How do you spend most of your days?

[Mixo]

I don't really leave the house much. Just stay indoors, watch videos on youtube, and try to learn programming. Also eat. Rinse, repeat. Don't speak to anyone, don't socialize.

 

[Belit667]

When I'm not at the stupid work I read comic books and watch anime.

 

[Soulless Angel]

I was content at home, I was content on a path of darkness I was comforted there, sitting just doing my own thinking, silently planning my CTB,
Now though I am forced to work, deal with people and hours of paperwork, I no longer have time to even have a shower, I have no time to think, I never get time alone now, I am stuck, I spend my day's ensuring other people are happy over my own contentment, I hate it so much!

 

[Belit667]

I was content at home, I was content on a path of darkness I was comforted there, sitting just doing my own thinking, silently planning my CTB,
Now though I am forced to work, deal with people and hours of paperwork, I no longer have time to even have a shower, I have no time to think, I never get time alone now, I am stuck, I spend my day's ensuring other people are happy over my own contentment, I hate it so much!

You're trapped, Need any support>?

 

[Stavrogin]

I spend my days dissecting myself.

 

[serah]

Nowadays I've stumbled into the habit of waking up and playing league all day and then going to bed at an unreasonably late time. Rinse and repeat. I feel like shit constantly.

 

[Belit667]

Nowadays I've stumbled into the habit of waking up and playing league all day and then going to bed at an unreasonably late time. Rinse and repeat. I feel like shit constantly.

Makes more sense than slaving away in some factory for a minimal wage.

 

[mediocre]

I wake up, I eat, watch tv, play games,'go on the computer for 15 hours or so then go back to sleep for another 15-20 hours. Repeat.

 

[Tabbyql]

Drag myself outta bed, feed the dogs, smoke too much, force some food down my throat, have tv on in background whillst i think alot about everything. Only go out when its dark to walk the dogs. Sometimes I might have a shower, or il at least think about it. Just the same depressing and restrictive cycle.

 

[Sinai Silence]

I wake up at 9 everyday, either read or watch something for the day. Try to sleep through the day too. Rarely leave the house unless I'm taking my dog somewhere or getting groceries.

 

[Cosmiq]

Currently unemployed so it varies from a full day of sleeping with breaks for my dog to potty and eat. Other days, I'll try to binge watch a tv show or play videogames. I eat maybe once every other day. I don't talk to anyone and live alone. The closest I come to socializing is posting here, Reddit, and discords but never in a way where I can recognize or form any type of online friendship. Maybe every other week I'll ride my motorcycle around and do an errand. Besides making sure my dog eating nothing has a real schedule. I'll go from completely nocturnal to waking up at 6am, to waking up at 2pm. I often forget what day of the week it is.

 

[Nymph]

I don't really leave the house much. Just stay indoors, watch videos on youtube, and try to learn programming. Also eat. Rinse, repeat. Don't speak to anyone, don't socialize.

Before I'll have to go back to school-I've been spending my days at home mostly, sleeping till 3pm later playing games and playing with my bunny. Also eating

 

[mediocre]

I wake up at 9 everyday, either read or watch something for the day. Try to sleep through the day too. Rarely leave the house unless I'm taking my dog somewhere or getting groceries.

How do you sleep at night when you've slept through the day? I find it so hard to keep a sleeping routine and get up in the morning..

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

I have had no kind of schedule or structure to my days/nights of life for years so days all run together. I stay up pretty much all night because it's more peaceful here (I live in a noisy, cookie-cutter apartment complex) at night, then (key word here:) TRY to sleep during the day but usually don't sleep well or much, so I have been chronically sleep deprived for ages. Don't eat much for various reasons. Mostly when I'm awake I watch movies. That's it. And mostly I watch the same movies and shows over and over and OVER again because it's comforting to me. If I'm feeling a bit better than usual and can focus I'll watch something new. I have to make myself do things like brush my teeth or do a bit of cleaning around here because I just don't have the energy or care anymore but I still sometimes try to make the effort. My days are pretty empty and pathetic.

ETA: I go on some message boards, or read a couple blogs as well. The internet is really my only activity. I only leave the apartment if I have to, like for a doctor appointment.

 

[W3akCr3atur3]

Watching youtube, anime, movies, talking to people on the social media. Sometimes just lie down on the bed or floor and crying while thinking about past and hating myself and my life.

 

[Circles]

At this point I'm sleeping my life away cause I can't deal with my problems anymore. I've been housebound almost every day for the past 6 months cause of my backpain gotten worse around then with a very limited number of things to do like smoking, eating, looking at my phone or tv, reading a book, etc. It doesn't help that I don't enjoy literally anything at all let alone have any hobbies or interests at this point either. I hang out with my mom and brother whenever they're here but they work most of the time and whenever they are here I feel empty and unfulfilled around them in a way cause I can't do much with them or that they have somewhat boring lives also but atleast they're mobile. I'll go outside in the backyard sporadically whenever I'm awake either to go smoke or simply be outside to feel the wind, sun, and such since I don't go outside much anymore. My back limits me to about 30-40 minutes at most to be outside until I have to go back in to lay down for a bit before being able to go outside again kinda like recharging your batteries but the batteries are shit. Lately I've been trying to atleast go to a park that's near me just to get away even for a little bit. Since I can't walk much I'll just bring a seat to sit down next to my car and smoke then watch and zoned out looking at the trees, grass, bugs, birds, the sky, etc.. It does make me appreciate nature more but it's a very disheartening situation to experience. And that's basically it, pretty fucking depressing. It's driving me insane and making me even more suicidal cause I can't fathom living like this for years. Hell this took me 30 minutes to type that's how boring my life is now.

 

[W3akCr3atur3]

At this point I'm sleeping my life away cause I can't deal with my problems anymore. I've been housebound almost every day for the past 6 months cause of my backpain gotten worse around then with a very limited number of things to do like smoking, eating, looking at my phone or tv, reading a book, etc. It doesn't help that I don't enjoy literally anything at all let alone have any hobbies or interests at this point either. I hang out with my mom and brother whenever they're here but they work most of the time and whenever they are here I feel empty and unfulfilled around them in a way cause I can't do much with them or that they have somewhat boring lives also but atleast they're mobile. I'll go outside in the backyard sporadically whenever I'm awake either to go smoke or simply be outside to feel the wind, sun, and such since I don't go outside much anymore. My back limits me to about 30-40 minutes at most to be outside until I have to go back in to lay down for a bit before being able to go outside again kinda like recharging your batteries but the batteries are shit. Lately I've been trying to atleast go to a park that's near me just to get away even for a little bit. Since I can't walk much I'll just bring a seat to sit down next to my car and smoke then watch and zoned out looking at the trees, grass, bugs, birds, the sky, etc.. It does make me appreciate nature more but it's a very disheartening situation to experience. And that's basically it, pretty fucking depressing. It's driving me insane and making me even more suicidal cause I can't fathom living like this for years. Hell this took me 30 minutes to type that's how boring my life is now.

Really sorry to hear this.

While I can move and go outside any time I barely do it, because I am not feeling real life as real anymore. I think it's called derealization disorder.

I feel you in some way, but not being able to move more than 30 mins a day sounds absolutely horrible. You are in a far worse situation.

Hope you can find something that you will enjoy doing during these days

 

[Sinai Silence]

How do you sleep at night when you've slept through the day? I find it so hard to keep a sleeping routine and get up in the morning..

I dont really know, it doesn't matter how much sleep I get at night I always wake up at the same time. I wish I had a proper routine :/

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

If I'm not at work, I'm lying down in bed. Occasionally, I get up to take my puppy outside or play with him inside for a little bit. Mostly though, I'm in bed — watching TV, reading, visiting SS, or sleeping (or more likely trying to sleep. It's 3:40 am and I can't sleep, even after taking sleeping pills.)

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

At this point I'm sleeping my life away cause I can't deal with my problems anymore. I've been housebound almost every day for the past 6 months cause of my backpain gotten worse around then with a very limited number of things to do like smoking, eating, looking at my phone or tv, reading a book, etc. It doesn't help that I don't enjoy literally anything at all let alone have any hobbies or interests at this point either. I hang out with my mom and brother whenever they're here but they work most of the time and whenever they are here I feel empty and unfulfilled around them in a way cause I can't do much with them or that they have somewhat boring lives also but atleast they're mobile. I'll go outside in the backyard sporadically whenever I'm awake either to go smoke or simply be outside to feel the wind, sun, and such since I don't go outside much anymore. My back limits me to about 30-40 minutes at most to be outside until I have to go back in to lay down for a bit before being able to go outside again kinda like recharging your batteries but the batteries are shit. Lately I've been trying to atleast go to a park that's near me just to get away even for a little bit. Since I can't walk much I'll just bring a seat to sit down next to my car and smoke then watch and zoned out looking at the trees, grass, bugs, birds, the sky, etc.. It does make me appreciate nature more but it's a very disheartening situation to experience. And that's basically it, pretty fucking depressing. It's driving me insane and making me even more suicidal cause I can't fathom living like this for years. Hell this took me 30 minutes to type that's how boring my life is now.

I'm so sorry you have to deal with chronic back pain. I don't have back pain but I do have other forms of chronic pain and health issues so I understand how much it impacts and affect's a person's life.

Even though it takes a lot out of you, I think it's wonderful (and I envy you) that you go to the park regularly just to get away for awhile and be around nature. I think that's so helpful to the soul even if for just a bit. I don't drive anymore but in my old life I used to do that same thing re: going to the park and just sitting awhile by myself and watching the birds and the sky, and smelling the trees and earth, etc. I hope you'll be able to continue doing that at least. Even just walking around in your backyard is good too.