How close are you?

[sometimesoon]

How close are you to CTBing?

 

[exitingtothevoid]

Planning it, reading through the exit bag megathread, but haven't bought any supplies yet and probably won't CTB anytime soon. I just need a plan, for now...

 

[Placo]

I am already dead.

 

[GuessWhosBack]

I am already dead.

Perfectly put.

 

[kyhoti]

T minus 30 days it looks like.

 

[ToMoveOn]

All I have to do is purchase the pistol, then pick a date.

 

[Imagined_Euphoria]

I could do it any day if I want...I don't know if thats what keeps me still here, the option that "its always possible"...I also got no one that would talk me out of it. I barely talk with anyone in real life, I'm almost 24/7 online.

All I have to do is purchase the pistol, then pick a date.

Pistols are nice. Its so aesthetic. I can just use a shotgun sadly, pistol would be even cooler, but its expensive and takes long to buy here because of bullshit gun laws that makes no sense, a shotgun has bigger ammunition lmao

 

[FuneralCry]

Never close enough, I should have long been free from the suffering this existence so tragically causes but of course I never should have suffered in the first place, truly wish I could just erase my existence that caused me nothing but pain but sadly that is not the reality and instead I'm still trapped here only wishing for an eternal release from an existence that was just a terrible, tragic mistake. If only there was the option to fall asleep eternally then none of this would exist for me and I wouldn't be able to hurt anymore.

 

[SoulWhisperer]

Trying to organise the resources to CTB in case I'll need them. Trying to see where the next chapter of my life will take me. If nothing good happens down the planning road I go.

 

[Ligottian]

A few traumas away.

 

[Yaka]

Already ready for when I am done

 

[Uninfluential_Karma]

I scheduled it vaguely so I can choose one of those dates I'm truly ready. It's coming close so fast and I'm both scared and excited.

 

[prone2fury]

not very, tbh. im too pussy

 

[bugs_for_brains]

i said planning bc I know when im going to do it but its not dependent on a date (it will be after my nan dies of her terminal illness) so i guess technically idk what equipment will be available to me when that time comes bc theres no way of knowing if its 2 weeks or 2 years away

 

[Mojo's mama]

Planning/preparing. I don't have a date or method yet (Want it to work and don't want to traumatize anyone who finds me) I've got 98% of my affairs in order, my letters written, passwords for things, money withdrawn, funeral plans

 

[Nephy]

I have SN, even the other stuff I need .. just waiting to finish my project, but sadly yesterday someone told me it will need 7more weeks. Not sure if I can handle such a long time and my body is already disappearing (eating disorder) .. so within the next 7 weeks I will ctb - but I prefer to finish this project - it's very important to me

 

[N33dT0D13]

Not too close to doing it myself but excruciating close to getting as fucked up as possible on every substance I have access to, running out somewhere potentially dangerous and letting nature run its course.

 

[sugarb]

How close are you to CTBing?

Will probably take six months to a year to actually get my method (2-3 if I'm unlucky somehow) but if I had my materials I'd be semi-ready. just need to do some surveying

Not too close to doing it myself but excruciating close to getting as fucked up as possible on every substance I have access to, running out somewhere potentially dangerous and letting nature run its course.

I would advise against that unless you're absolutely sure it'd work, otherwise you'd probably just get a nonlethal injury that'd decrease your QoL even further like tripping on a log and spraining an ankle or getting hit by a car and breaking some ribs

 

[brokeandbroken]

How close are you to CTBing?

A mixture of all of those honesty. Nothing about my life is worth another second of. What little hope is fading fast. I'm literally starving. People have had the opportunity to show me they are good and kind. I have seen in trying to reclaim my stolen life none of that.

 

[sorrowful]

I'll be gone by the end of this year. Currently in the process of making all final preparations. I have SN, I only need to get AE and benzos.

 

[Aether333]

I have a vague timeframe but it is vague as I am trying to...try I guess. To live. It is a daily suffering that feels exactly the same. Each moment that passes just makes the vague date more clear to see....

 

[rozeske]

I've been ready for a while, researched planned and made peace with my decision. If only I can find the money to execute my plan soon.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Nowhere near. I'm hardly suicidal atm.

 

[pomcustard]

A few days left till I ctb. Just counting down the days and trying to be as comfy as I can.

 

[10minutesremaining]

i'm still using up my remaining hope. i won't kill myself for at least another couple of years i think, unless something goes wrong. i'm not afraid of suicide at all, just think life may have something to offer me still

 

[jyko]

A mixture of all?? Kinda?? I have sn coming and I'm not sure if I'll keep it tucked away until my last big push one last try at life eventually fails or if I'll just get it over with already. Hard to know without it directly in front of me. The thought of it coming makes me feel kinda happy and puts my soul at ease so who knows

 

[dimgobaith]

Getting closer every day

 

[Yakamoz]

Very close now I think

 

[alltoomuch2]

How close are you to CTBing?

I have everything I need, but I'm trying to give MH services a chance. But in my mood swings I do get very impulsive and it could happen any day or not. I think eventually I will ctb though. But now I can go any time I want, I'm willing to see what happens with my new MH worker, knowing that if it gets too much I can go. I'm starting to lose my fear of dying (no fear of death itself) so who knows really.