
Ihatemylife6
I’m not living my life, I’m just surviving
- Nov 9, 2022
- 27
Life just seems to get worse all the time. I finally got over a lying, cheating, narcissistic ex. And worse things happened. My life has always been extremely bad. People took advantage of me all the time due to how quiet and nice I was. So, I always say I'm at the lowest point in my life but things get worse all the damn time. So, recently the worst thing ever happened. I have a condition that will ruin me and make me change drastically and it's very bad. Only old folks usually have it, but I'm 18 and I have it. I don't really want to talk about it since it hurts me too much. I've always been suicidal but now is the time I'll act on it. I'm planning to jump off a building. I want more information on that. I can't find a building tall enough. There's no very tall buildings unless I drive like 30 minutes away but I don't have a stupid car. And, I want to know how fast it is, how much pain I'll be in etc. It seems instant but doesn't at the same time depending on the height. I have to live with so many mental illnesses and this condition for the rest of my life, so no it's not temporary. And even if it was(it's 100% not) it's not your life and you're not suicidal so you have no say). And the the thing is it's good that it's permanent I better not be born again if I do it better be much better than this pathetic bell hole. So, any information about jumping?