Hi Risa
Your situation is extremely difficult to comment on. Do you have any idea what might have caused it? Walks us though your life. We all are sufferers here.
Don't give in to the voices you hear, we are here for you
Well before I got sick the first time 9 years ago. I had problems with being bullied, I was the nerd in the class, the anime kid, I spent my whole time alone watching anime and playing playstation. I hated myself, I really did. I was lonely as fuck could never sleep. I found myself to be really ugly and people told me that too.
I had social anxiety pretty bad I couldn't leave the house alone, got all sweaty if I had to say something and cried a lot. Then I got sick and went back to school at 18 to finish. So I felt like shit but for some reason I had become pretty over that time (guess puperty) so people treated me extra nice. Seriously I knew that before but people are shallow, so I used that so that people couldn't figure out I'm in constant pain. A smile here a smile there, nice cloths, always joking, good grades, and because everything was like a mask I could stop being anxious, my social anxiety stopped because for the first time I actually would talk to people and I made friends. But still constant pain everything else I already wrote. The doctors said it was caused by the bullying but I don't know.
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Well before I got sick the first time 9 years ago. I had problems with being bullied, I was the nerd in the class, the anime kid, I spent my whole time alone watching anime and playing playstation. I hated myself, I really did. I was lonely as fuck could never sleep. I found myself to be really ugly and people told me that too.
I had social anxiety pretty bad I couldn't leave the house alone, got all sweaty if I had to say something and cried a lot. Then I got sick and went back to school at 18 to finish. So I felt like shit but for some reason I had become pretty over that time (guess puperty) so people treated me extra nice. Seriously I knew that before but people are shallow, so I used that so that people couldn't figure out I'm in constant pain. A smile here a smile there, nice cloths, always joking, good grades, and because everything was like a mask I could stop being anxious, my social anxiety stopped because for the first time I actually would talk to people and I made friends. But still constant pain everything else I already wrote. The doctors said it was caused by the bullying but I don't know.
Well before I got sick the first time 9 years ago. I had problems with being bullied, I was the nerd in the class, the anime kid, I spent my whole time alone watching anime and playing playstation. I hated myself, I really did. I was lonely as fuck could never sleep. I found myself to be really ugly and people told me that too.
I had social anxiety pretty bad I couldn't leave the house alone, got all sweaty if I had to say something and cried a lot. Then I got sick and went back to school at 18 to finish. So I felt like shit but for some reason I had become pretty over that time (guess puperty) so people treated me extra nice. Seriously I knew that before but people are shallow, so I used that so that people couldn't figure out I'm in constant pain. A smile here a smile there, nice cloths, always joking, good grades, and because everything was like a mask I could stop being anxious, my social anxiety stopped because for the first time I actually would talk to people and I made friends. But still constant pain everything else I already wrote. The doctors said it was caused by the bullying but I don't know.
QUOTE="Spitfire, post: 886066, member: 17508"]
You are welcome. I wish there was a better answer I could come up with to help you.
I experience voices. Four distinct voices not including my normal thinking voice.
It may sound a little strange. I have found for me there is a certain position where if I put my head at this exact particular angle it can turn off the worst of the voices. It is not a very good angle to be at, and I can't stay there like that for very long at a time. It can provide a moment of relief though when I do it. I wish you had something like that too.
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I'm sorry I know what it's like. My family knows that I'm suffering but you can't really understand until you have it yourself. Constantly being tortured by this is hell. Sadly I don't have that no