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Emilyismew

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Apr 7, 2020
15
hi
This isn't the same website as before I believe. But it's something.

A few years ago I was lost in the world. I was in a void and didn't know what to do. Just 18 no job, no license, no friends.
My depression consumed me. I found a forum. And posted a thread about a partner. Looking for Mutual support... and ended it with meow. I was a naive little girl. Who didn't know what I was getting myself into. One person responded but not in the way I imagined.

it was just a link to a chat site. My anxiety flared but I talked. And talked with someone who I didnt know was the admin. I had no idea who he was. But eventually I came to find out he was the guy who left the link.
The chat was sad. People died, there were drama from other chats, doxxing, cat fishing. It took my mind off reality though and I had people to talk to
I got better slowly finding hope. Getting my life together. But there was always this one constant person who knew me. Knew the naive little girl. Who didn't want a partner to commit suicide with. But a friend. The Admin.
I fell in love with out ever meeting
he was my best friend. The one who put butterflies in my tummy. The one I hoped for.
and he loved me too! He was shocked that someone like me could love him.. but I thought it was reversed.
our relationship did became more off the screens.
I visited him even though he was across the country . I had a plan in my head that this would be more. My depression was still there. But I had someone to be with.
But his depression was still there as well. And I won't get into the details. But fantasy turned dark
And one day he wasn't here anymore.
There's a lot more to this story. I'll probably continue. But right now that's where I'll leave it at.
this is my story of soul mates.
 
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Paull

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Apr 8, 2020
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hi
This isn't the same website as before I believe. But it's something.

A few years ago I was lost in the world. I was in a void and didn't know what to do. Just 18 no job, no license, no friends.
My depression consumed me. I found a forum. And posted a thread about a partner. Looking for Mutual support... and ended it with meow. I was a naive little girl. Who didn't know what I was getting myself into. One person responded but not in the way I imagined.

it was just a link to a chat site. My anxiety flared but I talked. And talked with someone who I didnt know was the admin. I had no idea who he was. But eventually I came to find out he was the guy who left the link.
The chat was sad. People died, there were drama from other chats, doxxing, cat fishing. It took my mind off reality though and I had people to talk to
I got better slowly finding hope. Getting my life together. But there was always this one constant person who knew me. Knew the naive little girl. Who didn't want a partner to commit suicide with. But a friend. The Admin.
I fell in love with out ever meeting
he was my best friend. The one who put butterflies in my tummy. The one I hoped for.
and he loved me too! He was shocked that someone like me could love him.. but I thought it was reversed.
our relationship did became more off the screens.
I visited him even though he was across the country . I had a plan in my head that this would be more. My depression was still there. But I had someone to be with.
But his depression was still there as well. And I won't get into the details. But fantasy turned dark
And one day he wasn't here anymore.
There's a lot more to this story. I'll probably continue. But right now that's where I'll leave it at.
this is my story of soul mates.
Is he not in touch with you or did he ctb?
 
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Emilyismew

Member
Apr 7, 2020
15
Im so sorry.. didn't he tell you?
It's a very long journey we went through. It didn't happen over night. From the very beginning I knew.
 
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