How do i stop being afraid of ctb

[TVtrays]

As if thing weren't shit enough as it is, my life is about to get much more unbearable, as if that were even possible.
I'm thinking of either the night night method or hanging. I located my carotid arteries, and applied pressure to them. I was about to pass out but that sensation scared me. How am I supposed to calm my nerves when I'm actually ctb? Like, if I blacked out on benzos beforehand? Idk what else to do.

 

[rt1989526]

Your desire to not exist must be greater than your fear of harm. It's possible you don't truly want to leave.

 

[TVtrays]

Your desire to not exist must be greater than your fear of harm. It's possible you don't truly want to leave.

Ctb is the only thing that comforts me anymore. When I found the arteries, I felt a sense of calm, knowing I found a feasible method. It's the sensation that bothers me.

 

[Astral316]

Alcohol might take the edge off.

 

[GoneGoneGone]

Your desire to not exist must be greater than your fear of harm. It's possible you don't truly want to leave.

I don't understand the many calm ctbs around here, I mean how to do it?
I will try to plan it as much as possible, but when it comes to the attempt, it's always impulsive. I cannot see myself sipping SN like a mojito.

I wonder how many there are out there who just hang or jump on impulse.

 

[CatabolicSeed]

If you're too afraid to do it, it's not your time.

 

[MrAsclepius]

People always say if you're afraid then you dont want it enough.

To an extent it makes sense, but it doesnt take away the desire for death. Ive found it impossible to even attempt unless its on impulse.

Try practicing often, you will get used to it and eventually able to go all the way. Just make sure not to abuse the carotid more than once or twice a day to prevent complications.

 

[Xiaomi]

Keep practicing until your SI go away or medicate yourself to lessen SI.

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

What exactly is it that bothers you about this sensation shortly before you pass out?

I think it's nice, this feeling. When the senses pretend something isn't there, seeing and hearing go crazy. It's like at the fair, on the most extreme track, for the experience of which visitors pay money.

I have often intentionally provoked the blackout with the rope in order to feel this moment.

That is why the full hanging is so pleasant and peaceful. After a few seconds you will experience something very nice before you are gone.

Better to leave out alcohol and benzos. As with all ctb methods, it is always bad if you cannot act clearly and deliberately. This is dangerous and produces vegetables.

Something against fear is certainly good, but only normal dose.

 

[Meditation guide]

How am I supposed to calm my nerves when I'm actually ctb?

I've wondered too how people are so calm about it.

 

[bigdog]

I am waiting for benzos. Afraid to take SN without them. It is enough suffering already

 

[TVtrays]

Today or tomorrow, I'm planning on getting my rope. I'm hoping I can position it in just the right way that it cuts off my carotid arteries without cutting of my jugular. Once I have it, I'll feel so much better knowing I have a way out. I'm dealing with intense pain and I just want it to end.

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

Today or tomorrow, I'm planning on getting my rope. I'm hoping I can position it in just the right way that it cuts off my carotid arteries without cutting of my jugular. Once I have it, I'll feel so much better knowing I have a way out. I'm dealing with intense pain and I just want it to end.

Do you mean your jugular vein?

It is always cut off in front of the artery because the artery is further inside.

Therefore one should not be hesitant

 

[TVtrays]

Do you mean your jugular vein?

It is always cut off in front of the artery because the artery is further inside.

Therefore one should not be hesitant

Ah, okay
So, if I cut off my arteries as well, I won't feel like my head's exploding
Nvm, I don't need to worry about that.

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

It takes about 3kg of pressure for the veins and about 5kg of pressure for the arteries.

If you do it right, you will be unconscious in 10-15 seconds. If it takes longer, something is wrong
Do you do full or partial?

Done right, it's quick and comfortable, you don't have to be afraid of pain