Discussion how do you come to terms with wanting to die?

[wastingpotential]

i'm tired of everything. my life only gets worse the more years pass but this year really takes the cake.

i've lost both of my now deceased cats, my family spends their days arguing, bickering or ignoring one another including me, my old shitty apartment i never even liked but at least i had a place to live, i stopped contact with my now ex best friend because he lied to me and broke my trust severely and a majority of my other friends have also stopped speaking to me, i have always been easily replaceable regardless.

i've been depressed and hurting for years now that i can't remember a time in my life where i fully wasn't, i spend all my days now rotting inside a room blasting music of binging a series because being in complete silence breaks me down again. all this and i still can never fully come to terms with wanting to die or death itself.

how do you accept it? and how do you finally come to terms that your life has nothing to offer you but more grief and pain down the road and nothing less, so that when you can die it feels easier to do so?

 

[bluebus]

I think it's a personal journey for everyone. For me, I realized that my life is not going to get better, and I would rather not exist at all than have to suffer through what lies in the future. It doesn't seem like you are completely ready to ctb. You still have a chance to get help. I hope you are able to find some peace. Life can be tough, and cruel, and unfair. Wishing you all the best,

 

[Gaga786]

Its sad. I just feel so helpless, hurt that my life has come to this, whereas those with good childhoods are thriving. It seems like im trapped and have no choice but to leave forever

 

[BlazingBob]

For me it's not coming to terms with wanting to die but coming to terms with needing to die. It scares the living shit out of me. It makes me feel like puking. My situation is truly hopeless and realizing that death is my only escape is a very tough pill to swallow. If I were healthy things would be different.

 

[FuneralCry]

I personally find comfort in death as I believe it to be eternal nothingness where I'm completely unaware of everything, to die prevents all future suffering and harm in an existence that was completely unnecessary in the first place.

For me death is the only relief and I would see leaving this world as being something relieving, permanent peace is all I've ever desired as it's freedom from this existence I was burdened with, I've never wished to exist, existing fills me with dread and I dread to think of what lies ahead. I've always been fully aware that existing is just suffering with no benefit which is why only eternal sleep has ever appealed to me.

 

[BlazingBob]

Its sad. I just feel so helpless, hurt that my life has come to this, whereas those with good childhoods are thriving. It seems like im trapped and have no choice but to leave forever

I can so relate to this. I feel so trapped. I've tried so damn hard and for so many years to undue the damage from extreme abuse and neglect growing up but I'm worse now than ever. I just want peace.

 

[wastingpotential]

Its sad. I just feel so helpless, hurt that my life has come to this, whereas those with good childhoods are thriving. It seems like im trapped and have no choice but to leave forever

i feel you. i had my childhood stripped from me right at the beginning of it and lost my adolescent years along with it. the pain from trauma feels neverending

 

[wastingpotential]

I think it's a personal journey for everyone. For me, I realized that my life is not going to get better, and I would rather not exist at all than have to suffer through what lies in the future. It doesn't seem like you are completely ready to ctb. You still have a chance to get help. I hope you are able to find some peace. Life can be tough, and cruel, and unfair. Wishing you all the best,

i don't know how i feel anymore. i'm tired of being in so much pain and things constantly happening to me to make things worse. i'd want a life if it wasn't this one because the idea of having to live on with all this in my head sounds disgusting to me.

no clue if that makes sense at all, but i thank you for your words regardless

 

[Eudaimonic]

In my case, it's the realization that the alternative is worse.

 

[bluebus]

i don't know how i feel anymore. i'm tired of being in so much pain and things constantly happening to me to make things worse. i'd want a life if it wasn't this one because the idea of having to live on with all this in my head sounds disgusting to me.

no clue if that makes sense at all, but i thank you for your words regardless

I completely understand everything you are saying. It makes total sense. I wish that my life had worked out differently. I don't hate life, or the world. I actually love life and want to live, but I can't bear to live my life. It's not much, but I hope you can find some comfort in knowing that you are not alone in feeling this way. Sending love and peace your way

 

[lokabe82]

Sometimes you just go through it for so long that you eventually just come to the realization that it isn't salvageable. It's never going to get better. In a situation like that, you realize there is only one way out. It's different for everybody of course. We all have different journeys to reach this point.

 

[enough of this]

I console myself with what I know of the death experience: The only thing that dies, is the body. Spirit never dies. When we transition to the non-physical realm, we feel wonderful. I'm so looking forward to my physical death and meeting up with my loved ones who have passed before me.

 

[Mayonaise]

I console myself with what I know of the death experience: The only thing that dies, is the body. Spirit never dies. When we transition to the non-physical realm, we feel wonderful. I'm so looking forward to my physical death and meeting up with my loved ones who have passed before me.

Very comforting, my idea is quite similar to yours. If you don't mind, please share how you came to such a conclusion.

 

[only1herern]

Hey man I completely understand where you're coming from. I'm personally dealing with a lot of that myself and I don't think I have anything else to give to this world. The monotony of life for me just doesn't give me any fulfillment. I really want it all to just end.

 

[Aim]

Terminal illness