Go into a hotel nearby, they usually have rooftops, and you know what to do.... it has to be at least 6 stories high, but choose 10 or more... run, make a jump, and try to fly!!! $0 , you can walk or uber to the hotel / building...
You could do it, any time , today, tomorrow, the next week , no hurry, so is there anything non-criminal you would like to experience before ctbing?
You have the chance now, or you could go into a suicide mission with $0 , go, film with smartphone covid-19 people , ask for charity for your videos, get infected and then jump...
Perhaps you want to think this through... the jumping from altitude option is available everyday.... except in the sea or desert....
But I've been suicidal, I have N in the fridge, a nitrogen filled tank after my first failed attempt, and I could jump from the building at the end of the street.
I'm choosing Testosterone, dianabol, and continue my recovery today. I'll keep my N and Nitrogen just in case. Dont even ask me for anything about that , since they increase restriction avout selling N a while ago.
I get the feeling of ctbing, I relate, if my treatment stops working I'll ctb myself, and my family knows about my decision , but since I'm fine today, its fine , except relationship with my dad, during 20 years he thought it was just me being a coward, asshole he was, my testosterone levels were way below normal range.
Its hell you have no money, no work either? No income? That would fucking hurt me , I have sold candies on the streets for years since I couldn't function as an engineer due to my sickness/condition ... ...
I've seen people go in this site , but also some people have recovered, have they? Well I dont have friends here, because I'm only interested in my squared box way of thinking and I dont like that.. that's it , I dont have friends because I do not have much patience at people .. I have to change that, I'm not interested in people , and I've got to fix that thanks
Take a nap mate, think about other alternatives