Discussion High chance I'll be homeless by the end of year. I really don't see a reason to continue.

[Geist]

Ever since my mom died back in april, my life has been very stressful. I was living with her and my sister, but my sis moved out shortly before my moms death, and the place was way too big and expensive for myself.

I already would've been homeless, but by sheer luck I got an apartment in an old folks home (they're tearing it down soon, so nobody would've moved in here anyway, which is why I was allowed to move in until they tear it down). However, the dealine is coming up fast. I have to be out of here soon, preferably before christmas.

I have been looking for apartments, but since I'm legitimately unfit for work, and therefore get paid by the state/government, I barely get enough money to get by. Needless to say, I don't have a lot of options when it comes to finding new places. And let's be real here, why would any landlord prefer me over a student / someone who works. I'm probably just worthless scum in their eyes. No one ever even bothers responding, I just get ignored all the time.

I'm already resigning myself to the fact that I'll be homeless (dead) soon. I don't even own a car, so I would literally have to sleep on the streets. And once I lose my home, my income will get cut off too, so I'd have beg people for money. Yea, fuck that...

I just don't see a way around it anymore. Worst part is... I don't even want to die yet. I've had depression all my life, I was also highly suicidal during a certain time, but I've since found a reason to endure it. Drugs, videogames and anime, basically. That's all that has been keeping me here this long, and I still have a massive backlog I would've wanted to go through.

But that'll be over soon. I'll literally have nothing left. I feel kinda hopeless. I can't even sleep anymore without pills. Otherwise it takes me like 5 hours to fall asleep, because my thoughts are driving me crazy, and I can't make my brain shut up.

I always knew I'd die by suicide or a drug overdose (had my cocktail prepared a long time ago). Just wasn't expecting it to be forced on me like this, and so soon.

Man, I hate living on this planet. I'm so fucking jealous of rich people, they're the only once who can truly enjoy life. The rest of us are nothing but replacable slaves no one gives a fuck about, with the exception of close family, I guess. What I wouldn't give to witness the end of the world with my own eyes.

I don't even know what I'm expecting posting this here. I just felt like ranting.

 

[barelyrussian]

I'm so sorry you have to experience this, it's ridiculous how cruel society is to people and how you're expected to fend for yourself if you're unfit to work

I hope you can find some way out of this, you've probably thought about your options more than I have, but are you able to travel anywhere, do you have any more family you could live with?

I'm so sorry you have so little options

 

[Geist]

I hope you can find some way out of this, you've probably thought about your options more than I have, but are you able to travel anywhere, do you have any more family you could live with?

My mother was the only person left. My sister already moved in with a friend of hers. I doubt they could, or even want to take me in. We're not exactly close. I don't have any friends, except for 1 who lives on the other end of country, but he also lives with his mom in a tiny apartment.

I still have 2 slivers of hope. I've had some appointments with certain orginisations that could take me in, but I already got rejected by one of them, and am still awaiting a response from the other one. However, I've learned long ago to never get your hopes up. My motto has always been "If you don't have hope, you can't be dissapointed", so I'm fully expecting them to reject me also.

The appointment for the last place has yet to be set up by my... carer? adviser? I'm not sure how to translate what she is. She basically helps me out once a week with general life stuff, like filling out documents and such. She is on vacation for 2 weeks right now tho.

If I get rejected from all places, and can't find my own place soon... I honestly don't know. I'm already trying to figure out how to write a will, just in case. I at least want to make sure my electronics will go to my mentioned friend. I don't really have anything else of worth, so the rest can go to the trash for all I care.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really is so cruel how people have to suffer so much in this existence, I also hate this hellish world, I find it so horrible how such a thing as homelessness even exists.

 

[lucyna]

Ever since my mom died back in april, my life has been very stressful. I was living with her and my sister, but my sis moved out shortly before my moms death, and the place was way too big and expensive for myself.

I already would've been homeless, but by sheer luck I got an apartment in an old folks home (they're tearing it down soon, so nobody would've moved in here anyway, which is why I was allowed to move in until they tear it down). However, the dealine is coming up fast. I have to be out of here soon, preferably before christmas.

I have been looking for apartments, but since I'm legitimately unfit for work, and therefore get paid by the state/government, I barely get enough money to get by. Needless to say, I don't have a lot of options when it comes to finding new places. And let's be real here, why would any landlord prefer me over a student / someone who works. I'm probably just worthless scum in their eyes. No one ever even bothers responding, I just get ignored all the time.

I'm already resigning myself to the fact that I'll be homeless (dead) soon. I don't even own a car, so I would literally have to sleep on the streets. And once I lose my home, my income will get cut off too, so I'd have beg people for money. Yea, fuck that...

I just don't see a way around it anymore. Worst part is... I don't even want to die yet. I've had depression all my life, I was also highly suicidal during a certain time, but I've since found a reason to endure it. Drugs, videogames and anime, basically. That's all that has been keeping me here this long, and I still have a massive backlog I would've wanted to go through.

But that'll be over soon. I'll literally have nothing left. I feel kinda hopeless. I can't even sleep anymore without pills. Otherwise it takes me like 5 hours to fall asleep, because my thoughts are driving me crazy, and I can't make my brain shut up.

I always knew I'd die by suicide or a drug overdose (had my cocktail prepared a long time ago). Just wasn't expecting it to be forced on me like this, and so soon.

Man, I hate living on this planet. I'm so fucking jealous of rich people, they're the only once who can truly enjoy life. The rest of us are nothing but replacable slaves no one gives a fuck about, with the exception of close family, I guess. What I wouldn't give to witness the end of the world with my own eyes.

I don't even know what I'm expecting posting this here. I just felt like ranting.

i know exactly how you feel right now, it's one of the most stressful things to worry about and i'm so sorry you're going through it.

 

[ShouldIDoIt?]

I'm sorry to hear that you're going through so much right now. I literally just lost my job and I've just split up with my partner so I've ended up moving into a new rental property a few weeks back and now I won't be able to afford it unless I find a new job in the coming weeks. Life is so unfair to so many people

 

[Dying2077]

Shelter is the utmost basics of life. Why don't governments build a house for every person? Like the video, it only costs 5 workers and 7 days to work. Is this a lot!!


Very nice house for two people

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Man, I hate living on this planet. I'm so fucking jealous of rich people, they're the only once who can truly enjoy life.

Yeah, I envy the hell out of them, that circumstances went so well for them that they get to do as they please and live a life that they definitely wouldn't want to give up.

Shelter is the utmost basics of life. Why don't governments build a house for every person? Like the video, it only costs 5 workers and 7 days to work. Is this a lot!!


Very nice house for two people

Nah, too difficult for any government who want to profit off of if first before even concerning themselves with giving a basic such as shelter to those who need it a lot.

 

[Huggs]

I understand the terrible pressure and stress, I'm also at risk of going homeless and am in debt. I'm sorry that you're going through this. The organizations might help. The reasons you mentioned for staying are valid ones, I would wait. I wish you the best.

 

[Dying2077]

Yeah, I envy the hell out of them, that circumstances went so well for them that they get to do as they please and live a life that they definitely wouldn't want to give up.

Nah, too difficult for any government who want to profit off of if first before even concerning themselves with giving a basic such as shelter to those who need it a lot.

Is this really difficult? I have read that the cost of this house is 10 thousand dollars and it is very suitable for two people. Instead of sending and recruiting soldiers for war, why is there not a system in every country that takes one year from each person to build people's homes? 365 of each person's life means that each person will participate in building at least 50 homes! With simple education for 3 months or so, isn't it a viable and beautiful idea!? It is simple and ready, so women and men can work with ease

 

[Ernest1964]

A free. If I became homeless I would CTB that week.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Is this really difficult? I have read that the cost of this house is 10 thousand dollars and it is very suitable for two people. Instead of sending and recruiting soldiers for war, why is there not a system in every country that takes one year from each person to build people's homes? 365 of each person's life means that each person will participate in building at least 50 homes! With simple education for 3 months or so, isn't it a viable and beautiful idea!? It is simple and ready, so women and men can work with ease

Again, government interests rarely do align with taking of people unless they can profit off of it first. Same with how much it could cost to solve homelessness but guess what, it's not in the interests at the powers at be to give a damn about solving it.

 

[Geist]

Wow, I wasn't expecting so many people to chime in. I've tried other places, but you're lucky to get even one person to pretend like they care. Guess I found the right place for talking about this kinda stuff. Thanks guys. Oh btw, can you not edit posts? I discovered a typo in my last post, and it's really bugging me.

It really is so cruel how people have to suffer so much in this existence, I also hate this hellish world, I find it so horrible how such a thing as homelessness even exists.

I'm fully with you there. I genuinely believe the whole point of human life is to just to be a mindless slave and work. Oh, and please do us all a favor and die before you get to retirement, so wen can pocket all your money.
People like me, who are unfit for work, are just treated like leeches. You can just feel and see the contempt/judgement in everyones eyes when I tell them. But whatever, I stopped caring what people think about me long ago. Jokes on you, I kinda cheated the system. Bet they're just jealous, that's probably what makes them so mad.

I'm sorry to hear that you're going through so much right now. I literally just lost my job and I've just split up with my partner so I've ended up moving into a new rental property a few weeks back and now I won't be able to afford it unless I find a new job in the coming weeks. Life is so unfair to so many people

Damn. I fortunately (or unfortunately?) never had to go through a serious break-up, though I imagine loosing a close family member is somewhat similiar to that? I could see having more of an emotional attachment to someone you really love in a physical way tho. I hope you'll get over sooner rather than later. And good luck with your job search. I really hope you won't have to settle for something you absolutely hate, just to get by. Life is a bitch like that.

Shelter is the utmost basics of life. Why don't governments build a house for every person? Like the video, it only costs 5 workers and 7 days to work. Is this a lot!!

I think you're forgetting that the government doesn't care about us replacable plebs. They'll kiss your ass and roll out the red carpet for all the rich folks, but they really don't care about us normal folk. Let's be real, when has the government ever cared about it's people? We're just something for them to exploit so they can fill up their own pockets. Corruption everywhere, even in "first world countries" And what @Uesugi-Lord said, basically.

Yeah, I envy the hell out of them, that circumstances went so well for them that they get to do as they please and live a life that they definitely wouldn't want to give up.

Life is nothing but a lottery. All this "believe in your dreams and you can make them true" bullshit is nothing but lies. 90% of rich people (don't quote me on that) just get born into a wealthy family, get into the family business and they're settled for life. Not even laws apply to them, because hey... nothing can't be solved with a lot of money. Unless they do something truly heinous, but that's just so the government can save face, not that they actually care.

I understand the terrible pressure and stress, I'm also at risk of going homeless and am in debt. I'm sorry that you're going through this. The organizations might help. The reasons you mentioned for staying are valid ones, I would wait. I wish you the best.

Sorry to hear that. The added worry of being in debt makes it even worse. And considering the forum we're on, I can guess how you're feeling (not to be presumptuous). I hope your debt isn't too deep. I think it's pretty common in the US (for example) to stay in debt your whole life, which is another thing that's just crazy to me. You're being set up for failure right off the bat. Ugh, fuck this planet.

Is this really difficult? I have read that the cost of this house is 10 thousand dollars and it is very suitable for two people. Instead of sending and recruiting soldiers for war, why is there not a system in every country that takes one year from each person to build people's homes? 365 of each person's life means that each person will participate in building at least 50 homes! With simple education for 3 months or so, isn't it a viable and beautiful idea!? It is simple and ready, so women and men can work with ease

I'll just repeat for I said. The problem with your suggestion is that nobody in power gives a damn about any of us. It's a beautiful idea, sure, but you have to remember... nobody, especially the government, does anything out of the kindness of their heart. And what you're describing sounds mostly like volunteer work. If there isn't any profit to be made, they'll just tell you go F yourself and stop taking up resources. And god forbid they actually have to pay you for your work too, which is another reason they'd never do it. + What @Uesugi-Lord said in his second response.


It's just really sad. We humans had so much potential. But our entire history is nothing but war and bloodshed, greed and egoistical behaviour. To this day, nothing has changed, and it never will. I'm genuinely convinced to the world is not going to last all that much longer anyway. We're really good destroying everything, but terrible at fixing things. The current people in power don't care. "That's something for the next generation to worry about". It'll be too late by then to do anything about it tho, mark my words. Serves us right anyway.

 

[jbear824]

I'm kinda in the same boat OP. I can't work because of mental illness, and me and my partner are going to be permanently/long term homeless sometime next year.

Suicide seems to be the only way out of homelessness when you can't work. Only I can't abandon my partner. So I'm stuck.

I feel for you OP.

 

[Geist]

I'm kinda in the same boat OP. I can't work because of mental illness, and me and my partner are going to be permanently/long term homeless sometime next year.

Suicide seems to be the only way out of homelessness when you can't work. Only I can't abandon my partner. So I'm stuck.

I feel for you OP.

Does it make it easier or harder having a partner? I've given up on dating over 10 years ago, and never had relationship longer than a month, so I really can't relate to what it's like to have someone by your side. I'd imagine it makes it easier. We have a saying in germany which basically translates to "shared pain is halved pain.". Would you agree with that?

And are both you and your partner in this predicament, and will both end up homeless, or does he/she have a backup place he/she can stay at, like parents or close friends. I'm assuming that's not an option you have.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Does it make it easier or harder having a partner? I've given up dating over 10 years ago, and never had relationship longer than a month, so I really can't relate to what it's like to have someone by your side. I'd imagine it makes it easier. We have a saying in germany which basically translates to "shared pain is half pain.". Would you agree with that?

And are both you and your partner in this predicament, and will both end up homeless, or does he/she have a backup place he/she can stay at, like parents or close friends. I'm assuming that's not an option you have.

I guess Germany isn't the social utopia it's made out to be.

I really hope you find a solution.

 

[Geist]

I guess Germany isn't the social utopia it's made out to be.

I'm not going to lie, I've had it relatively good, all things considered. The main issue I have, is the little time I have left to find a permanent place to live in. My deadline is coming up soon, and there are a lot of people looking for places right now. And with my income I barely have options to begin with. And as I've said, I highly doubt anyone would pick me over a student or someone who works. I would probably find a place given enough time, but that's the one thing I don't have. Otherwise, things would be fine.

 

[Ampsvx123]

There is nothing to be jealous of rich people, death is dutiful, an immortal God, the one with a perfect record, the only one worthy of trust.
What are a few years of goodness, when all too soon Crohn's disease and worse come for all? None escape their life of sins. Lament not your homelessness, but watch the horrors and brutalities of Ukraine and Palestine. U have it good.