Discussion How do you feel about the goodbye threads?

[spoons]

I never really came to this site to cbt or anything, just to meet people with the same struggles as me. I stumbled onto an active goodbye thread and decided to interact with it. Maybe I just get attached too easily but I did talk to this person on and off for like 2 days. I stayed up late last night so I could see updates, and I know they weren't going to change their mind, but that brief interaction that I got with this person was amazing. They were kind and well spoken and they made beautiful music. It was incredibly difficult to wake up and realize they went through with it. I cried while reading the last few messages and it left this pain in my chest, but I'd only known this person for a very short amount of time.

How do goodbye threads make you feel? Why?

 

[アホペンギン]

In a way, goodbye threads make me feel happy for the person who wrote it, as they finally brought up all the courage to finally to through with ending their life. I have seen a thread, 58 hours until i ctb was the title or something, i think they were gonna use SN or something, which takes a while to do, if you do it a certain way. I saw it a few days ago, now i'm thinking, they're most likely dead right now. It feels strange. You saw someone write something when they were alive and suddenly, they're now dead, they're not coming back. I haven't talked to anyone who was planning to ctb in a few days but i can kinda relate to how you feel, i just think about it and think about how you felt. It's sad, honestly, but it's only the person who ctb's feelings that matter at the end of the day.

edit: i can also feel that its sad probably being one of the last people a dead person spoke to, yet i was never in that situation.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just feel envious of them as they are finally free from everything, they cannot suffer anymore, they are the true fortunate ones to me as they are no longer burdened with this dreadful existence, I only envy the non-existent and I admire those with the courage to permanently escape from all the suffering.

 

[deomlez]

I am emparhic so it s hard to me to endure that pain. But they are free to do what they want about themselves and i am happy for them. I will do the same. And the less I can do is to share a little bit of my fucking life with them, sharing sweet moments and pain. It s beautiful and terrible.

 

[befree]

I wrote 2 goodbye threads for other members after I had certainty that they had passed away.
It was not easy for me to do it.

 

[bloodblacknothing]

goodbye threads are bittersweet to me. on one hand, it is nice to know that these people had a place to go, with people who were comforting and understanding; on the other, the grim reality of seeing someone's last words before they're gone - the melancholic feeling that settles in deep within me once they stop responding - is hard to shake.

that the world can push someone to measures such as suicide, without allowing them the dignity or freedom of a peaceful escape, is really telling. no one should have to spend months curating a way out, jumping through hoops, slinking away in the middle of the night to end their life - alas, many of us have no choice.

thankfully, we have this place, and each other.

 

[alonely]

I have not known anyone super well from goodbye threads since I've been on sasu, only seen their posts and maybe replied to the same threads a few times. I hope they are at peace and that they went easy. It makes me think, it puts things into perspective, I wish I could light a candle for them, but fire of any kind is not allowed where I live, so I had a cup of hot hebal tea as a way to kind of try to honor them in a way, to sit with the feeling for some moments and be mindful of life and death and struggle and mortality and everything. It is a hard thing to process, let alone put into words.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

upsetting

 

[spoons]

In a way, goodbye threads make me feel happy for the person who wrote it, as they finally brought up all the courage to finally to through with ending their life. I have seen a thread, 58 hours until i ctb was the title or something, i think they were gonna use SN or something, which takes a while to do, if you do it a certain way. I saw it a few days ago, now i'm thinking, they're most likely dead right now. It feels strange. You saw someone write something when they were alive and suddenly, they're now dead, they're not coming back. I haven't talked to anyone who was planning to ctb in a few days but i can kinda relate to how you feel, i just think about it and think about how you felt. It's sad, honestly, but it's only the person who ctb's feelings that matter at the end of the day.

edit: i can also feel that its sad probably being one of the last people a dead person spoke to, yet i was never in that situation.

That was the thread i was in actually. I do agree with you that it's their feelings that matter more but it still really sucked to see such a beautiful person just suddenly not be there anymore. xx

 

[deomlez]

I have not known anyone super well from goodbye threads since I've been on sasu, only seen their posts and maybe replied to the same threads a few times. I hope they are at peace and that they went easy. It makes me think, it puts things into perspective, I wish I could light a candle for them, but fire of any kind is not allowed where I live, so I had a cup of hot hebal tea as a way to kind of try to honor them in a way, to sit with the feeling for some moments and be mindful of life and death and struggle and mortality and everything. It is a hard thing to process, let alone put into words.

You can also listen to the music they quote in the gt. That s how i have listened to Nina Simone today, it was sweet, it was a long time i had done this. Music is a good network to have a little path on their side.
We are all so close in this place.

 

[SVEN]

It makes me feel less alienated and useless to believe that I was able to speak to someone who feels so much as I do at perhaps the final hours or days of their life. Just to hope, in those few hours, that they felt that although they were on their own, they were not alone in their thoughts and emotions.

 

[MrDarkness]

It hurts a lot, they always make me cry, they are people that society shunned away, they are people that keep getting shit luck in life, I hope their able to find peace, I'll never forget them. I'll join them soon

 

[just_so_done]

They're hard, knowing they're making the final decision but reminding myself thats what has brought us together. They're also beautiful, letting that person know they're not alone, others understand them and that they're existence mattered.

To be honest it is harder when it's someone you're familiar with and interacted with but i have not experienced losing someone yet that i'm extremely close with but that pain will be hard to accept.

 

[spoons]

@just_so_done I know all too well the pain of losing someone close to me. The feeling in my chest was kinda like that heavy feeling I got after I found out my dad passed away, but different. Maybe more hopeless because I couldn't help or "save" them the way I wish I could have. Every person I've met here has been so kind, even in their last moments. I see so much talent, kindness and love being wasted because of the cruelty of life. I'm a firm believer that if we want kindness and compassion in the world, we should live our lives that way. I may not ever cbt or sh, but I'm compassionate to those who do and I am kind to those that struggle. I just wish that kindness was enough to outweigh the horrible pain that some are going through. Make it better and take away the hurt they feel. I guess if I can make even just one person think deeper or feel better, feel loved or cared for, than I'll be able to die happy.

 

[busybee]

It hurts that someone is feeling like they have no other option left. When they make the decision impulsively I get worried for them too.
If it is well planned out and rational on their end I fully accept their decision and just hope they won't suffer.

 

[love_peep]

it depends on who is doing it, if it's a person on the forum with whom we talked, then I will be very sorry for him, but I will wish him good luck if I see a person on the forum for the first time, then I will also be sorry because he went through such pain to come to this step, but in the end I wish them all good luck In their choice because I am sincerely happy for those who are leaving this world

 

[deomlez]

If it is well planned out and rational on their end I fully accept their decision and just hope they won't suffer.

Yes i am fundamentally convinced about free choice for all but perhaps because we are formated, i fear about these people in a rush to ctb. It s an ethical question.

 

[aGoodDayToDie]

I can't handle them. I avoid them. It would be better if I could actually be with them through it but obviously that's just not an option. If it were an option I'd get them high as fuck before they do it so they have one last good experience, and they go out with a bang. But goodbye threads are the epitome of misery, awful awful awful. I can't handle them at all.

 

[Konnsz]

I never really came to this site to cbt or anything, just to meet people with the same struggles as me. I stumbled onto an active goodbye thread and decided to interact with it. Maybe I just get attached too easily but I did talk to this person on and off for like 2 days. I stayed up late last night so I could see updates, and I know they weren't going to change their mind, but that brief interaction that I got with this person was amazing. They were kind and well spoken and they made beautiful music. It was incredibly difficult to wake up and realize they went through with it. I cried while reading the last few messages and it left this pain in my chest, but I'd only known this person for a very short amount of time.

How do goodbye threads make you feel? Why?

A necessary evil

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I never really came to this site to cbt or anything, just to meet people with the same struggles as me. I stumbled onto an active goodbye thread and decided to interact with it. Maybe I just get attached too easily but I did talk to this person on and off for like 2 days. I stayed up late last night so I could see updates, and I know they weren't going to change their mind, but that brief interaction that I got with this person was amazing. They were kind and well spoken and they made beautiful music. It was incredibly difficult to wake up and realize they went through with it. I cried while reading the last few messages and it left this pain in my chest, but I'd only known this person for a very short amount of time.

How do goodbye threads make you feel? Why?

On the one handside goodbye threads are making me a bit sad thinking about a possible own goodbye thread in the future but on the other handside there are more positive things. They are finally relieved from their personal agony and suffering, they are finally free, it's their desire and this has to be fully respected. Goodbye threads may also give them a feeling of not being alone and forgotten in such cruicial moments.

When I stumbled over the first one shortly after I registered my first thought was "omg is this real?" but shortly after "yes it's real, anyway I'm here myself because I'm close to ctb (at that time), and this has to be respected. We will die anyway sooner or later, no chance to escape!

 

[d3c96524be95]

Goodbye threads tend to give me lot of sorrow. It reminds me how much suffering some of us endure to come to that point (and I know it all the more I'm on the verge of doing the same). Most of the time, death also leads to even more suffering for the family and friends of the person, it's just sad. And I can't even define it as a relief for the deceased because I have no certitude on what death is; imagine it's just hell.

Also, I'm not sure I'm legally allowed to see goodbye threads and not report them to the authorities in my country. So I tend to avoid interacting with them, even though it's unlikely it'll ever cause any issue.

 

[deomlez]

On the one handside goodbye threads are making me a bit sad thinking about a possible own goodbye thread in the future but on the other handside there are more positive things. They are finally relieved from their personal agony and suffering, they are finally free, it's their desire and this has to be fully respected. Goodbye threads may also give them a feeling of not being alone and forgotten in such cruicial moments.

When I stumbled over the first one shortly after I registered my first thought was "omg is this real?" but shortly after "yes it's real, anyway I'm here myself because I'm close to ctb (at that time), and this has to be respected. We will die anyway sooner or later, no chance to escape!

I m looking for the smiley who is frantically nodding
But you know sometimes dearh is a joyful idea.

 

[carac]

I tend not to get involved in the goodbye threads, my instinct is to reach out to them and see if I can offer any help and even try to change their mind. Then I remember how I felt when I made my decision, I'd made my mind up, it was a rational decision and I just wanted to go. Neither do I want to urge anyone on or encourage them. So generally I just stay out them, whether that is a good idea or not, I dont know.

 

[deomlez]

I repeat, we are conditioned, it s like Si. If we intervene in their decision, we are not better than prolifes, right ?

 

[Kerrtu]

Goodbye threads leave a profound impact on me. When Vizzy and I connected, our friendship just took off and talking (messaging) with each other felt so comfortable. We didn't have much time and we knew it - I had been planning to CTB in June and Vizzy was trying to hold on till July; he asked me to wait for him, and I said I would, though he ended up catching the bus in June.

Before I was certain of his death, just seeing his name with the strike-through and after he stopped responding in his Goodbye thread, I did cry a lot. I was pacing the apartment at times, just crying. BUT, I also knew how determined Vizzy was, and appreciated all he shared with me, all he taught me, the laughs we had…so many things in such a short amount of time. I knew Vizzy was finally at peace and I respect his choice as I respect him.

Jule was hard to say goodbye to - every situation is unique. She was such a light and I miss her. Knowing she is no longer suffering is what brings me peace. I did sob throughout her last days and final farewell, but she's free now - her soul is flying high ♡

To my friends departing soon, I will cry I know it. But my tears are a mix of gratitude, respect, longing for each persons suffering to finally be over, and seeing that freedom come to fruition.

To put it more simply, this classic comes to mind:



Love to you all ♡

 

[carac]

Goodbye threads leave a profound impact on me. When Vizzy and I connected, our friendship just took off and talking (messaging) with each other felt so comfortable. We didn't have much time and we knew it - I had been planning to CTB in June and Vizzy was trying to hold on till July; he asked me to wait for him, and I said I would, though he ended up catching the bus in June.

Before I was certain of his death, just seeing his name with the strike-through and after he stopped responding in his Goodbye thread, I did cry a lot. I was pacing the apartment at times, just crying. BUT, I also knew how determined Vizzy was, and appreciated all he shared with me, all he taught me, the laughs we had…so many things in such a short amount of time. I knew Vizzy was finally at peace and I respect his choice as I respect him.

Jule was hard to say goodbye to - every situation is unique. She was such a light and I miss her. Knowing she is no longer suffering is what brings me peace. I did sob throughout her last days and final farewell, but she's free now - her soul is flying high ♡

To my friends departing soon, I will cry I know it. But my tears are a mix of gratitude, respect, longing for each persons suffering to finally be over, and seeing that freedom come to fruition.

To put it more simply, this classic comes to mind:

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Love to you all ♡

Have you seen the film Meet Joe Black? that picture of Pooh and Piglet reminds me of the end scene were they go over the bridge together and say:
" It's hard to let go isn't it?"
"Yes it is"
"Well that's life! What can I tell you."

 

[Kerrtu]

Have you seen the film Meet Joe Black? that picture of Pooh and Piglet reminds me of the end scene were they go over the bridge together and say:
" It's hard to let go isn't it?"
"Yes it is"
"Well that's life! What can I tell you."

I haven't seen 'Meet Joe Black' however…it was filmed at least partially in Rhode Island, which is where I grew up. I know the location well - my sisters first apartment was not too far from the estate. Then again, nothing is too far in Rhode Island. Anyhow, when people found out Brad Pitt was in the state - forget it. Meanwhile, I was hoping to catch even a glimpse of Sir Anthony Hopkins.

Quid pro quo, Doctor…

Sir Anthony Hopkins was in another film prior that shot in Rhode Island - 'Amistad'. My childhood best friend and I went to that set every chance we could. It was freezing but I got to meet Pete Postlethwaite (RIP) who was incredibly kind. I didn't realize it then, but it was closest I would ever get to meeting Sir Daniel Day Lewis by association (Postlethwaite and Day-Lewis starred together in 'In The Name Of The Father').

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Goodbye threads leave a profound impact on me. When Vizzy and I connected, our friendship just took off and talking (messaging) with each other felt so comfortable. We didn't have much time and we knew it - I had been planning to CTB in June and Vizzy was trying to hold on till July; he asked me to wait for him, and I said I would, though he ended up catching the bus in June.

Before I was certain of his death, just seeing his name with the strike-through and after he stopped responding in his Goodbye thread, I did cry a lot. I was pacing the apartment at times, just crying. BUT, I also knew how determined Vizzy was, and appreciated all he shared with me, all he taught me, the laughs we had…so many things in such a short amount of time. I knew Vizzy was finally at peace and I respect his choice as I respect him.

Jule was hard to say goodbye to - every situation is unique. She was such a light and I miss her. Knowing she is no longer suffering is what brings me peace. I did sob throughout her last days and final farewell, but she's free now - her soul is flying high ♡

To my friends departing soon, I will cry I know it. But my tears are a mix of gratitude, respect, longing for each persons suffering to finally be over, and seeing that freedom come to fruition.

To put it more simply, this classic comes to mind:

View attachment 116403

Love to you all ♡

Yeah, for the short time I knew Vizzy, he was very helpful when it came to whatever I asked about SN but after his goodbye thread, I very well know that with how meticulous he was with each method he has prepared, I knew there was a greater chance he'd ctb than not.

 

[carac]

I haven't seen 'Meet Joe Black' however…it was filmed at least partially in Rhode Island, which is where I grew up. I know the location well - my sisters first apartment was not too far from the estate. Then again, nothing is too far in Rhode Island. Anyhow, when people found out Brad Pitt was in the state - forget it. Meanwhile, I was hoping to catch even a glimpse of Sir Anthony Hopkins.

Quid pro quo, Doctor…

Sir Anthony Hopkins was in another film prior that shot in Rhode Island - 'Amistad'. My childhood best friend and I went to that set every chance we could. It was freezing but I got to meet Pete Postlethwaite (RIP) who was incredibly kind. I didn't realize it then, but it was closest I would ever get to meeting Sir Daniel Day Lewis by association (Postlethwaite and Day-Lewis starred together in 'In The Name Of The Father').

That is fascinating, I think I've lived quite a sheltered life (more through choice)

 

[lovedread]

they make me sad. it makes me wish i could do something to help, but then i remember that their cause for leaving is probably a lot bigger than me offering some soothing words