how does your suffering feel?

[blush]

my entire body aches and my mom is yelling at me for some reason. psychosomatic, or whatever, but i still feel like i'm going to go completely insane. i have too many surreal thoughts these days, like a million insects are trying to swarm in the walls of my mind.

buzzing background pain, horrifying mirror paired with broken life prospects and social stunting, isolation, and now i feel i'm on the edge of a psychotic break.

i can't "just snap out of it" and trust me i hate myself for it

what does your suffering feel like, people of sasu?

 

[vampyrzelda]

feels like starvation tbh

 

[DeadManLiving]

Incapacitating

 

[TwistedNightmares]

It feels like I am constantly drowning in a never-ending sea of despair.

 

[wordsdontcomeout]

it feels like emptiness and nothingness

 

[Pluto]

 

[Forever Sleep]

I feel like a balloon over inflated with anxiety that is on the verge of popping. I also feel like I'm made of lead. I don't want to do anything. I don't want to move but, I need to work and try to take care of myself.

 

[transgresija2]

I have constant chest spasms during the day, fear and shame. Every minor thing reminds me of my selfsabotage and failure.

 

[itsgone2]

Anxiety is painful. Some sort of nerve pain throughout. Arms in particular. My head in constant pain from insomnia. The lack of joy takes a toll i can't describe. I no longer exercise and can feel the loss of muscle.
Everything is wrong

 

[FuneralCry]

It always feels so dreadful, torturous and terrible to suffer in this painful, deeply undesirable existence and for me every second is torture to be conscious, I'll just always see existence as the most cruel, dreadful and tragic mistake that just causes all this harm, cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer.

To suffer in this existence truly is an abomination to me and all I want is peace from the torture of existing, for me non-existence is just all that is positive, for me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution to find peace from the evil of existing where existing beings are tortured in agony every second and I'll just always see existing as just being suffering.

I wish I could just erase this torturous and cruel existence so it's like I never suffered at all, existence truly does just cause harm, it's just so dreadful how this existence was imposed and no matter what it never should be, all that humans do is cause so much torture by imposing this existence, I always suffer so unbearably from existing in this horrific world where the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what, denying the option to cease existing peacefully is such horrific extreme cruelty to me.

 

[singingcrow]

my head feels heavy with pressure and my heart feels like it's breaking. it's a deep ache that doesn't seem to go away. i hide everything i'm feeling because no one really understands it. i'm left with this constant confusion, wondering what i did to deserve this pain. i just want to feel peace for once.

 

[eggsausagerice]

my body feels tense and i get dizzy and nauseaous when i feel anxious. when i get lost in my thoughts i feel like i'm spinning in place while all i'm really doing is laying down or sitting still with my eyes glazed over. it's painful to remember you're a nobody. i never wanted to be like this, but it's how i ended up. there's a tightness in my chest that doesn't go away most days.

 

[thefarter]

very heavy usually. like in my chest. and occasionally i feel like my body is shutting down and not letting me feel all my emotions lol. how embarrassing. and i start feeling super weird and like im floating (mainly in my arms and upper body) and it just sucks and feels very unnatural. and the chest pain is impossible to ignore. and i hate that i can't hide how i'm feeling at home so i walk around lookin like a sad pou and when my family comment on it i just say haha nah im fine just tired bro.
crazy how well i can hide it at work though lol.

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

Smoldering, volcanic, primordial

 

[DungEater]

Sometimes far too heavy, all at once too many feelings and emotions to handle causing me to shut down, other times its a absence of anything a complete emptiness that just feels "off"

 

[overmorrow]

like my heart is being squeezed, constantly

 

[ithinkihatethislife]

my entire body aches and my mom is yelling at me for some reason. psychosomatic, or whatever, but i still feel like i'm going to go completely insane. i have too many surreal thoughts these days, like a million insects are trying to swarm in the walls of my mind.

buzzing background pain, horrifying mirror paired with broken life prospects and social stunting, isolation, and now i feel i'm on the edge of a psychotic break.

i can't "just snap out of it" and trust me i hate myself for it

what does your suffering feel like, people of sasu?

I've stopped my meds completely so I don't really feel much

 

[Echo]

I dont really know how to describe it. The constant negative thoughts are consuming me the last few days. Im mentally tired.

 

[Chronical_Suicidal]

Irremediable.

 

[prelapsarian]

physically hot. like i'm feverish and sweaty and burning up from the inside and nothing can cool me down. i can't wait to permanently extinguish that heat.