How do I actually value life ?

[Yannosi]

I use to have anxiety untill last october. Then made a big life decision and went to rehab and decided to choose life....but

I feel no emotions at all even though things are going good. It should make me happy but I feel empty, no joy, no sadness, no anger. Before this would scare me, now it doesnt even scare me I'm at peace with the fact I don't feel any emotions, its just a fact now. But been loosing interest in life since last October which doesn't make any sense because only positive things have been happening to me For the past few months but my emotions are leaving me so is my interest for life.

Have you ever at some point decided to either die or either live but if you live then go 100% ?

Well that's me since last October.

Worked on myself like a madman and went 100% in life. And still though. The emptiness and the lack of emotions is still lurking. Even with all the things I've managed to achieve by getting out of my comfort zone constantly (a few examples beat my social anxiety and be self confident, finding or dating a girl which I never had before, accepting and loving my true self, meeting a special girl that Im dating now, discovering new passions, music and started playing an instrument, I'm percentages away from 10% - 15% body fat and and have already achieved a more than enough fairly perfect body, my date tells she can't even see how I could even do better honestly?

Not at all wanting to boast, but I've been working very very hard on myself, I thought life would be fun by doing the things I always wanted to do. But I still feel empty and no emotions. How do I find my emotions again ? Have anyone else just seen life like a game too and went hardcore 100% boss mode to then be deceived by their very own accomplishments.

Thanks for reading and interested in having your view on this.

Kindly

Yannosi

 

[problematicblue]

Exact same feeling…now that I'm not sad as hell or panicking 24/7 I just kinda feel detached and numb. Like the old me is dead but the new me never filled in and I'm just a zombie pretending everything is normal.

 

[timf]

It is not unusual when dealing with difficulty to withdraw. Part of this can include sort of turning down emotional sensitivity. When starting to reengage with the world, emotional sensitivity may lag behind. Compounding this can be that a withdrawal to heal by necessity increases a focus on self. Re-engagement may require a gradual broadening of focus.

 

[Julgran]

I use to have anxiety untill last october. Then made a big life decision and went to rehab and decided to choose life....but

I feel no emotions at all even though things are going good. It should make me happy but I feel empty, no joy, no sadness, no anger. Before this would scare me, now it doesnt even scare me I'm at peace with the fact I don't feel any emotions, its just a fact now. But been loosing interest in life since last October which doesn't make any sense because only positive things have been happening to me For the past few months but my emotions are leaving me so is my interest for life.

Have you ever at some point decided to either die or either live but if you live then go 100% ?

Well that's me since last October.

Worked on myself like a madman and went 100% in life. And still though. The emptiness and the lack of emotions is still lurking. Even with all the things I've managed to achieve by getting out of my comfort zone constantly (a few examples beat my social anxiety and be self confident, finding or dating a girl which I never had before, accepting and loving my true self, meeting a special girl that Im dating now, discovering new passions, music and started playing an instrument, I'm percentages away from 10% - 15% body fat and and have already achieved a more than enough fairly perfect body, my date tells she can't even see how I could even do better honestly?

Not at all wanting to boast, but I've been working very very hard on myself, I thought life would be fun by doing the things I always wanted to do. But I still feel empty and no emotions. How do I find my emotions again ? Have anyone else just seen life like a game too and went hardcore 100% boss mode to then be deceived by their very own accomplishments.

Thanks for reading and interested in having your view on this.

Kindly

Yannosi

You don't seem to have a problem with forming personal relationships, since you are able to date a girl. Perhaps, that means that your next obstacle is to form non-personal bonds by doing volunteer work , or something similar. I'm only mentioning this, since you and I are different, but perhaps your next point of life is to help others in need somehow.

I wish that you will find your way through life

 

[Josh007]

I use to have anxiety untill last October. Then made a big life decision and went to rehab and decided to choose life....but

I feel no emotions at all even though things are going good. It should make me happy but I feel empty, no joy, no sadness, no anger. Before this would scare me, now it doesn't even scare me I'm at peace with the fact I don't feel any emotions, its just a fact now. But been loosing interest in life since last October which doesn't make any sense because only positive things have been happening to me For the past few months but my emotions are leaving me so is my interest for life.

Have you ever at some point decided to either die or either live but if you live then go 100% ?

Well that's me since last October.

Worked on myself like a madman and went 100% in life. And still though. The emptiness and the lack of emotions is still lurking. Even with all the things I've managed to achieve by getting out of my comfort zone constantly (a few examples beat my social anxiety and be self confident, finding or dating a girl which I never had before, accepting and loving my true self, meeting a special girl that Im dating now, discovering new passions, music and started playing an instrument, I'm percentages away from 10% - 15% body fat and and have already achieved a more than enough fairly perfect body, my date tells she can't even see how I could even do better honestly?

Not at all wanting to boast, but I've been working very very hard on myself, I thought life would be fun by doing the things I always wanted to do. But I still feel empty and no emotions. How do I find my emotions again ? Have anyone else just seen life like a game too and went hardcore 100% boss mode to then be deceived by their very own accomplishments.

Thanks for reading and interested in having your view on this.

Kindly

Yannosi

I think you maybe overthinking this. Sometimes after coming back from depression it takes a while to feel things the same. It's best not to think much about it and just go with the flow.. Later you will look back and say "I don't know when I got here."

 

[braindead911]

Gotta find something that makes it worth living for you personally i guess.

 

[Eternaloblivionplea]

William James- pragmatism & other writings. There's a section called is life worth living?
Linehan talks about life worth living goals (reference YT). A few weeks ago I made a list of things that in theory make life worth living. E.g. purpose, people, nature, etc.
Rather than setting goals I ended up arguing with myself for and against suicide. There's some cliche about depression being an inability to create a future. So perhaps the solution is to create a hypothetical future that is worth living, to aim for that then have suicide as a back up option? Also reference Yale lecture on the rationality of suicide. The problem I've had in the past is that I set goals, I plan things out but don't necessarily implement those plans, nor achieve those goals. Could use Linehan's concept of life worth living goals with the 'SMART' goals technique? Psychologists love acronyms? Philosophers love questions?