Venting How do normal people manage to work? How do they live?

[Hahem]

I really can't understand, I am barely getting by rotting in bed all day in the loneliness, without energy or motivation to do anything.
I look at my future and I see no way out in sight. How am I gonna work? Find love? Seek my share of sucess in life? I can't even do basic chores.
I really don't know how normal people can do so much and have so much vitality in them. How they can have hope for the future and carry on.
I really don't know their secret. Maybe they're just built different. Maybe I'm the problem really.
Thoughts?

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm not sure that everyone who is working is doing it effortlessly and with enthusiasm. I work but it's because the alternative of being given enormous guilt trips by my family would be worse.

Plus- not all families can afford to support their 'children' forever. For some people, it's the choice of destitution and homelessness or working- if they don't qualify for benefits. So, it's sometimes simply choosing the lesser of the evils. Most of the people I know who work are exhausted and fed up to varying degrees. I know very few with vitality. Most of us have had it sucked out of us. Maybe I'm only friends with pessimists though!

 

[divinemistress36]

I'm amazed at peoples resilence. Working 50 hours a week, then doing chores, taking care of a family, and having hobbies. Ive been bed rotting for years , even just taking a shower is exhausting

 

[Marco77]

They are moved by hope. The hope that animates peoples. We are disenchanted people now, we cannot understand such madness. Resign yourself, you don't lose anything.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I don't understand it either. I always thought that I wasn't able to deal with the demands of life due to autism fucking up my neurotype to make me incompatible with working but it seems like quite a few people who are neurotypical also seem to struggle to work so I don't know anymore. All I know is that I'm not somebody who is able to deal with life nor do I have a desire to deal with life. To me, death is far superior than life

 

[TheHolySword]

I work because I have to, for various reasons. I pay for all my pets to stay alive, I help contribute financially while I live with my parents, I wouldn't have health benefits otherwise, it gives me life insurance which lets me give my younger brother a safety net should anything happen to me, the list goes on. The truth is that if I were not working, I would have ctb already. This life is slowly killing me too, but I may as well earn money to leave behind for my loved ones while I'm here

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

It has to do with your brain chemistry. I have been in a major depressive episode for 2 years now and can't function. But I have had years where I could function as a normal person and do all the things that needed to be done. I had the drive and motivation but now I want to die.
Have you tried any meds? They do help some people.

 

[suicidaltransgirl]

the only reason I manage to work right now is because it's from home, and zero physical effort required. I don't think I could hold down a "normal" job.

 

[butimbleeding]

I don't really get it either. I've tried to work, I've actually had many different jobs, all of them short lived. When I was younger, I used to always find a reason to quit based on my mental illness. But in my worst moments as I got older I was so dysfunctional that I was fired before even having the chance to quit. The only jobs that I ever seemed to enjoy were only temporary contracts…. Other people make it seem so easy to find permanent employment while it's always just gone to shit for me.

Here if you wanna talk to someone. Hope you're OK.

 

[LostLily]

Been taking part days at work instead of full days just to rest my mind.