Cringeque3n
Member
- Dec 23, 2020
- 17
Hey guys, so recently i was unsuccessful in ordering SN online, as in i got the courage to do it and received a different chemical [i think you can see my other post?]. I took it as a sign that maybe i wasn't meant to die by ctb and actually told a friend about what happened and told her to stop me if i ever do some crazy shit like that again... lol well anyways im jusy sitting here before the new year a little drunk and just thinking so much about what's to come. My life is actually going to change so much in the next year, that's a fact. I just ordered SN online AGAIN from a different source because as much as i think im enlightened and can make my own life the way i want it, thats just unrealistic. I am not a strong person and need to do this. Just really really hoping i get the real thing this time so i can feel at peace and confident in the fact that i can easily take myself out of this world any time i want to. I feel a. Little bad because i got my friedn all stressed [i was panicked and had to talk about it] and now im ordering poison online AGAINNN lol.... not telling her obviously. let's just hope this goes well
