How can i make sure way im planning will work

[alixisbonez]

I have a couple of ways I have in mind I do have quite some time to solidify my plan I have till the 1st of February to have a fully fledged plan and till feb 15th to gather anything I might need some my plan can be in motion for Feb 25th

The first thing I was thinking was od and cutting witch I have experience in I was thinking about this way because I'm good at swallowing pills and since my arms are mainly numb bc of nerve damage I easily cut to muscle and could probably go deeper I just haven't tried I also know where my major arteries are both in my legs and arms for this tho I'd like to have good Blades put away and I'd have to gather a good amount of atleast four different medication that can be lethal

My second method I was thinking was by a train since that method is heavily accessible where I live there are many trains very close to my house that come by many times a day I've memorized the schedule the earliest one is 6am and latest is 12pm or 1am then in between is 2pm 5pm 11am and sometimes 1pm and 3pm
So I have may opportunity the only struggle with this one is the small possibility of being seen and the train stopping or it not killing me and leaving me heavily disabled I know of someone who survived and is very messed up and had amputations because of it I also don't wanna risk being sent to, the mental hospital for extended period of time because that would prevent me from going through with dieing at all and takes away any freedom I have

I don't want to be here after February 25 that is my birthday and I cant bear to live for another one it's not a happy day it just reminds me that I failed the one thing I've had my mind set on for years and the failure of not dieing pains me more than the failure of school or relationships or jobs because it is something I truly can control i can control when I want to die and for how long I'd like to live becomes it's my life

Something I've truly believed for along time is that no one should force you to stay but no one should force you to go it is completely my choice when how and where my life ends becouse by forcing me to stay it is just making living wores than death would be
it's like making a sick dog live in agony instead of putting it to test and giving it peice

 

[pharma]

No method is 100% people have fallen from impossible heights and survived. With high speed rail the chances of survival might be low and you may not even realize it (I've read on people getting hit by cars and surviving and they say they immediately lost consciousness upon impact). The only thing that would put me off from this method is the possibility of traumatizing strangers. I do not want to be the guy on the train that just rammed into a person, nor do I want to be the guy responsible for cleaning the blood and entrails from a train. Also the surge of adrenaline as you see the train rushing towards you... I've nearly drown and I can tell you your body will do absolutely ANYTHING to keep you alive. I think I held my breath for 3 whole minutes the time I drowned and it was one of the worst experiences of my life

 

[Zzquilb458]

No method is 100% people have fallen from impossible heights and survived. With high speed rail the chances of survival might be low and you may not even realize it (I've read on people getting hit by cars and surviving and they say they immediately lost consciousness upon impact). The only thing that would put me off from this method is the possibility of traumatizing strangers. I do not want to be the guy on the train that just rammed into a person, nor do I want to be the guy responsible for cleaning the blood and entrails from a train. Also the surge of adrenaline as you see the train rushing towards you... I've nearly drown and I can tell you your body will do absolutely ANYTHING to keep you alive. I think I held my breath for 3 whole minutes the time I drowned and it was one of the worst experiences of my life

A fall from height can be 100% if there are no obstacles. The people who have survived jumping from a plane always had something somewhat break their fall, but the longest documented survival from a vertical drop onto a consistently hard surface (like a cliff or a high rise building) was about 300 feet in a rock-climbing incident, which was likely more of an exception to the rule if most cases don't come close to it.

 

[alixisbonez]

A fall from height can be 100% if there are no obstacles. The people who have survived jumping from a plane always had something somewhat break their fall, but the longest documented survival from a vertical drop onto a consistently hard surface (like a cliff or a high rise building) was about 300 feet in a rock-climbing incident, which was likely more of an exception to the rule if most cases don't come close to it.

There is a tower hill look out near my house and it is gated but not the whole thing so climbing out is very possible it's 98.4 feel tall and it's rock and concrete below I looked at google and says its has a 100 percent mortality rate for falls around that hight tho survival isn't impossible honestly sounds like my best bet except I'm terrified of heights but I mean if it comes down to it and all else fails I will definitely consider this option