princeseadove
wannabe angel
- Mar 4, 2025
- 94
It's been difficult trying to keep myself from panicking about /something/. Wether it be my lack of friends, or my disabilities, or how just fucking doomed I am, but most of it comes back too realizing my own death. I get reminded each time some painful memory shows up, and I want to stop the panic attacks so that I can just function properky. How do I do that? Trick myself into being normal and dissociating up until my death? It'll take at least 7-8 months and compared to living for decades it's a good deal, but I can't help but cry at how unfortunate it all feels. How do I do that? What can I do to distract myself fully from it all? I have to keep on acting kind and nice and pleasing, but I'm not acting right if I keep on getting reminded. How do I just stop it?
