BlueberryDeer
Hope is volatile
- Nov 20, 2025
- 46
I just tried the weight balance and I'm currently in 110 kg / 242 lbs, from 1.74m / 5'8" ft tall. I know that in recent years is an intense movement for Body positivity but being obese makes me a lot of negative thoughts and shame.
Yes, I could start eating better and going to gym, but the lack of spark for the first step is the main issue.
I'm planning to start some stretching exercises and start to walking more... However... Since I'm struggling with depression and sloth issues, I fear I gain more and more weight and become the thing I always have pity : the people on the reality programs with extreme obesity problems.
And being overweight triggers a severe self disgust about my body. I feel like an ugly blob. Sure, I'm 'intelligent' for some topics, but unable to control the mouth...
Yes, I could start eating better and going to gym, but the lack of spark for the first step is the main issue.
I'm planning to start some stretching exercises and start to walking more... However... Since I'm struggling with depression and sloth issues, I fear I gain more and more weight and become the thing I always have pity : the people on the reality programs with extreme obesity problems.
And being overweight triggers a severe self disgust about my body. I feel like an ugly blob. Sure, I'm 'intelligent' for some topics, but unable to control the mouth...