Venting Hope

[Okokaykay]

i hate hate hate hope- the possibility that things could get better, the fact that things are constantly changing.
its always false. even in the best case scenario, i know i will be stuck struggling. i hate people telling me it'll get better and i hate the occasional moments where i doubt whether i truly want to ctb. i just want everything to be over with.

 

[hikikomorizombie]

i loatheeeeee the Hallmark sentiments & platitudes ppl shove down ur throat whenever u talk abt smthg even a lil sad. so ify.

regarding having moments where u're unsure of whether u want to die, i'd personally advise waiting until u no longer have those moments. it took me years & i def wish my attempt 6 yrs ago had worked, but having 100% certainty & clarity that dying's ur only option is worth it imo.