how do you cope with being alive?

[nothingnobody]

all of my days for the past 5 years consist of lying in bed and crying broken up by whining on the internet about how i feel like im in hell 24/7. i dont know how to cope with being alive if this is me in a supposedly comfortable environment where i dont have to do anything. i still live with my demonic family that has caused me tons of abuse but i dont know how i could cope with having a life where im away from them with the added stress that would cause. i dont think i have a very bright future and i feel like im in hell always for no reason.

if i look at other people my age they seem so normal and happy it just doesnt make sense to me. i wish i were them instead of me. the only explanation i have for people who are happy in this world is that they are psychopaths or something, thats how it always feels to me when i see people in a cheery mood. it seems like they are faking it for some reason.

 

[carnivalforone]

i know exactly what you mean theres so many people who look at me like "why arent you happy". "what dont you like about living" what is there to be happy about , livings not fun... i get looked at like im crazy but im starting to realize that people more so conform to it they accept it and just choose to conciously be weirdly positive. i feel like im whining as well but i guess this is a way i cope. I work to keep myself busy, i like driving my car and listening to music. and when the crushing reality and stress sits in i just distract myself with audios or games or substance. Im exhausted but ive found as long as i distract myself ill be good until i have to face reality again

 

[Iamtired]

Well, they probably are faking it, most people are faking it I'd assume. You still sound young to me so I would give yourself more time to like....try to live before it's all over in this dumpster fire. I totally get it though. I am right there with you. Sorry I can't be more validating.

 

[SmollMushroom]

I'm in your same exact spot, with marginal differences. And I don't have an answer aside from enduring the pain until I find a way to ctb.
Regarding what you think of other people, idk. I think society is made only for some kind of people, the ones who can't fit in will have a very hard time.
I don't think the world is to blame rather the society we live in.

 

[nothingnobody]

the only way for me to cope with life is to live like a fucking house cat

 

[nozomu]

I ignore my circumstances until I can't.

 

[hermestrimegistus]

Alcohol, mostly. That doesnt exactly stop me from laying in bed and crying haha but its a lot easier to mask certain feelings. At least for a little while. Then I get too drunk and it all comes out anyway. But then its just more motivation to keep drinking, get numb again, repeat the cycle, and also feel less shame for actually sharing my thoughts/feelings because I just get too fucked up to care anymore. Its probably the only thing I've found that works to make existing slightly less painful. Even it its very temporary

 

[Hollowman]

Isolate as much as possible.

 

[SmollMushroom]

the only way for me to cope with life is to live like a fucking house cat

Yeah that too.
Unfortunately grown up adults don't have someone who feed them, cuddle them and clear their shit daily. Oh and who also pay for their visits and medications.
I'd happily trade my life with that of a house cat for sure. They are the fortunate ones.

 

[Iamtired]

At least you don't have open wounds on your head from a surgeon. I'm looking for someone to cbt ASAP. Live life like a cat...its the best.

 

[snowlance]

Drug abuse c':

 

[FuneralCry]

Sadly there is just no choice but to suffer in this futile and meaningless existence until I die, only death can bring me the peace and relief I search for from the curse that is existence. Having the ability to exist truly is such a dreadful curse which is why only death comforts me, it's comforting to think of this existence being permanently forgotten about which is why it's inhumane how we cannot just easily die in peace.

 

[Mrpickles]

I can assure you, there are plenty of them faking it. Myself included, I had a very "fake it till you make it" attitude towards life. I got to where most people would be happy in life. But to no avail, it's all just plastic. On the outside, no one would expect it from me. When I've heard of people who CTB that I knew, most of the time people around me are in shock over how someone like them could do it. It doesn't shock me, I get it. Best wishes