Discussion How do youse feel about your birthday? (also its mine today)

[Namelesa]

Seen as its my birthday, how do youse feel about your birthday? I know a lot of us have more negative feelings about it than most people.

I myself have mixed feelings on mine. Part of me doesn't like it as now I am going to be less seen as a child as I grow up as I feel like I am mentally one and am helpless by myself so I need emotional and physical support a lot of time. I worry I will no longer be seen as someone that needs to be looked after. This is especially the case this time cus now I am no longer a teenager and now 20. However I do like the attention I get from the day as it shows I am of worth as well as the presents family gives me. Tho this year I haven't asked for much except to start the process for a scrotectomy, a surgery for gender transition but honestly aside from that I don't know what else I want. The surgery is a good enough present anyways for me. Also we often go to a restaurant I like on my day so I will also have yummy food.

as well as, a birthday also shows that you are:

so if you regret your creation and want death more than you can at least look forward to you are one year closer to that. I myself am happy I am one year closer to it.

You can wish me happy birthday if you want to but this thread is more about youse birthdays, not mine. After all my purpose is to serve others, not myself.

 

[DivineSpark]

Happy birthday! You are right. I dont like to think about my age or birthday, because I start thinking about personal achievements in life and that makes me feel like a loser.
Usually when it is my b-day. I ask for pizza from my fav pizza restaurant.

 

[Apokryphiel]

Happy birthday! I was never really fond of my birthdays; they always sorta felt like I was just running out of time. I hope you're able to enjoy yours with any worries aside, though!

 

[nails]

happy birthday, i hope you have a nice day!

i have conflicting feelings about my birthday, but i'm mostly indifferent about it as a concept. i usually feel guilty and lonely during my birthday, though. i also dread receiving birthday messages from people who clearly don't care about me and ignore me throughout the rest of the year.

 

[Emerita]

Happy Birthday!!

I don't really like my birthday, I just feel awkward with the attention and even more alone oddly. I didn't think about it meaning Im closer to death before but thats true ig so thats nice.

I hope you have a nice day :)

 

[Arrival03]

Don't care about it, honestly annoys me when people try to make me celebrate it.

 

[Hotsackage]

Another day to drink. Happy bday

 

[FuneralCry]

It is just another day of futile unnecessary suffering in this torturous existence I never should had been forced into and would never wish for no matter what, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, birthday is something dreadful to me as after all it is the day the suffering started. It was the start of this existence that was so tragically imposed where I'm just waiting for death anyway and as long as I exist I'll only wish to be gone, I see it as something so terrible to be enslaved in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway, to me existence truly is an abomination and it's one that just causes harm and suffering, I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what.

 

[Lyn]

I just don't like my in general and haven't celebrated it for a long time.

But I wish you a happy birthday
I hope you have a good time today and get what you wish for.
And that this day brings you the reassurance that you are absolutely worthy of attention, care and support today and always.

 

[NoPoint2Life]

I'm not a fan of them. Even back when I was younger and looked forward to them, All it takes is one person you would expect to remember not saying anything or contacting you and it would feel ruined. Now with my current circumstances, It can feel like a crushing blow if that happens.
And just in general, it brings up so many mixed feelings.

 

[KillingPain267]

Happy birthday to you! I hate my birthday and curse the day I was born.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Happy birthday! I hope you have a lovely meal and enjoy the day as much as possible.

Personally, I don't like birthdays. I always seem to feel more intensely miserable on them. I guess because I don't see why I should celebrate the very start of all my problems- birth. Plus, aging isn't exactly welcome as you get older. It's also too retrospective for me. Looking back isn't really all that fun.

In some ways, I wish people would just forget it but then one year, a few people did and, that felt weird too! So- sometimes I don't even understand myself. I hope it's good for you though.

 

[Alo the obvi alien]

Seen as its my birthday, how do youse feel about your birthday? I know a lot of us have more negative feelings about it than most people.

I myself have mixed feelings on mine. Part of me doesn't like it as now I am going to be less seen as a child as I grow up as I feel like I am mentally one and am helpless by myself so I need emotional and physical support a lot of time. I worry I will no longer be seen as someone that needs to be looked after. This is especially the case this time cus now I am no longer a teenager and now 20. However I do like the attention I get from the day as it shows I am of worth as well as the presents family gives me. Tho this year I haven't asked for much except to start the process for a scrotectomy, a surgery for gender transition but honestly aside from that I don't know what else I want. The surgery is a good enough present anyways for me. Also we often go to a restaurant I like on my day so I will also have yummy food.

as well as, a birthday also shows that you are:
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so if you regret your creation and want death more than you can at least look forward to you are one year closer to that. I myself am happy I am one year closer to it.

You can wish me happy birthday if you want to but this thread is more about youse birthdays, not mine. After all my purpose is to serve others, not myself.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! I truly hope you have a wonderful day and enjoy the great food. Lol take pics for me You are secretly a great friend of mines and I love always seeing your name in my notifications I hope that all your wishes come true (through one year closer to death is always nice ) you deserve some else that you can always look forward.

 

[Nobodi]

My birthday hasn't been celebrated since I was 13. My aunt is the only who tries to put effort into into buying and trying to cheer me up. She can't have children so she will tell me I'm like Her son. She nice at-least now since I think about her. But as birthday it's just feels like normal day in constant stay of battle trying to make sure I don't overload with stress my life as I never been the same ever since 2021. Dealing with harrassment from an individual who later I found is a cop. He would harrass me for being a victim of a crime and I don't know how he squire that information. I been trying to find that out ever since. I know now he had access to the domain aware system before his employment since he family or/and friends who are police officers. There's not a day that hasn't past that I haven't been thinking about it. Been dealing with this shit for 4 years and counting.

My birthday hasn't been celebrated since I was 13. My aunt is the only who tries to put effort into into buying and trying to cheer me up. She can't have children so she will tell me I'm like Her son. She nice at-least now since I think about her. But as birthday it's just feels like normal day in constant stay of battle trying to make sure I don't overload with stress my life as I never been the same ever since 2021. Dealing with harrassment from an individual who later I found is a cop. He would harrass me for being a victim of a crime and I don't know how he squire that information. I been trying to find that out ever since. I know now he had access to the domain aware system before his employment since he family or/and friends who are police officers. There's not a day that hasn't past that I haven't been thinking about it. Been dealing with this shit for 4 years and counting.

Sorry for the venting

 

[Namelesa]

My birthday hasn't been celebrated since I was 13. My aunt is the only who tries to put effort into into buying and trying to cheer me up. She can't have children so she will tell me I'm like Her son. She nice at-least now since I think about her. But as birthday it's just feels like normal day in constant stay of battle trying to make sure I don't overload with stress my life as I never been the same ever since 2021. Dealing with harrassment from an individual who later I found is a cop. He would harrass me for being a victim of a crime and I don't know how he squire that information. I been trying to find that out ever since. I know now he had access to the domain aware system before his employment since he family or/and friends who are police officers. There's not a day that hasn't past that I haven't been thinking about it. Been dealing with this shit for 4 years and counting.

Sorry for the venting

no need to say sorry for venting <3 I made this thread with the intent of others allowing them to say about how they feel about this day. I am sorry only your aunt cares, you deserve to be valued more. Sorry that you dealing with this constant anxiety of this cop harassing you :< Hope you escape that in some way.

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

Happy birthday dear friend, I hope you are having a good day celebrating with presents and enjoying some yummy food. For me, mine is just another day. But I like to see others smile, and I hope that your day is bringing you some happy moments to make you smile.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

I hope you enjoy the day as best as possible!

 

[Rymrgand]

I don't really think too much about my birthday. I think I only properly celebrated it once, when I was a kid and made a party with some classmates. Lately, before I went no contact with my family, they used to give me 50 bucks and as much love as the rest of the year (aka none).

I think I would want to do something that day, but I never have someone to do it, so it's just another day. Maybe I feel a bit sad about it, but that feeling is hidden inside me, really deep, with most of my emotions, so I don't really care.

Happy birthday! I hope you have a lovely meal and enjoy the day as much as possible.

Personally, I don't like birthdays. I always seem to feel more intensely miserable on them. I guess because I don't see why I should celebrate the very start of all my problems- birth. Plus, aging isn't exactly welcome as you get older. It's also too retrospective for me. Looking back isn't really all that fun.

In some ways, I wish people would just forget it but then one year, a few people did and, that felt weird too! So- sometimes I don't even understand myself. I hope it's good for you though.

As I see it, your birthday is not a day to celebrate your birth or the fact that you are getting older, but to celebrate you. It's a good day to celebrate and remember all the good things about you, a day where your loved ones will focus on your happiness exclusively.

But of course, it's just a tradition, so it's completely valid if you forget about your birthday and do this other days. When you achieve an important goal, for example.

 

[anhedonic_moron]

happy birthday! never forget to cherish it fondly

 

[whitetaildeer]

The only sensible way I can possibly describe how I feel about my birthday? Two words: "No thanks."

For my entire life, I've never been treated as a person with actual wants or needs; I've just been an extension of someone else's desires, and regardless of personal autonomy, I'm fully expected to bend over backwards to cater to someone's desires of what they want me to be. Since 2022, my birthdays have never been about me, or to celebrate me...they've been used as other excuses to do what other people want. My 17th birthday is the most egregious example. It was just an early birthday celebration for my cousin: it had his favorite cake flavor, takeout from his favorite restaurant, and his favorite activities. The same has gone for anyone trying to honor me with celebrations; just an excuse for them to do what they want, because it's "for me," and my actual wants aren't given much consideration. And, well...you can't really complain, because they're "going out of their way to do something for you, they're taking time out of their day for this, can't you see that?"

I really just try to treat it like any other day. I've had online friends try, in vain, to make my birthday special, to make up for how I and my birthdays have been treated in the past. It's thoughtful, and I appreciate it dearly, but it just never works.

oh, and i already said it in gc a million times namelesa, but seriously: happy bday. it's been an absolute joy to get to know you

 

[Forever Sleep]

I don't really think too much about my birthday. I think I only properly celebrated it once, when I was a kid and made a party with some classmates. Lately, before I went no contact with my family, they used to give me 50 bucks and as much love as the rest of the year (aka none).

I think I would want to do something that day, but I never have someone to do it, so it's just another day. Maybe I feel a bit sad about it, but that feeling is hidden inside me, really deep, with most of my emotions, so I don't really care.


As I see it, your birthday is not a day to celebrate your birth or the fact that you are getting older, but to celebrate you. It's a good day to celebrate and remember all the good things about you, a day where your loved ones will focus on your happiness exclusively.

But of course, it's just a tradition, so it's completely valid if you forget about your birthday and do this other days. When you achieve an important goal, for example.

It's a nice sentiment but it still ties in to my anti-natilist sentiment that I wish I hadn't been born. We wouldn't need to celbrate 'me' if I didn't exist. I respect that it's a kind act though so, I appreciate that part.

 

[deadbidaylight]

I hate my own birthday but I love everyone else's! So

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!

 

[steveholt]

Its just another reminder of last years hurt...

 

[StrugglingSienna]

I hate my own birthday but I love everyone else's! So

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!

Yeah same here. To myself my birthday is pointless, sad even, but everyone else's birthday is a good excuse to remind them that we love them and we're glad they're in our lives.

Happy 20th birthday Namelesa!! It's a big one. I was just about to say one more and then you can drink... until I remembered you're from the UK lol

 

[deadbidaylight]

Yeah same here. To myself my birthday is pointless, sad even, but everyone else's birthday is a good excuse to remind them that we love them and we're glad they're in our lives.

Happy 20th birthday Namelesa!! It's a big one. I was just about to say one more and then you can drink... until I remembered you're from the UK lol

The last 3 birthdays I've had have been absolute disasters so I said this year, everyone is to leave the house before I wake up, and not come back until bedtime. No phone calls, nothing. I'm not getting out of bed. I want zero chance of it being a disaster this year.

I know they aren't going to listen, so if shit goes south, I get to have a fit for my birthday! lol

 

[Namelesa]

I kinda feel guilty now for mentioning about my birthday. Like I feel like I don't deserve this praise at all as I have done nothing of worth to gain it.

 

[notreallybored]

ב''ה,
Nothing good. Got worse as time went on.

 

[Namelesa]

btw thank you a lot everyone who wished me well <3 I still think I don't deserve this much kindness but me accepting kindness and feeling of worth is genuinely getting so much better from being on here so thank you SaSu for improving my self-esteem more than any therapy could <3 My birthday has been okayish. I got some presents I liked actually, one being a scooter which I am surprised I got as I just mentioned that in passing to my mum. Food at the restaurant was good. Have been depressed over daily things and problems but this place has made it a bit easier to get through for today <3

 

[unscrewedmoon999]

Happy birthday! Mine's in a couple weeks, mid-April, and I despise it. I hate getting older with every fiber of my being.

When you're young, people are easily impressed if you seem to be smart or precocious in any way. I lived off of those compliments in my youth. I loved to impress people with the things I'd accomplished by so-and-so age. It was the one thing that made me feel worth something, like I was a net positive on the world.

But now I've fallen behind, and I'm just getting older. Whatever lead I had is gone, and all the milestones I wanted to achieve when I was younger - car by age X, house by age Y, etc. - are just a pipe dream now. At least when I was younger, I could hope. I could believe there was still time. But birthdays (and New Year's, for that matter) remind me that time keeps going and I keep falling behind, and all that "potential" I thought I had is nonexistent.

Birthdays also remind me of how long I've been struggling. They remind me that the fraction of my life that I've spent suffering is just getting bigger and bigger, and hoping for a day when I'm happy is more and more futile. I compare my birthdays now, celebrated alone, to the ones I had as a kid when at least I had a couple friends to cut a cake with.

In short, birthdays make me reflect too much, and that never leads anywhere good. I'm hoping to not make it to mine.

 

[yxmux]

i don't know i don't care