How does it feel to be abnormal ?

[Painless_end]

How does it feel to be abnormal ?

I know I am. But how does it feel / manifest for you in your own life ?

I'm asking because it will be different for each of us and I want to know.

 

[rebelsue]

I feel like an alien everywhere i go.I don't understand why people do things they do, and I misunderstand people's intentions often. I see situations to mean different things than other people see. I'm very tired of existing because it's so exhausting and confusing.

 

[William Barker]

I wouldn't want it any other way.

 

[Ange_Fatigue]

It makes me feeling anxious and unwanted. Sometimes I tell me that being normal would mean being interested by the last shitty marketed object, loosing my ethics doing my job (healthworker).
This place is really crazy. I mean brutal and crazy.

 

[toomuchtimetodie]

At first you feel sad, inferior, pathetic I've experienced most self degrading emotions. Now I simply just feel trapped, wronged, victim of the cruelty of the Hanan race.

 

[Mistake of Nature]

I feel disconnected from everyone and everything, and like I'm a square peg trying to fit into a round hole. I don't understand anything about life. Love, friendship, happiness, etc. are all foreign concepts to me. All I've ever wanted was to be normal, but I'm the farthest thing away from it.

 

[akrasia]

I feel out of place, like I don't belong on this earth. Like an alien walking among humans.

 

[ritsulover]

I'm not sure. I'm mixed about it. On one hand, I couldn't care less about integrating with society and being seen as "normal" cause people don't interest me like that. They come and go.

At the same time though it would be nice to not have mental issues. I was just born genetically fucked. If my mind wasn't wired so wrong maybe I'd have a different stance on this

 

[Donk]

it makes me feel inferior. i keep looking at other people and wish i was them

 

[whereispeace]

Being abnormal is all I've ever known, so I'm kind of used to it. That doesn't make it any easier though.

 

[angel_like_demon]

How's it feel? Kinda like shit, to be completely honest. I hate it so much, yet I love it. My abnormal-ness is like a parasite, but I've grown attached to it.

 

[porfin1234]

I feel abnormal in the sense that it seems as if I've been functioning as a 13 year old child in a woman's body in an adult world. Looking back I've said and done things way out of line with what is considered acceptable or normal to society, often have been hurtful, many times unaware. I get extreme emotions over ridiculous things, things a lot of people would just blow off as unimportant. So yea a lot of confusion too now that I'm more aware.

 

[Wallace]

Like everyone else. No one is normal. Everyone is inherently flawed and broken in their own way. Perfection is beyond us.

If you think someone else is normal, you probably haven't looked at the close enough.

 

[Time]

Lonely, less than. Not meant to be here.

 

[Oyoy]

Petulant, retarded and like a super freak.

 

[RayoSinSol]

Split.

I don't feel abnormal when I'm by myself, far away from others, thinking about no one else in the world.

But in the gaze of others, knowing the way others can perceive the tiniest thing I do or say wildly different than I'd ever imagine, I feel unsure how to move or sound, in order to be seen as what I feel I am.

Sometimes I feel myself losing my sense of identity, trying to become someone else, but just becoming a scrambled image of myself, laid out in the outline of someone else's shadow, instead.

I feel like I prefer to keep myself hidden, because I value what I see when I am alone too much to contest with the gaze literally billions of other people and their conscious perceptions of my being.

 

[BabyYoda]

Looking at other normal people while thinking "I wonder what it's like to be like them......"

 

[a.n.kirillov]

Great to be honest. Not always, but mostly I am glad for my particular divergences from the norm and always have been.

The average "normal" person isn't very attuned to the suffering of animals for example, which I always was.

The average "normal" person doesn't question society, life or himself very much (or he doesn't allow himself to question/ has internalized the prohibition to question certain things from his parents/ his teachers), which my parents never set a limit on.

The average "normal" person has a significant optimism bias and has his feet deeply rooted withing delusions about reality and his/ his children's/ his society's/ humanity's importance.

The average "normal" person is perfectly content with his welfare stemming from imperialism, exploitation of humans and animals, with unjust war and subjugation, with slave labour, with animal torture, with imposing serious risk of harm upon the unborn via their conception, with discrimination of all kinds of demographics (the average person used to be all right with slavery, with homophobia and the persecution of homosexuals; the average Germans were totally fine with the holocaust etc).

The average "normal" person living in this world today is most likely a religious nut and seriously believes that there is a man living in the sky, who is his father and watches over him, that hears his prayers (although he never answers in person) and keeps track of the sins of all 8 billion people currently living on this planet individually.

Etc etc
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The average person living on planet earth today also believes that being gay is a choice, being depressed is a choice, being raped as a woman—"she wanted it"—is a choice and that women should be punished for having been raped.

I can do this all day long.
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The average parents still think beating their children is good for them and most normal children who were beat up when they were young believe it serves them well.

To sum up, I think love, youth, courage, a clean conscience and the ability to sleep soundly at night are all signs of mental illness :-)

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Constant feeling of not belonging, longlines, anxiety, having trouble to relate to people, filter how you behave to appear normal.

 

[anchored_astronaut]

I'm definitely a very atypical creature, and it's lead to a lot of problems like having no friends, not being able to date, not being able to work, turning to drugs for comfort, and, ultimately, not being particularly attached to being alive.

I wasn't allowed to talk to or play with other kids at school or in the neighborhood and so I didnt actually interact with non-family members until around age 12. As a result my social skills are total shit. I just don't know what to do and it aggravates my social anxiety.

It's particularly unfortunate because I'm someone who placed a lot of value on interpersonal relationships, especially romantic ones, but I'll never be good at it.