social snxiety forum.
One of the users on that forum was an American who was a gun enrhusiast.
He made a lot of threads about his guns and going to gun ranges.
I figured I would reach out to him, offer him money in exchange for him purchasing a gun for me.
He agreed, and said he wanted to help me
We settled on $4000 (I was desperate and that piece of shit knew it and used my deperation).
We agreed to meet in Canada ( as from my country I don't need a visa to Canada and he doean't need either being from the US).
I even booked a hotel room for several days and flight tickets to Canada (these things cost an additional $2000).
He sent me pictures of the gun he purchased for me, and said he would drive to Canada ( He lived relatively close to the Canadian border) to meet me.
Then I transferred him the money.
It takes a few days for money to be transferred between countries.
Aftet a few daya when I saw on my bank account website that the money was transferred, I sent him an email, asking if he received the money, he sent me a reply saying he doesn't know me or know what I am talking about.
So that poece of shit scammed me all along.
He never intended to buy the gun for me or meet me in Canada.
He used my desperation for a quick and painless method to make money.
In a society with legalized painless methods to sie such as N, these things will never happen.
And evil pieces of shit like him won't be able to take advantage of our desperation to cbt.
I will make a goodbye thread explaining my situation later today.
( I asked to be banned but people thought I was a scammer, so I wanted to comeback and explain myself).
But I wanted to share something before.
About a year ago, I was already suicidal and wanted to ctb.
However I knew almost nothing about the methods, only the ones everyone knows about like hanging, jumping from height and a firearm.
I didn't know about N or SN or even partial hanging.
I decided to go with firearm because I thought it's the best method.
The problem is that in my country, guns are tightly regulated so it's nearly impossible to get a gun legally.
At the time I was also active on a social snxiety forum.
One of the users on that forum was an American who was a gun enrhusiast.
He made a lot of threads about his guns and going to gun ranges.
I figured I would reach out to him, offer him money in exchange for him purchasing a gun for me.
He agreed, and said he wanted to help me
We settled on $4000 (I was desperate and that piece of shit knew it and used my deperation).
We agreed to meet in Canada ( as from my country I don't need a visa to Canada and he doean't need either being from the US).
I even booked a hotel room for several days and flight tickets to Canada (these things cost an additional $2000).
He sent me pictures of the gun he purchased for me, and said he would drive to Canada ( He lived relatively close to the Canadian border) to meet me.
Then I transferred him the money.
It takes a few days for money to be transferred between countries.
Aftet a few daya when I saw on my bank account website that the money was transferred, I sent him an email, asking if he received the money, he sent me a reply saying he doesn't know me or know what I am talking about.
So that poece of shit scammed me all along.
He never intended to buy the gun for me or meet me in Canada.
He used my desperation for a quick and painless method to make money.
In a society with legalized painless methods to sie such as N, these things will never happen.
And evil pieces of shit like him won't be able to take advantage of our desperation to cbt.
