How far along your plans to ctb are you?

[End.of.the.line]

How far along your suicide plans are you?

For me it's hard to explain, I'm pretty much ready to go anytime. I had a method ready, Unfortunately that method is no longer available to me now. But even when I had my method ready, I never got round to setting a date and organising my affairs. Iv always been a big procrastinator. I was originally planning to ctb sometime this February but I just never got round to Setting a date and things just kept coming up, keeping me distracted. Deep down I might be somewhat reluctant to set a date.

Iv never attempt before and one of my biggest fears is, when the time comes, I won't be able to go through with ctb. I'm pretty sure that time is coming very soon so right now I feel I need to step up and start get my things in order.

 

[Hotsackage]

I'm ready to.go right now. But have no way to do it

 

[throwaway777]

i have everything for the sn method ... just waiting for july i will be home alone for some days and yeah me too im so ready to off myself

 

[Hotsackage]

i have everything for the sn method ... just waiting for july i will be home alone for some days and yeah me too im so ready to off myself

Where did you purchase and how much SN did u get. Thanks in advance

 

[DepressionsAHo]

How far along your suicide plans are you?

For me it's hard to explain, I'm pretty much ready to go anytime. I had a method ready, Unfortunately that method is no longer available to me now. But even when I had my method ready, I never got round to setting a date and organising my affairs. Iv always been a big procrastinator. I was originally planning to ctb sometime this February but I just never got round to Setting a date and things just kept coming up, keeping me distracted. Deep down I might be somewhat reluctant to set a date.

Iv never attempt before and one of my biggest fears is, when the time comes, I won't be able to go through with ctb. I'm pretty sure that time is coming very soon so right now I feel I need to step up and start get my things in order.

I have everything
Just waiting for my gut feeling of knowing when to go

 

[throwaway777]

Where did you purchase and how much SN did u get. Thanks in advance

250 gr from apc pure . no problem

 

[Cookiedough8956]

its more organized in my head. How to play it out.
Just need to act upon on it, just waiting a bit more days.

 

[Psilo]

I'm gonna pick up my antiemetics (primperan) tomorrow and then I have everything I need. Don't really know when I ctb tho.

 

[TAW122]

Since last December, I pretty much have my method and could exit at (just about) anytime I choose to. I would have CTB'd in May this year if I hadn't had a successful, small recovery early March. So as of now, not actively looking to ctb, but I am ready if/when circumstances change.

 

[Peeloffallmyskin]

I'm ready to.go right now. But have no way to do it

Same. I've tried partial suspension several times over the last few months but I cannot get it to work right. Cant find the sweet spots that make it all so easy.

 

[needtogonow]

My goal isn't to die, it's to get out of this much pain and I'm willing to do whatever it takes to make the pain stop. I've written my will, and ordered some stuff online. Once I have everything I need, and have written the note, I'm thinking I'll feel much less trapped. I'm hoping that sense of being able to leave when I want will help me. Feeling like a prisoner of my own suffering is intolerable.

Alongside with working toward my death, I'm also working toward a better life. I'm trying to see if I can carve out enough happiness to stay here, since my death would cause a lot of pain to the people I love. But if that doesn't work, I'm prepared to go. There is no way that I'm going to exist in this a whole lot longer.

 

[Dandelion]

I have everything ready but I just don't like setting dates, they never worked for me and always ended up failing ctb when I did it, so I just decided that when the time comes, then i'll do it. It won't be long tho, can't hang on for much longer.
I used to be afraid of death (what comes after) at one point, but not any longer, the only thing that worries me it's how my close ones will react, I don't want them to be sad cause of my decision, but I guess that's inevitable.
The pain I will have to go through, scares me also, dying isn't just a walk on the park, and I wouldn't like someone finding me out in the process and becoming a vegetable. That would be not so nice.

 

[vulgareconomics]

I'm looking to cover all the expenses related to my death on top of N, so not even close.

 

[Tally]

I'm looking to cover all the expenses related to my death on top of N, so not even close.

God, N is cheap, is it!!!

 

[JadedGray]

I've never been more ready mentally to go, but right now I don't have anything. I think my SN got confiscated, so now I'm either going to try ordering from someone else and hope for the best or save up the money for N and have it shipped through a private courier. I also still need to get the anti-emetics and Tagamet, but I don't see the point in getting them until I have either the SN or N. Once I have everything I'll write my suicide note and book a hotel room.

 

[Topsy]

Unfortunately I'm stuck.
I can't get money but my dad owes me money and has agreed to start paying me back.
I should have enough after the first payment to buy everything I need however it's been weeks since he said he would and he still hasn't.
He's a little hesitant to give me money after my last attempt but after some reasoning he reluctantly caved so now it's just a waiting game.
Not 100% set on my method though, might wait longer and try something more reliable.

 

[tomz323]

Not far, still need to buy the rope.