SipSop
Arcanist
- May 7, 2020
- 483
Knowing I will die made me think more freely.
I do not have to fear that people will reject me, or come after me so I speak my mind, allow myself to be angry and demand to be treated better(I can control my anger perfectly, I supress it at will), I drive recklessly in the city like the city is my race track, go the red light when I believe nobody is watching, speeding at 90km/h in the city, and I keep getting away with it. Even I am surprised. No people harmed, no car damaged, no police to take my license. Nothing. I do it smartly also. But I enjoy myself after I felt so dominated by rules and all the fucking apes in the city.
Tonight, I parked my car and county police pulled over to shut down a party. One of the lads was looking at me intensely, because of my car I guess, and I asked: "do I have something on my face?", he frowned. They all had their faces covered, like a special unit above the police, anyway. He said: "what did you ask?" Because those guys are huuge, and this one was younger than his partners. And I am quite fit, smaller than him so his alpha instinct kicked in. Then I asked again with a smirk on my face holding my french fries. He came at me, and at that time I kept my position and posture and turned to him with my whole body. He asked if is illegal to look, I said "no" and I asked if is illegal to ask a question. And we all know what would have happened if he didn't had the leash. He would have went full ape on me. Because this is how life really is. Forget about law and shit, force is what makes the world turn. Anyway, I fucked with him knowing fully well he is testosterone guy who would not take shit from somebody of my size. I knew he is on the leash, like his job depends on it and even if he would have given anything to trash me, his job is more important(and I knee it, maybe he has kids at home to feed too, that sweet cash is needed). Like, as a animal my atribute is my brain, his is his muscles. The other guys came and asked me stuff, I played smart ass a little bit and then they said: "we have a job to do". And I said: "I know". And walked off relaxed. The guy still looking at me behind the mask and full body armor.
After that my body beginned to tremble
. Like damn.
I expect to trash my car or something, but I know how to find him, I'm good at this stuff. Time and place of the complaint of the party, unit number that answered and the youngest alpha of the alphas that talked back. And that is my guy. I would have the pleasure to look him in the eyes again, maybe he will curse me, and that is a no no for them.
But it felt damn good...
This it means to be a man. This is what always meant.
I put in practice my conclusions on life.
When men lose words games they turn to brute force, always. And women want big guys, always. Based on my observations.
Not character or smarts, those are bs that make them seem more noble. There is nothing different my friend between you and that hige guy, but your body. I always said that if you know to read subtitles and use soap you are qualified to get some if you are huge.
Anyway, the biggest ape wins usually. His leash was tight and I walked off like I was in the park.
Troubles passed me again.
The purpose of this thread is to make you realise that remaining life can be somewhat entertaining. If you calculate it right.
Like, we didn't choose to draw the short end of the stick. And everybody else just got luckier than us. They do not have anything because they worked for it, but they were born like that.
Remember, life influence is circular. A influences B and B influences A.
They had a big A mates by default to push the B going. And that is fucking unfair.
Also, I see nobody is commenting. That's fine. Fine just fine.
I feel somewhat good tho.
I do not have to fear that people will reject me, or come after me so I speak my mind, allow myself to be angry and demand to be treated better(I can control my anger perfectly, I supress it at will), I drive recklessly in the city like the city is my race track, go the red light when I believe nobody is watching, speeding at 90km/h in the city, and I keep getting away with it. Even I am surprised. No people harmed, no car damaged, no police to take my license. Nothing. I do it smartly also. But I enjoy myself after I felt so dominated by rules and all the fucking apes in the city.
Tonight, I parked my car and county police pulled over to shut down a party. One of the lads was looking at me intensely, because of my car I guess, and I asked: "do I have something on my face?", he frowned. They all had their faces covered, like a special unit above the police, anyway. He said: "what did you ask?" Because those guys are huuge, and this one was younger than his partners. And I am quite fit, smaller than him so his alpha instinct kicked in. Then I asked again with a smirk on my face holding my french fries. He came at me, and at that time I kept my position and posture and turned to him with my whole body. He asked if is illegal to look, I said "no" and I asked if is illegal to ask a question. And we all know what would have happened if he didn't had the leash. He would have went full ape on me. Because this is how life really is. Forget about law and shit, force is what makes the world turn. Anyway, I fucked with him knowing fully well he is testosterone guy who would not take shit from somebody of my size. I knew he is on the leash, like his job depends on it and even if he would have given anything to trash me, his job is more important(and I knee it, maybe he has kids at home to feed too, that sweet cash is needed). Like, as a animal my atribute is my brain, his is his muscles. The other guys came and asked me stuff, I played smart ass a little bit and then they said: "we have a job to do". And I said: "I know". And walked off relaxed. The guy still looking at me behind the mask and full body armor.
After that my body beginned to tremble
. Like damn.I expect to trash my car or something, but I know how to find him, I'm good at this stuff. Time and place of the complaint of the party, unit number that answered and the youngest alpha of the alphas that talked back. And that is my guy. I would have the pleasure to look him in the eyes again, maybe he will curse me, and that is a no no for them.
But it felt damn good...
This it means to be a man. This is what always meant.
I put in practice my conclusions on life.
When men lose words games they turn to brute force, always. And women want big guys, always. Based on my observations.
Not character or smarts, those are bs that make them seem more noble. There is nothing different my friend between you and that hige guy, but your body. I always said that if you know to read subtitles and use soap you are qualified to get some if you are huge.
Anyway, the biggest ape wins usually. His leash was tight and I walked off like I was in the park.
Troubles passed me again.
The purpose of this thread is to make you realise that remaining life can be somewhat entertaining. If you calculate it right.
Like, we didn't choose to draw the short end of the stick. And everybody else just got luckier than us. They do not have anything because they worked for it, but they were born like that.
Remember, life influence is circular. A influences B and B influences A.
They had a big A mates by default to push the B going. And that is fucking unfair.
Also, I see nobody is commenting. That's fine. Fine just fine.
I feel somewhat good tho.
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