Honestly thank you so much your clearly a good person, just to say I'm really at the end and seek no "attention" as cruel parts off society might say, hence my reason for coming here, I done it all counselling, been on meds from I was 17, growing up in Northern Ireland saw some horrific things, that was onset for PTSD...I coped ok with the meds and 10 years after my first real attempt at a bridge 4am nobody about, so I thought long story short passing cars stopped me, iv tried so so hard since then had many happy times I'm thankful for, just where I'm at now, my parents both just died within 10months of each other, 2 nephews brothers took their own lives, then In nov another personal loss, im sorry to drone on just understand your caring words but hope you and my loved ones understand, I actually dread the new day starting, I put a smile on and help everyone but I'm mentally done,......this time 10years on I'm fully aware of my choice, I'm just worried/terrified of what you mentioned, just want to do it dignified, with success no fuck ups, off topic there, but I'm trying to decide partial suspension or full drop, I saw the video and god look so easy and so peaceful that's how I want to go, seem to just go unconscious almost instantly. Think might get thinner rope as it seems to be more effective, thanks for your input, and when iv gone please whatever your own circumstances, please know you helped someone in horrible situation in life just with the confidence overcoming the S.I, and someone who's mind was made up just very unsure as to best way, as so much conflicted reports, thank you and bless your heart, I hope you get your peace either in life or, for me the world got cruel, then just unbearable, existing not living. I appreciate the input. I will do it the best way I can to stop any failure, and as for being found I can go 24hours before anyone would get worried. Peace to you
Yes from what iv saw and researched it looks so peaceful if that's the correct word, looks like if done correct, your unconscious in less than 10secs this is my aim, I'm in uk so unfortunately there's no real option for the cocktail to drink, so this is next least painful, I'm going to get everything in order over weekend already starting wrote family a note, made a will so to speak, fully aware and know what I'm doing, just want it to be done right no fuck ups as quick as possible with as little pain for anyone finding me, thank you it's given me confidence I think it seems best method, robin williams rest his soul I believe carried it out (apart from the wrist thing :-( ) but simple belt jammed in closed door and leant into it causing blackout, I think. That will be perfect to achieve, again thank you also.