Homeless

[brokeandbroken]

Homeless. I've been more or less homeless for the past 4 months. 16 months ago I was in medical school. I'm not on drugs, I rarely drink alcohol. I was just a victim of a crime that I will never receive help with and abandoned. Years of hard work stolen a future robbed. There's something sickening, brutal, and disgusting in that I'll never get help. Every single person in my family decided they were more okay with me being homeless then helping. I wake up every morning and I'm faced with the reality that that day is probably going to be better then every subsequent day I have left. Everyday I'm worse off then the prior one.

Help could've be administered, a future returned, life regained, a person made whole. Instead there's just hollow, resounding emptiness that has enveloped my entire core. A desire to live that's waxed a little and waned a lot.

A person abandoned in what should've been their prime left to rot and fade away.

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[FuneralCry]

That really sounds so horrible what you've been through, it's certaninly such a dreadful world we exist in where people are treat so badly.

 

[▪︎⚠ ＫＯＨＩ ⚠▪︎]

It must be horrible and hard for you to endure, I can't imagine how are you dealing with this situation all alone with not even your family wanting to support you.

Even though I know it's hard to believe what I'm avout to say, I hope one day this will becomes a past nightmare and everything gets better for you.

 

[Sweet Tart]

I'm so sorry you have been thru hell and then abandoned.

 

[brokeandbroken]

Sometimes you need help from someone to give you a break and pull you out of the darkness. That just never will occur tor me. There's just a brutal reality when you realize no one will. When no matter what happened beforehand no matter how you were. When the future you worked hard for that you thought about and dreamed of was stolen. With misery in its place. Good or bad or whatever. Society moved on, the tribe has spoken. All I hear in my head everyday is the sounds of my family and people I thought cared telling me the absolute worst things possible. I realize while I'm not entitled or spoiled I was naive to the world and how hard it is. People will leave you for the wolves.

 

[Techef]

Sometimes you need help from someone to give you a break

This is so true. Looking back at my life, there were several crucial moments where if someone had helped and given me that break that I needed, I might not be in irreversible situation I'm in now. I sacrificed everything to help relatives and friends, and take care of my immediate family. When I broke, I was surprised by how quickly people I thought were close to me cut me out of their lives. Of course, some where more heartless and quicker about it, while others tried to help a little but gradually faded out of my life. I can't really blame my family either because they're so mentally ill that they either couldn't help (and continued to self-destruct) or wouldn't help because they could barely handle their own situation.

If there's one person I blame now, it's myself. I should've been a lot more selfish in life. But then I might be suffering from guilt instead of severe illness. Who knows?

 

[brokeandbroken]

This is so true. Looking back at my life, there were several crucial moments where if someone had helped and given me that break that I needed, I might not be in irreversible situation I'm in now. I sacrificed everything to help relatives and friends, and take care of my immediate family. When I broke, I was surprised by how quickly people I thought were close to me cut me out of their lives. Of course, some where more heartless and quicker about it, while others tried to help a little but gradually faded out of my life. I can't really blame my family either because they're so mentally ill that they either couldn't help (and continued to self-destruct) or wouldn't help because they could barely handle their own situation.

If there's one person I blame now, it's myself. I should've been a lot more selfish in life. But then I might be suffering from guilt instead of severe illness. Who knows?

I thought I was too I not only was working towards being an oncologist but if someone needed anything I'd do my best to help. A theme I've noticed is people will be/act sympathetic in real life. But won't actually do anything.