How are you coping today?

[symphony]

Thought I'd make a thread for sharing what you're doing right now to cope, no matter what it may be, healthy or otherwise.

 

[Foresight]

I'm having my regular monthly bout of PMDD depression so I'm in a black abyss. I'm glued to my phone scrolling away which I try not to do when I'm okay. The bright screen is comforting compared to sitting alone with my mind.

 

[Arrow]

i'm alright i guess. daydreaming and listening to music helps me not think about the direction all of this is headed.

 

[symphony]

Personally I'll share that I've been coping with my distress by reading through the PPeH. Kinda morbid, I know, but at least I can feel better in that I'm actively working towards CTB and hence towards an escape from suffering.

 

[SuicideBoys93]

I go to the gym. It's the only time I feel somewhat alive and happy. My little escape from reality. It's pretty much like clockwork of me crying a bit in the shower. Idk I don't really have anyone to talk to about what's going on so it's a bit of release. I just sit in the shower and have a cry haha. I feel like my days blend together with how repetitive each day is. My dog is my best friend. Starting to think I should I get out more and attempt to connect with others. Isolating myself in public with headphones is not the way to go about establishing connections.

 

[NSA]

Reading about inert gas.

 

[symphony]

Reading about inert gas.

I feel that. I just got to the PPeH chapter on N.

 

[motel rooms]

I'm on here, posting unnecessary shit, feeling like everything I ever said on this forum was unnecessary & pointless. I really want to shut up already, I swear to fucking God I do.

 

[symphony]

I'm on here, posting unnecessary shit, feeling like everything I ever said on this forum was unnecessary & pointless. I really want to shut up already, I swear to fucking God I do.

For what it's worth, I never think that when I see your posts. You are valued.

 

[Marktheghost]

I'm not coping.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

I'm in bed watching TV

 

[tiredplant777]

distracting myself on the internet, avoiding people/asserting boundaries out of self care/love. Gonna try and go for a run now.

 

[myopybyproxy]

I'm on here, posting unnecessary shit, feeling like everything I ever said on this forum was unnecessary & pointless. I really want to shut up already, I swear to fucking God I do.

Same.

Also avoiding real responsibilities and repressing / compartmentalising all the things I've been keeping bottled up for years with the false promise to myself that I'll let it out eventually. Someday. Yeah, right. I'll sleep when I'm dead.

 

[whatevs]

I'm on here, posting unnecessary shit, feeling like everything I ever said on this forum was unnecessary & pointless. I really want to shut up already, I swear to fucking God I do.

I found one of your gifs funny once, bro. You have been redeemed.

But seriously, why all the emo nonsense? It wasn't pointless, you spent time talking with people about things that interested you. Seems like the opposite of pointless. Though overall forum posting, I have to concede, is quite lacking in the way of producing something tangible, but many other hobbies etc are more absurd and dull.

 

[FuneralCry]

I am just trying to pass the time until I fall asleep. That is what life basically is for me, I see no point to me being here. I never really cope well with life, but I feel as though I have no choice but to deal with it.

 

[symphony]

I am just trying to pass the time until I fall asleep. That is what life basically is for me, I see no point to me being here. I never really cope well with life, but I feel as though I have no choice but to deal with it.

That sounds so much like my strategy. Do anything and everything I can to just survive until I can sleep, then sleep as much as possible.

 

[freedompass]

Battling boredom as usual, phone and YouTube while lying in bed. Told myself I'd try to get out for a walk today. My mood crashed a little these last days so it's tough getting motivated for shit.

 

[Mixo]

This week was one of the worst ones I've had in a long while, and not because of me but because of my environment. The last 30 days have been pure, undiluted hell and I frequently reconsider CTB in order to stop the pain. Still, today is day 1 of my new treatment regimen and I plan to keep pursuing this avenue until it proves itself ineffective or untenable in some way. Having a better home environment would help me a lot more, but there is nothing I can do but try and get through it.

 

[All Done]

I play Raid Shadow Legends a lot. Like almost to an unhealthy degree. It's how I cope with having no job, extreme depression and anxiety, and hating everything about myself. I haven't ctb yet only because I dont want to hurt the people who are kind enough to even allow this 46 year old waste of space into their home.

 

[Ready2GoNow2022]

I am just trying to pass the time until I fall asleep. That is what life basically is for me, I see no point to me being here. I never really cope well with life, but I feel as though I have no choice but to deal with it.

Same here. From pretty much the moment I wake up, I just look forward to falling asleep again. I go through the motions of work, I walk my dog, try to get my 10k steps, eat healthy, which helps. But the only real relief is sleep.

 

[grungeCat]

Alcohol

 

[lifecouldbedream]

DMT

 

[fatefulstillness]

Telling myself that if I'm not ready to go on with my to-do list, I can patiently wait it out and do something that feels better, no matter if at the end of the day I finish what I have to do or not. This kind of self compassion is something I find extremely hard to do and yet it's so necessary.

It's really nice of you to make a thread like this. Thank you for asking, I hope you're doing well.

 

[stellabelle]

Not well.

Nothing beyond the "basic existence" - I have no excitement, dreams, goals, positive emotions, activities, or reason to survive.

 

[Crazy4u]

I try to be productive doing silly life things.i don't need to cope I don't care about anything in my fake life

 

[Foresight]

Cleaning. I'm always cleaning.

I think I'll smoke some weed tonight and watch an emotional movie.

 

[wanttogetonthebus]

Thought I'd make a thread for sharing what you're doing right now to cope, no matter what it may be, healthy or otherwise.

When things get really bad, imagining myself dying a natural death (one I did not initiate) is oddly enough, very comforting. Other than that, I try to keep my mind as busy as I can and not think about the things that I can not change that get me more worked up and anxious than I usually am. Comparing myself to others or to my old self is usually depressing so I try to not think about that either. Essentially, the more I can disassociate from myself and my true feelings, the better I cope I think. Or at least, when I acknowledge how I feel while trying not to dwell excessively on what I can't change. The best blessing I can ask for these days is to be as distracted as possible though it's very difficult to achieve.

 

[Leiden]

Not well ):

 

[symphony]

I cut tonight for the first time in a few days, and honestly, I'm glad I did.

 

[☆AwaitingEntropy☆]

I tried quite a bit, actually.

Listened to songs and podcasts I enjoy instead of ones that aggravate my sadness.

Took a long walk, bought some sweets and stuffed animals for friends. I just donated a little bit of money anonymously to an overseas friend in an attempt to feel helpful.

It's difficult, though. Positive stuff like that would have sustained me for a minute, but, now, the crushing hopelessness didn't even flinch, or leave for even a short while. Even unhealthy things like excessive spending, eating, self harming - (all of which I avoided today, at the very least) hardly does anything anymore. I don't know what else I can do...