eternalmelancholy

eternalmelancholy

waiting for the bus
Mar 24, 2021
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Maybe I just don't get it because I'm poor. Life just doesn't seem to be worth it at all. In the past I had delusional fantasies that somehow things will change for the better. But after a certain age you wise up and accept your lot in life.

I think the worst part about life is the never ending humiliation and abuse you have to put up with just to pay the bills. I am not sure why others expect me to be grateful for a shitty life I never asked for.

I wish I could just shut my brain off and go autopilot. Would make ctb'ing much easier or even dealing with the inane drudgery of daily life more bearable.
 
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Querry1

life is unfair, ctb or get away
Aug 16, 2018
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Some people don't ever witness neither humiliation nor abuse, very little of negative feelings and if they do, they somehow explain that to themselves that it's good for them and makes them stronger. I've had periods when months just flew by and life was good so I know that it's possible
 
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BlankUser

Mage
Apr 24, 2021
501
Being poor sucks. You feel even more trapped in this shithole. You can't even access good methods to ctb.
 
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Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

Do what's best for you 🕯️ Sometimes I'm stressed
Jul 1, 2020
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im not rich, ive been through shit and aside from my disorders i love life, its the other humans i have a problem with. but a select few people and lack of internet and ill be "fine" (as fine as one can be with my disorders) except for the fact that i have to die, like why? im not saying that people shouldnt die it just sucks if you enjoy life. of course at the same time living forever also gives me panic attacks where i go back and forth between eternal existence (be it after life or people just dont die) and forever "sleeping" so no matter the outcome, i cant win.

the answer and i doubt anyones going to like the answer, its all depends on your view. its like that song most people are good.

I believe if you just go by the nightly news
Your faith in all mankind
Would be the first thing you lose

and my husband wasnt long laughing at it saying "yeah right" the same guy that follows the "nightly news". if you surround you life in shit (speaking specifically of the news case) then yeah your life is going to be shit. its the way it works. to a degree, it really is all on you (well not all but mostly)
 
eternalmelancholy

eternalmelancholy

waiting for the bus
Mar 24, 2021
1,169
I've had periods when months just flew by and life was good so I know that it's possible

That sounds really nice. Maybe if I had good memories of the past it would give me hope for the future.

Being poor sucks. You feel even more trapped in this shithole. You can't even access good methods to ctb.

Everything in life is so expensive. Even keeping your dignity costs money. Holy shit I just want to die. Even dying costs money. This entire existence is set up to extract as much money out of you as possible.
 
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motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
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Some people don't ever witness neither humiliation nor abuse, very little of negative feelings
Exactly. Why is it so hard for so many people on SaSu to understand that not everyone is as unlucky as us? Not even all of us are equally miserable. Life is unfair. Mystery solved.
 
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eternalmelancholy

eternalmelancholy

waiting for the bus
Mar 24, 2021
1,169
Exactly. Why is it so hard for so many people on SaSu to understand that not everyone is as unlucky as us? Not even all of us are equally miserable. Life is unfair. Mystery solved.

Hrm maybe you are right. Maybe I can't understand pro lifers like they can't understand me. Our lives are just too different on a fundamental level to understand each other.
 
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demuic

Life was a mistake
Sep 12, 2020
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Hrm maybe you are right. Maybe I can't understand pro lifers like they can't understand me. Our lives are just too different on a fundamental level to understand each other.
They're closer to us than they realize. Even one tragedy is enough to ruin a life beyond repair.
 
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heretogethelp

Specialist
May 3, 2021
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I don't think they are really conscious.
That sounds really nice. Maybe if I had good memories of the past it would give me hope for the future.



Everything in life is so expensive. Even keeping your dignity costs money. Holy shit I just want to die. Even dying costs money. This entire existence is set up to extract as much money out of you as possible.
It's a curse. Welcome to the capitalist hell we live in :(
 
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eternalmelancholy

eternalmelancholy

waiting for the bus
Mar 24, 2021
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They're closer to us than they realize. Even one tragedy is enough to ruin a life beyond repair.

I read somewhere that most people are a bad decision or two away from becoming completely destitute. Not to mention life altering accidents or random events. Doesn't this mean I am fucked? I have made a series of bad decisions for years on end. There is no climbing out of this hole.

I don't think they are really conscious.

At first I thought maybe they were just faking it or they are too stupid to realize the futility of life. Then I started to wonder if my own shitty life is making me biased. If someone like me exists then someone on the other end of the spectrum, who is happy and optimistic, must also exist.
 
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heretogethelp

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May 3, 2021
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I read somewhere that most people are a bad decision or two away from becoming completely destitute. Not to mention life altering accidents or random events. Doesn't this mean I am fucked? I have made a series of bad decisions for years on end. There is no climbing out of this hole.



At first I thought maybe they were just faking it or they are too stupid to realize the futility of life. Then I started to wonder if my own shitty life is making me biased. If someone like me exists then someone on the other end of the spectrum, who is happy and optimistic, must also exist.
I just wish I'd never been born. Now, I'm stuck here on this prison planet with the rest of 'humanity'.
 
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TheAmazingCriswell

TheAmazingCriswell

I predict...
Apr 28, 2021
1,351
Life just doesn't seem to be worth it at all.
Life is not worth it because it has no intrinsic value; life simply is.
This is an inherent failure of the human mind, ascribing value to things that are impossible to judge by any objective metric, seeking meaning where there has never been any.
Some people don't ever witness neither humiliation nor abuse, very little of negative feelings and if they do, they somehow explain that to themselves that it's good for them and makes them stronger.
Nothing of this is guaranteed to last, or as another user put it:
Even one tragedy is enough to ruin a life beyond repair.
It is much easier to destroy than to build. You can live the life of a king and still end up in the gutter; a single misstep is sufficient. Whether that misstep is a failure on your part or that of someone else is of no importance.
I don't think they are really conscious.
Precisely. I don't believe that the majority of mankind is consciously satisfied with life; most people merely live and don't give much thought to these matters (obviously). They are unaware of the back door of suicide and simply go about their quotidian lives.
 
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WornOutLife

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Mar 22, 2020
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I think they're satisfied because they don't realize that living is nonsense.
I mean, we're all gonna die! What's the point of existing? Reproducing so as to leave copies of ourselves behind? Nonsense!

As for the money, I'm not rich and I would be more than happy if I had lots of cash but I would still be suicidal.

My reasons for wanting to live this world are basically an existential crisis and the fact that I don't want to get any older.

How dare this universe be so pointless? I hate it! lol
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Some people are mostly satisfied due to the circumstances they are in, people believe they have an purpose in life and they have stability such as finances. I cannot comprehend it really. Any purpose or meaning is just an illusion as we are just going to die anyway and be eventually forgotten. Existing is just pointless.
Many other people have been cursed with bad luck or have been born into unfortunate circumstances which make them reject this life. Other people are just not programmed for this life, my mind is wired in a way which I struggle with living. It's the way I always have been. I will simply never accept this life.
 
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eternalmelancholy

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Celerity

shape without form, shade without colour
Jan 24, 2021
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A lot of them are full of shit. If you really listen and pull at the threads of conversation they almost hold back, you will find that even the most unassuming people are full of yearning and regret. Maybe this is why people don't like me. I am very good at obtaining dark secrets even when I don't seek them out.
 
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motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
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A lot of them are full of shit.
The law of the bell curve tells us that loads of people are semi-miserable/unhappyish
Maybe this is why people don't like me. I am very good at obtaining dark secrets even when I don't seek them out.
That's a very cool skill to have :))
 
Celerity

Celerity

shape without form, shade without colour
Jan 24, 2021
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The law of the bell curve tells us that loads of people are semi-miserable/unhappyish

That's a very cool skill to have :))
I swear I should be a police interrogator or a therapist, lol. Too honest to be a spy. Though that probably spoils all those career paths for me, lol
 
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Efilismislife

Efilismislife

Psychopath family tortured me
May 25, 2021
642
To make it simple
"Because they have satisfying life experiences, lots of good luck with only tiny level of misery and theyre happy being in a great condition"

Happen to only small percent of people i guess


It brings a question

"If you can infinitely: switch life with anyone and/or change any things in your life&body would you still feel like a mess?"
 
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