chudeatte
its over
- Aug 5, 2025
- 92
well, I failed my attempt. I can't do anything right it's embarrassing. when it was over I got told I should go to the hospital and I did. that was the most pointless thing I could've done, honestly. they didnt care at all. they had no beds so I had to sit in the waiting room all night and that was horrible. I didnt get a moment of sleep, and by the time I left in the morning I had been awake for two days straight. anyway, I left in the morning because I was told someone would come and speak to me but no one came and I was already overwhelmed by sitting there with no sleep and bored out of my mind. I get that medical services and especially mental health services are underfunded and under pressure, so I can't really be mad that nothing happened, but I regret even going. idk what I was even expecting them to do. I just went because I was told to go or people would come to my house, and I didnt want my family to know. yes im still depressed, yes I still want to kill myself more than anything. I was actually considering allowing them to commit me, but there's no way I could go through that. whatever, point is hospital doesn't actually help anyone when theyre in a crisis honestly the best help you could get is if you went to bed and slept it off. I wish I had done that instead
