How do you take care of yourself when no one cares about you ?

[Marine]

How do you take care of yourself when no one ( I do mean no one : no family, friend, partner, acquaintance...) cares about you and you're completely isolated (due to the dictatorship destroying your life and leaving you with nowhere to go to meet other people) ?



Real question. I feel like I'm going to die 24/7 (I want to live if I can, I'm just losing more strength to live every day). Doctors / hospitals aren't an option : they cause only further harm (for me).

 

[WhiteDespair]

Habit. Make it a habit and you'll do it without realizing it. It can take some time to develop it though.

 

[Luchs]

How do you take care of yourself when no one ( I do mean no one : no family, friend, partner, acquaintance...) cares about you and you're completely isolated (due to the dictatorship destroying your life and leaving you with nowhere to go to meet other people) ?



Real question. I feel like I'm going to die 24/7 (I want to live if I can, I'm just losing more strength to live every day). Doctors / hospitals aren't an option : they cause only further harm (for me).

All you need is you, discipline and a goal. If you won't help yourself no one will.

 

[Water-Lily]

I can relate to this. Mind you I also want to die due to trauma and abuse experienced at all stages of life. The way I see healthcare when in a state of suicidality, is to do small tasks. When I am in bed I think to myself "let's start by simply sitting up". After that I say "ok. now that I am awake let me get out of bed" from there I say "alright let me make a stretch" and so on and so forth. What this lead was to me eventually making up my bed and cleaning my room. Tiny, seemingly insignificant actions, became the stepping stones to getting things done. And there are days where suicidality wins and I just cry and stay in bed. I might think about ways to die, ways to get back at people, and overall be in a horrible mood. And that's ok. Just do what you can. If all you can do I exist then thats fine

 

[whywere]

Being 65 years young, I have stumbled through this crappy life by chance. I have taken care of myself since 1974, YIKES!! I am old!!. When I was locked up after my 2nd attempt and the staff asked if I was going to get vistors, I just had to laugh. Same when I got discharged from lockup, they asked who was going to come get me, I said a taxi! Just 1 day at a time for me. Walter

 

[WornOutLife]

Well, I'm really lonely and live alone but haven't ctb because I take care of myself somehow.

I guess realizing that I'm not good at having people around helped me to do something about myself.

Mind you! Some people really need another individuals so as to live a proper life and also, getting the strength to do normal stuff can be exhausting.

However, if you don't do your best, the only options are to ctb immediately or live in agony for years or decades thinking about ctb.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

You have to start getting annoyed by not doing it I guess.

For example I now shower daily and shampoo once every couple days even though I used to go many days without doing either because I grew to hate the way I felt whenever I didn't. And I'm not talking about a self-loathing kind of feeling, I just genuinely thought it felt uncomfortable to be dirty and that was enough. If only I could use physical discomfort to motivate me with everything else in life.

 

[Mentalmick]

With great difficulty.

 

[Marktheghost]

How do you take care of yourself when no one ( I do mean no one : no family, friend, partner, acquaintance...) cares about you and you're completely isolated (due to the dictatorship destroying your life and leaving you with nowhere to go to meet other people) ?



Real question. I feel like I'm going to die 24/7 (I want to live if I can, I'm just losing more strength to live every day). Doctors / hospitals aren't an option : they cause only further harm (for me).

I care about you. If there's anything I can do to help, please let me know.

 

[Marine]

... I see that I've been completely misunderstood. I guess it must come from my poor english. I didn't mean that. I guess I should have said "how do you find the strenght to live", I was referring specifically to weight loss / overcoming bulimia / getting demanding tasks done that require a lot of focus and energy which I can't channel from my current environment / situation. Having never been loved / cared about makes me completely despondent no matter how hard I try to change things, my attempts never work, I remain alone, everything I've tried to build was arbitrarily destroyed, I have nothing left to hold on.