Venting how do normal people do this?

[lyiu]

i dont get how people that get into difficult situations DONT think the way i do- like how do u NOT want to cut yourself or think about CTB or want to ruin everything? like i dont get how people go through these hard situations and dont think like that- like yeah they get miserable but how do u not get as bad as i get and almost get or do get admitted to hospitals or relapse?? does this make sense? its so weird to think abt bc im like is there a limit to what u think abt? like abt that situation ur miserable and sad and crying all the time abt is there like this barrier thats there to make u not think abt doing destructive things? how do people just go through hardships without being so extreme about it and destroying everything abt themselves and other people along with them? everytime someone talks to me abt their problems i feel like theres something between us like i cant actually understand u fully because i dont get how u can control yourself. this mostly revolves around my bpd- i dont get how people can be stable. it makes me feel so lonely. having a personality disorder makes me feel broken.

 

[Freyja13]

I was actually thinking about something similar earlier today. My question was like why do I always just wish for death or have an urge to kill myself whenever I experience even the smallest inconvenience. I suppose I know it's because I've reinforced those specific neural pathways over and over again throughout the years. It's still interesting to think about how things I experience wouldn't make someone with a healthy mind want to automatically kill themselves. I wish recovery was easier. I wish my life didn't turn out like this. I wish all children had the best families and supports they needed.

I guess I just kinda started venting a bit. I just want you to know I see you, I hear you, I accept you. Your struggles are valid and you are worthy of love and acceptance.

 

[cetacea]

for most of my life, when faced with hard situations, i never thought about hurting myself or CTB. now, when Im put through a lot of stress (or even just a little) CTB is one of the first things I think about. when Im feeling bad because of others I think about taking them down with me, like CTB out of revenge and putting their name in my note so their name is tied to my death forever.
I dont know what changed other than I went through a bad event that severely traumatized me. While this event for most people would not be that bad, for me it entirely ruined my life.

the answer is we simply become this way, either through birth or experiences in our life. it isnt our fault

 

[RichardFirst]

What exactly is normal? People of all walks of life CTB. Rich people, poor people, attractive people, ugly people or whatever. There is no unifying factor save that every one of them simply wanted out. All of us have a point at which we simply do not want to keep going. For some, it arrives sooner than for others, but it's always going to be there. Don't ever think that you're abnormal for wanting to CTB. Indeed, I think that wanting a bad situation to end is perfectly human.